Water Snake

by M.G. Warenycia

“Somebody forgot to put their headphones on?” The question provoked mischievous snickering around the chaotically communal office. The huffing and sniffling, however, was not emanating from a not-safe-for-work website which someone had been amusing themselves with while forgetting to mute the volume. Minnie’s tanned and rosy cheeks blanched from embarrassment at the attention suddenly surrounding her: she, in fact, been deliberately exaggerating her discomfort, hoping to draw sympathy without having to make a direct complain to higher-ups. It didn’t help that, with her too-small scarlet blouse and lycra-infused pencil skirt, she was a perfect fit for a couple of popular search categories on just such websites. Nor did it help that in her ‘work’ she was basically acting as an ornament waiting for a husband.

Mind, the same was true of most everyone in the office, female or male. Johan was finishing a book; Ting-Ting did homework for graduate courses, while Lucas rambled about recent dates and planned future ones out loud. There wasn’t much work to do, not only because it was summer but because the office itself was in a state of flux. One week, the department sent word down that they would all be removed to new quarters on Russell Street. By Friday, this would be revised, as someone whose existing office space in the aforementioned location would be shifted protested the move, lest there be competition for parking spaces or their prize ficus plant, growing since the Mulroney era, be deprived of its accustomed portion of sunlight. Their boss, a wild haired, wilder eyed bachelor who’d plunked into the tenure track almost directly upon completing a few years of intensive fieldwork in the cocaine-route jungles of the southern and the Boreal woods of the northern halves of the American hemisphere, was kind and understanding. He expected little from his numerous underlings, and, since he wasn’t paying their salaries, their mental well-being was his chief priority. For their part, the office staff dutifully collected their paychecks and made no comment on the irregularities of their situation.

Indeed, especially in the lazy days of summer when the University as a whole ran at a slower pace, the building felt like their own private castle. It certainly looked the part. It wasn’t the only grand Victorian structure which some guilt-ridden heiress had willed to the University, but it was unique for its unitary bulk and stature, cleanly separated from the crowding of neighbouring buildings and free of the barnacle-like additions imposed by architecturally ignorant modern planners upon those structures situated on the main campus grounds.

Instead, it stood alone and unmolested by modernity, stalwart and solemn on an unusually circular island in the middle of Spadina Avenue. Pedestrians were kept at a distance by default, for the sidewalks on either side of the broad avenue did not cross it and traffic hardly slowed at the pseudo roundabout created by the premises.

There was definitely something eerie about the place; some ingredient which distinguished it from other buildings in the neighbourhood which were of similar vintage. Something more than mere oldness seemed to spread a musty veil over it, darkening the mood of those who gazed upon it, regardless of hour or season, though residents and frequent visitors to the area rumoured that this unique character was weakest in dry, sunny weather and strongest in darkness and rain, or when the winter snow-heaps melted into mud.

The rain had been rolling off the bushy canopy of Norway maples like off of giant umbrellas, regular thunderclaps shattering what had been a prolonged heatwave. Dan Rodgers, of Annex Plumbing Co. Ltd., was rare in not minding doing jobs in these hot, humid conditions. Many years of an unbroken sequence of exhaustion, treated by binge consumption of the LCBO’s most generic prescriptions, themselves fulfilled by the very paychecks that rendered them necessary…Add on top of that a general disconnection from society beyond that cyclic rhythm of toil and succour for toil, and Dan’s senses were comfortably dulled. If there were pipes that needed fixing and a steak and a cold six pack at the end of it, then he might sweat litres, scuff knees and knuckles till they bled, sewing in the grime all around him until the last nut was tight and the H2O flowing again, he would do it – full of curses, perhaps, but no complaints.

He had not, however, ceased to hate being called to office-hour jobs in zones like this one, where you were away from any big parking lots and also from any street which wasn’t parked up 24/7 on account of being built before automobiles were a thing. Whatever tools they needed had to be lugged a full block from where he left the hulking white Econoline. He would have said he was lucky to have an assistant, except that the kid was a placeholder sent out from one of those temp agencies which Annex Plumbing Co. (which he was merely an employee of) had begun dealing with. Bright-eyed, full of energy and enthusiasm,; no way in hell he would be working at this job in five years. You could just tell. By the time a kid was old enough to work – legally, that is – you could tell which ones went to Maple Leaf Gardens and the demolition derby on the weekends, and which ones were examining bugs and bones in the R.O.M. and Science Centre when they were in primary school. The latter might sincerely want to ‘learn a trade’ when they started, but, in all his decades of experience, he’d never met one who didn’t run as far as they could from any kind of manual labour, straight into the softly upholstered bosom of academia or one of the hoity-toity office professions. Not one.

“The batteries on the ground mic and the angle grinder are topped up? I get the feeling this’ll be a big one,” he asked his assistant without making eye contact.

The temp fumed silently for a second before answering. “They should be okay.” He wondered why Dan hadn’t asked before they drove out to the job site. It was like this, what, two or three times already; like Dan was testing his diligence – or his nerves.

“They should be? I didn’t ask you whether they should be; you’re supposed to know that before they send you out here. Anyway, how do you spell your name again? For the time sheets; gotta fill this out…” Dan echoed back each letter, his affected airy pronunciations hinting at his view of the inefficient, illogical appellation that was Estêvão Cerqueira.

Once Dan had completed the documentation which would be too fatiguing to check carefully after the workday was done, the pair made their way into the half elegant, half dismembered lobby of the old building. “That’s what happens when parents don’t let their kids do Boy Scouts anymore, or Cadets or anything like that,” Dan remarked for the benefit of an imaginary audience of plaid-clad roughnecks holding conclave over a Coleman full of Molson’s, referring to the sorts of people, both staff and the handful of grad students who were milling about. “Anyway, let’s see who’s in charge. You’d think it’s gotta be some undead count who has to hide from the sunlight, eh?”

Estevao chuckled softly. By this point, at the end of the week, his feet only moved by purposeful and continuous command. To set the toolbox down, he had to rotate his shoulders and hips to bring it lower, then he dropped it, hoping it would not fall so far as to make much noise, considering it a success when he managed to perform the maneuver without bending back or knees.

It was easy enough to find the huge main doors, but with all the piled boxes, stacked chairs and extension cords snaking haphazardly around the lobby, it was hard to tell where exactly people did the regular office work and where renovations were being carried out.

Dan, mindful of his assistant, planted his feet firmly and scanned the room. He knew someone would notice their tradesmen’s clothes and tool boxes, then direct them where they were needed.

Clacking heels and balancing a heap of styrofoam boxes of pad Thai and curry, Minnie came up on them from behind. “Hey, hello, you guys are the plumbers?” she chirped.

“What do you think?” Dan thought to himself. “That’s right, Miss, just, ah, we are from the plumbing company, but nobody from here spoke to me personally. You would have been talking to the receptionist, but Mable, our regular gal in charge of dispatching everyone, like nine-one-one, y’know, she’s off on maternity leave and we have a temp filling in.” Estevao stared at the floor. “All anybody told me was there’s a leak or a smell or something. Don’t even know where exactly we’re supposed to be looking at, what unit or whatever.”

“Oh…oh, no, no, it wasn’t me that called your company, no,” Minnie said over her shoulder as she hurried to her desk to lay out the feast for her and her office mates. “You have to speak to Professor Cardinal, in room 118. He was saying he was going to call a plumber, and right now he’s in charge, so…”

“Okay, Miss. Hey – “ Dan hissed at Estevao, seeing where his eyes were wandering. “What are you lookin’ at? You want an HR complaint to get filed on us? Come on.”

The two plumbers waited a good fraction of a minute before the aforementioned academic opened the yellowish wooden door, though he welcomed them with hearty hospitality – quite the opposite of most of these ivory tower types, both workmen thought to themselves; the usual rule being to presume that tradesman are an unnatural and unwelcome intrusion into their sacred spaces – a sentiment rarely concealed.

The Professor wore a sober dark suit which contrasted in a way that he must have known people would notice (yet be afraid to admit they noticed) with the beadwork jewelry he wore, elaborate in design and emphatic in colour, as well as with the multiple necklaces of leathern cord bearing amulets visible in place of a tie. Estevao, who was a scholar no matter how he tried to deny it, observed that this surely deliberate contrast extended to the Professor’s bookshelves, which, like all tenured academics, were as fulsome with symbolism as with references. Binders bearing prosaic labels such as “Cadastral Survey: Simcoe County, 1898”and “1969 White Paper,” and dour old colonial works like William R. Caniff’s History of the Settlement of Upper Canada were juxtaposed with ideological tracts like uTOpia, The Poverty Wall, and Prison of Grass. Exotic and yet, therefore also appropriate, were esoteric volumes (based on the covers alone; Estevao had never heard of them before) with titles such as The Golden Bough and Necronomicon.

“I apologize that there is no building manager – as you can see, organization here right now is, well, there’s none to speak of!” The Professor smiled, gesturing to the activity outside the office, invisible behind the door. “This ‘ancient ruin,’ as you can probably figure just from looking at it, needs a whole lot more TLC than the administration has been giving it.”

“Yeah, you can say that again,” Dan had already made mental notes of the various patches of moss and discoloration due to dampness on numerous portions of the exterior stonework.

“They’re not even sure what to do with it.” Professor Cardinal rose from his chair, pacing thoughtfully in front of the obsolete map of the City of Metropolitan Toronto framed upon his wall. “You have to ask why they built it here,” he mused. Dan and Estevao both picked up on the unusual emphasis and were confused by it. The master plumber was oblivious, but Estevao’s imaginative eye fell upon a feather-draped circle divided into red, yellow, white and black quadrants. “They put a road – this road – right here, exactly in a straight line to the wetlands up north – and then they insisted on putting this circle, which is a terrible waste of land, if you’re thinking of developers and profits, which they usually are, and then they plunked this colossal monstrosity of a building on top of it all. Even in horse and buggy days, it must have been noisy, traffic running all around in a circle. What can I say? I’m just the messenger. So, people around the office have been complaining about weird smells lately.”

“Sewage leak?”

“Not sure, really. Nobody seems able to agree on what they’re smelling, but that’s the funny part, nobody says anything like sewage. Musty, musky, sour, cheesy, ‘dusty,’ if that’s a smell. Noises, too.”

“Uh-huh…and what kind of noises?”

“Rushing, gurgling, hissing.”

“Hissing? We talking water or a gas leak?”

“That’s just what Minnie and Tina said. Couldn’t say, myself.” Professor Cardinal stared calmly and lifted a spiral bound course reading from the shelf. Dan was flipping through the notebook he’d use to calculate the charges, but Estevao was mesmerized by the Professor – and astonished to see that the pages of the ‘course reader’ were manuscript, not printed. Alas, he was too shy to ask questions. Indeed, he was beginning to grow sorely envious of his peers who were sitting down in lecture halls and reading pdfs on their computers at home instead of mucking about in the moldy bowels of an assuredly asbestos-stuffed, lead-painted edifice. “Notes on Guiana Trip…G.H. Belzer – N.P…” Estevao could not discern the rest of the title. N.P.? Not printed, he guessed…or not for publication? Ugh, how his muscles and joints cried for a soft mattress…

Professor Cardinal led the plumbers down a long flight of stairs to a basement corridor which branched off into numerous rooms, some covered by grates, others by steel utility doors and still others were bare niches in the wall of the corridor or, to be technically precise, gouged out of the foundation itself. As he left them to their task, hunching forward and lowering his voice, adding that there may be…”dangerous animals” – he enunciated the phrase slowly and suggestively – down in the basement. “Two of the secretaries claimed to have seen something in the washroom closest to the stairwell…rat, raccoon, it was a power outage and they were hysterical; one of them was sure it was a snake or a lizard; couldn’t tell. ”

“Eh, sorry to hear that, buddy, but that’s more of a thing for animal control,” Dan dismissed his warnings.

Cardinal stared gravely, explaining that he did not want to make such a call because, based on his experience as an amateur naturalist as well as a property owner, there might be all kinds of hassles if the creature in question turned onto be on one of the “Red Lists” of endangered species sought by different government agencies and environmental activists – which practically every native reptile, from Nerodia sipedon to Pantherophis spiloides was – then it could be an enormous headache for the property owner. He reassured the plumbers that a large, enclosed concrete building was not the natural habitat of any of these species, in case they were feeling squeamish, and, therefore, they had likely come in to escape harsh weather and were likely few in number and trying to escape, if they hadn’t already.

“Not poisonous though? Not scared; just checking.”

Cardinal answered that there was nothing in this part of Ontario that was venomous – they merely bit when manhandled. “It’s beautiful in a way, when you think about it,” he reflected. “They built this City – huge, millions of people, cars, so big you can walk till you’re tired and not reach the end of it – and there’s still this highway; this network of interconnected natural highways…all the creeks, rivers, meadows running through everything like a spider web…it used to be highways for people, too; still is for Nature.”

Dan walked slowly, following the tight circles of the narrow corridor, occasionally stopping to shine a flashlight into a darkened space. There were not many of those, since the lighting was up to code, or at least the standards of the mid 1990s; no LEDs but not too bad. Every now and then he mumbled a truncated phrase or let out a restrained breath…

Estevao forced himself to stop looking at his supervisor’s face so much. “What the heck is he talking about?” Estevao wondered to himself, fretting that Dan must be making observations for mental notes regarding stuff from the chapters Estevao had skimmed over in his apprenticeship classes. Gradually, he realized, he was being overtaken by anxiety; muscles twitching sharply in irritation, forehead tense – if only Dan would just tell him what they need to do, and to get down to it, then he could push everything else out of his mind.

Dan studiously consulted the moisture gauge as he went. “Funny,” he finally confessed out loud. “Maybe it’s because this whole huge foundation – gotta be what, hundred ‘n thirty years old – probably doesn’t breathe properly…they didn’t build that in; just cared about keeping the heat inside in winter.” It appeared to both his eyes and to the meter he used for detecting subterranean water – it worked something like a sonar – that there was a pipe of some kind, and a substantial leak. Yet when he would reposition himself to investigate more closely, all of a sudden the ‘damp patch’ on the concrete would appear to blend in with the rest of the wall, as if it had been a mere trick of the light.

“He was right, that guy. I can definitely smell something…can’t say what kind, but something animal; something living,” Estevao piped up, doing his best to show Dan that he really was learning the ropes. “Eugh! It’s like…like a sewage leak or something? Right?They mentioned the office washroom, I remember, though I guess we’re way too far down the hall now…” He trailed off, realizing that, in their wandering inspection, they must have travelled at least a dozen metres from where they entered the corridor.

“Sewage leak?!? Do you smell sewage?” Dan’s tone told that only an incompetent temp would believe that a sewage leak was, in fact, the problem. On the other hand, there was definitely an odour to the place. Estevao wasn’t about to ask until he was 100% confident he wouldn’t be made to look like a helpless noob. Dan would know…What was this basement used for, exactly? None of the rooms were classrooms, nor did it appear they had ever been used as such. Furthermore, what storage there was seemed to be mainly incidental: the piling up of leftover materials from construction and renovation projects begun and finished or abandoned over the decades, along with cheap and battered tools deemed not worth the effort to haul back to the surface. No one, Estevao reckoned, had ever spent much time down there except out of necessity and in the presence of numerous colleagues. He shuddered, hoping Dan didn’t notice. The place gave him the creeps, yet there was nothing specific he could cite as a reason why this was so. The only thing he could put his finger on was the smell: revolting and indecipherable, while somehow strangely familiar…

The corridor undulated left and right at 90-degree angles but always holding the same general direction. Dan made no mention of it, but he was following the info on his moisture meter, as well as the smell and his lengthy experience which had rendered his senses finely attuned to the faintest changes in temperature and humidity.

Abruptly, just beyond the next kink in the passage, the lighting failed. Only a single, flickering fluorescent tube in one plexiglass rectangle of a drop ceiling illuminated the section.

“Huh…” Dan vocalized something for the first time in a couple minutes. He’d become suddenly aware that he had imperceptibly ceased to banter and comment, even unconsciously modulating his breathing to make less noise. It felt like an unforgivable slip-up, to have not been dispelling the silence in those past few moments. “Hmmm…” He scuffed his boot over the separations between the tiles on the floor, expecting the edge of his sole to catch on something. If there was a longstanding water or sewage leakage issue, there should have been some significant buckling. He checked the batteries on his meters and gauges. The hygrometer indicated humidity levels were rapidly increasing as they progressed down the corridor, while the groundwater detector shows that a major water flow was very near, whether man-made or natural. And the smell was almost overpowering. Taking another ‘reading’ with his nose, Dan perceived that it was not the stench of compost or decay, nor the fetor of old cheese, nor the sour reek of the residues dripped by a skip bin or garbage truck in summer, yet it possessed some of the character of all of these. Heat, rocks, stink, darkness…

“M…my brother’s gone out west…” Estevao spoke timidly. He must have been feeling the Silence, too. “I remember, you said you sued to live in Winnipeg, too. You were born there, right? He’s, uh, going into trucking…got his…whatever the license is for if you’re driving a tractor-trailer.”

“AZ.”

“Huh?”

“The license you’re talking about. AZ; class A, Z is for the air-brake endorsement. You want me to give him advice?”

Estevao opened his mouth –

“Sorry bud; that was a long time ago.” Dan’s voice suddenly grew wet and hollow.

“Yeah, but you were saying…never mind, sorry.” Estevao turned, poked around at the walls, lest Dan catch the pained expression on his face. He felt doubly stupid, since he honestly didn’t need to ask any questions about his brother or anything personal like thiat; it had simply seemed like a positive way to fill empty space in the conversation and to subtly show Dan that he respected his opinions and advice. “I dunno, thought’s maybe he could learn something from your stories, if I let him know, that’s all.”

“You did, did ya?” Dan snorted. Estevao’s hands were feeble and his hands shook on the flashlight he was holding – he was accustomed to the gruff, tough-guy attitude from his supervisor, but Dan’s biting response to his earnest attempt at building a mentor-mentee relationship were genuinely hurtful. “Can’t say he’ll learn much. ‘Cept that you oughta show up on time, keep your mouth shut, and pick up your cheque. And if you get fucked up while you’re at it, it’s on you then, buddy.”

Estevao gulped. He had been binge-watching those gruesome ‘work safe’ clips on Youtube and felt that his job of mostly holding tools and fetching coffee for plumbers was pathetic compared to what those guys who live out in the woods while chopping down trees with chainsaws, or drilling oil on the prairie do for a living.

Dan didn’t mean to snap. He was on edge, though. There was something about this gig he didn’t like. Plus, he hated multi-tasking and this was too many tasks at once. He had half a mind, in fact, to go back up, get into the outside air, drive back to the company office and get his meters and gauges tested. It was sometimes a thing – rare with professional grade equipment, as opposed to the junk you buy at Canadian Tire – but it did sometimes happen that equipment malfunctioned. Likewise, after enough practice, you could tell roughly what the readings you’d expect to get should be. When they were so out of bounds as to be unbelievable, then you knew there was something wrong with your gear.

Trouble was, all of Dan’s devices were reading total nonsense. There was no way relative humidity was 99.999%. Shutting the monitor off and restarting it didn’t help. The groundwater detector – a device which resembled a sci-fi ray gun – also appeared to be on the fritz. “Huh. Well, screw that,” Dan grunted. “If you believed this thing, we’re already underwater.” He spoke with exasperation rather than anger. He didn’t bash his tools or stomp his boots, as Estevao had seen him do losing his temper before. Estevao found this most unsettling. Cautiously, Dan packed away his tools, except the flashlight and a heavy wrench. “At least my watch still works, heheh,” he laughed weakly. Estevao was too modern to wear a watch, instinctively checking his phone instead. No signal. Dan said nothing more, but Estevao noticed he tightened his grip on that wrench and flexed his knees slightly. A curious energy had flooded into his supervisor; an energy and an attitude etched on his face that altered his mien such that Estevao barely recognized him. “What are you?” Dan whispered out of nowhere.

“What am I?”

“You’re family; where you’re from.”

“Uhh…” Estevao wasn’t ideologically trained by university to answer, perversely, ‘Canadian.’ “Brazilian Portuguese on my dad’s side and, on my mom’s, white Canadian. I think Scottish, Irish, maybe something else.”

Dan was visibly relieved, for no reason that Estevao could guess. Switching topics, Dan asked: “It’s tense, you know; don’t you feel something’s not right here? Like we’re wandering in circles? Wish they had given us a floorplan…Where the hell is that smell coming from? Fuckin’ stinks.”

“Now that you mention it…I guess it is dark and kinda creepy, yeah…” Only now did Estevao recognize that he had been walking with smaller and smaller steps as they proceeded. He dared not express just how uncomfortable he was in that situation, not because he wanted to sound tough per se, but because he feared that, if he was honest about his feelings, Dan would keep them down there longer and perhaps force him to crawl into some claustrophobic space to search for whatever (really, of course, to show dominance and boost his ego).

“It hasn’t gone away, has it?”

“What?”

“The smell.” Now and again Dan would stop and sniff the air in different directions, as if to catch the scent while it was unaware. “It hasn’t gotten much stronger since we came down here, but it isn’t going away, either.”

“Which, uh, means…?”

“Which means?!? Which means?!? It means we’re not getting any closer to the source of whatever it is, or any farther away, either. How the hell does Professor what’s his name…how does he expect…” he trailed off into indecipherable mumbling.

Right then, something squirmed past Estevao’s boot; something with roughly the mass of a cat or a Yorkshire terrier, but much longer and lower. The muscular force of its motions, easily felt through the material of his boot, startled Estevao. “Snake!” he cried out, for their could be no doubt about what it was, although he hardly saw anything before it wriggled into the shadows of a heap of stored furniture.

Dan maintained the appearance of calm, but the way he asked Estevao if it was true what he saw made the young temp afraid for his life. “W-which way was it coming from?” he asked, tongue shaking. Estevao answered that it had come from in front of them. This simple bit of information threw Dan into a shivering fugue…yet, verbally anyway, he evinced decisiveness. “Suppose we should tell him, it’s definitely a problem for an exterminator.”

By mutually understood implication, at this point they both turned around and began walking back the way they came. The smell. Estevao realized it now, the glimpse of the slithering reptile having jogged memories which had lain dormant for years…memories of how he and his siblings would go to their grandparents’ property up near Barrie for summer holidays and how they would capture all kinds of wild critters and keep them in jars and clear plastic tubs (if small insects) or a mesh-fronted wooden crate for larger beasts, including frogs, toads and snakes. Garter snakes. Brightly coloured, nonvenomous – though nonetheless sufficiently exciting quarry for pint-sized biologists. Nonvenomous, but not without their own method of repelling unwanted intrusions…Once, holding a prize specimen for photographing by his brother, the stubborn serpent defecated upon Estevao’s bare forearms and hands, filling the air with a pungent reek that required half an hour of scrubbing with dish soap to get rid of.

That was what he smelled here. Curiosity overpowered revulsion. Estevao set to lifting boxes and kicked drain grates to startle any lurking reptiles.

“Quit pokin’ around!” Dan huffed through his teeth. “Whatever died in this guy’s vents or where the leak is, I think I better get a hold of the plans, ‘cause we’re just shooting in the dark. It’s too…too…” He sneezed loudly, twice, straightened up then sneezed a third time. Estevao stood awkwardly, unable to decide for himself how to proceed.

They were in a bulge in the tunnel – where, exactly, Estevao had not the slightest inkling anymore. A wall treatment of palm-sized rectangles of glossy beige ceramic – like you find in some old TTC stations – had fallen off in places, taking mortar and cement with the tiles. Here and there, a few bundles of copper piping were partially exposed, like ribs on the inside of a rotting whale carcass which he and Dan happened to be crawling through.

“Everything okay?” Estevao couldn’t think what else to ask. Dan’s eyes were bloodshot and there was an unprofessional amount of emotion in the way he held the claw hammer which he used to clear away excess material for a better look at the pipes.

“Allergies…” Dan whispered. “Goldenrod. Along the highway. Pine trees. The pollen. Take some Benadryl ‘n I’ll be fine…Listen,” he paused, glancing over at Estevao couldn’t tell what. “You hear them…”

“Huh?” Estevao struggled to understand Dan’s speech, which was all up and down in pitch and volume, sometimes clearly directed at him, sometimes apparently mumbling private thoughts to himself.

“…It must connect to the office…where those girls are working. Yeah…yeah, the voices, coming through the pipes. If this connects to a sewage like…”

Estevao hunched over the exposed piping, then over a nearby vent, trying to act involved, but he honestly had no idea what he was supposed to be doing. It was oppressively humid, like a bus at rush hour in summer. He waged a battle between the panicked wish to appear busy and useful, and the urge to flop down on a soft surface and relieve his legs and spine from their onerous duties.

“Hey, E-Steve-oh,” Dan called out, his eyes tracing the wall like magnets on a track.

“What?”

“It’s past 4:00.” He held his watch to his face without regarding it. “Your shift’s up.”

“Already?” Estevao was about to check his cellphone till he remembered there was no reception. “Yeah, but, then you’ll be working by yourself.” He felt strangely sorry for Dan.

The latter sneezed savagely again. “Sorry, nah…What did they just say?” He spun round, hands at the ready like he was planning to combat some unseen assailant.

“Who?”

Dan relaxed somewhat. “Ah, thought maybe they were trying to shout instructions or something down to us through the vents. Guess not. Anyway, probably just need to replace the leaking section…must be around here somewhere…can’t be too bad; there’s zero sign of a big hole anywhere. Choo!” He stifled another sneeze with his wrist.

Estevao rode the TTC home. He would have much preferred the Econoline – as anyone who has ridden the bus after a day on their feet will agree, from their heel-bottoms to their coccyx. Oh well, money in the bank – it was brutally hard to convince himself to be chill about money he hadn’t noticeably damaged his body to obtain. It was only when he was home and showered, setting out a meal for himself, that he realized it was only 4:35 pm. The bus ride, plus the wait at stops, plus checking the mail, cuddling the cats, showering and dressing – it was absolutely impossible that he had left work at 4:00. The initial explanation he told himself was that he’d moved so efficiently he didn’t notice. However, he knew this was BS, so he turned to the hypothesis that Dan’s watch must have been off; that Dan had forgot to adjust for daylight savings time or something. This, he accepted for about half an hour until it popped into his mind again. He’d forgotten, because he owned no clocks that weren’t part of a self-adjusting digital device, but he knew from childhood memories that you set the clocks for daylight savings in the spring and again in the fall.

The lighting in the basement, where he’d retreated to watch TV in peace, was professionally laid out according to a consultant his parents had actually paid money to. It served its original purpose fairly well, but it proved insufficient at dispelling those shadows which are seen by the soul as much as by the eye. He switched off the TV, wanting his senses unobstructed by any interference, then hurried upstairs, where he opened the sliding glass door and stepped out onto the patio. The fence was low and the street was set high relative to the surrounding area, so he could see spread out before him a school and its yard, including a soccer field and basketball courts, but it was August and no people were using them. He quickly put on his shoes and went for a walk. It was well that he wouldn’t have to work the next day, since he knew it would take a great deal of walking – to the point of mild exhaustion – to clear his head. With the armour of the long summer day and the healthful vitality of the cozy suburb bubbling around him, he felt brave enough to ponder things.

On the face of it, there wasn’t anything wrong with a professor of anthropology (Estevao read the info on the little brass plaque on the door of Professor Cardinal’s office) giving them directions. They’d listened to the reports of dentists and lawyers on other jobs, when those were the people responsible for their particular workplace at the time the plumbers showed up. On the other hand, on those occasions, it was always just an exasperated “the toilet’s blocked!” “Help! There’s a leak in the wall!” “The ceiling’s dripping!” Everybody simply wanted things fixed as soon as possible and didn’t want any more questions or hassle than was absolutely necessary. Then, they wanted Dan and Estevao gone from the premises as soon as possible.

That Professor was different. Heck, he had them sit down, in upholstered chairs, to give them that speech beforehand…the leaky, fetid basement appeared to have a special fascination for him, which he was driven by some psychological compulsion to explain, at least in part, to two guys who were just there to fix whatever the problem was. Estevao’s mind’s eye kept returning to the wall map of Toronto and Spadina: how it was shaded in a colour to indicate that one of Toronto’s many ‘extinct’ underground rivers ran along it, from a lake up north (he didn’t look too carefully), down to Lake Ontario at the City’s southern rim. That would explain the absurd humidity inside the subterranean halls, though the instruments which Dan employed should have been able to endure rough environments like that, or otherwise tradesmen and surveyors couldn’t use them in places like Brazil or Florida.

Ugh. He could feel his shirt sticking to his back even now, remembering it. His supervisor’s sneezing made less sense, though, since the absurd humidity and the fact they were underground should have eliminated the source of any pollen allergies. What was it he said he was allergic to? Goldenrod? Nothing at all grew in that somber basement except mold, but there was little or nothing of that and it was kept quite clean otherwise. The goldenrod was blooming now, though – on the surface, that is; in the parks and, most of all, along the highways: once you got out of the City, it was everywhere. And the thunder and rain…the underground river…There had been no sign of any leaks, though, now that he thought about it….

…Which made it a surprise when, three days later, Estevao read in the Toronto Star a headline about a tragic workplace accident. No photo accompanied the article and his mind, which had already switched focus to selecting courses for an as-yet ‘undeclared Liberal Arts’ major which would begin in the winter semester, was no longer in tune with the rhythm of boredom, fatigue and danger which he’d briefly brown accustomed to as a blue collar temp. The article was oddly guarded in its disclosure of what would normally be printed as basic relevant info. Moreover, the crusading ethos which the Stat notoriously gushed with at every local tragedy was completely absent, replaced with an uncharacteristically restrained lament for the unfortunate situation.

Indeed, Estevao had to think like a detective to realize that the ‘veteran plumber’ whose lifeless body was discovered by dog walkers, hung up on a breakwater, was his supervisor during those days at the temp agency which he wished desperately to forget. As far as Estevao could tell, the coroner had experienced immense difficult in identifying the body, in spite of it being fully clothed and largely intact, except for a couple small puncture wounds, which different medical examiners disputed as being from a taser, implying foul play or police brutality, needles for drugs, or the fangs of a good-sized snake. In light of this uncertainty, the police asked the public to report if they knew anyone who kept exotic pets, worked as a plumber and had recently gone missing. Estevao knew it was Dan Rodgers from the description of the clothes, physique and so on; he knew it in his gut, but he was damned if he was going to go into a police station to get questioned by the cops, given that, for all he was aware, he was the last known person to have seen Rodgers before he ended up in the water on the Lakeshore, several kilometres away from the Spadina Circle job site.

Later in the week, at a press conference, the police chief finally confirmed the identity of the body, exactly as Estevao had surmised, though nothing was made of it in the papers beyond the perfunctory sympathies always published on such occasions. Estevao was mercifully spared (by the palm-fringed beaches of Puerta Plata) the transformation of his already unpleasant work experience into a cause for psychotherapy. Dan Rodgers had exacting standards for his temporary assistants, most of whom never appreciated the difference that a professional attitude can make.

He was not so old, the Toronto Police Service discovered, to have established his career before DNA became a widespread forensic tool. However, he was wise – wise enough to do his work where forensic tools were used sparingly, if something was even found to use them on. More than one RCMP officer, hands in his pockets, a bemused whistle crossing his lips, consoled himself that folks drove so fast along that stretch of highway MB-1, and you didn’t want to stop at night, what with the bears and other dangers. Heck, to stop on the roadside in broad daylight would sometimes send a chill up your spine, if you happened to be the only vehicle in view. Laypeople in Toronto and Vancouver wondered how the mysterious Suspect could be so lazy, not even bothering to dig a grave nor to take his quarry deeper into the forest. The RCMP men, and anyone with long experience of Trans Canada Country, did not wonder. They understood that the fellow who did those things tool all the necessary effort – the goldenrod and phragmites grew so thickly and the shadowy spindles of spruce crowded so conspiratorially that nobody driving by would ever observe anything. Only the rare individual, drawn by incomprehensible chance to take a leak or pick up cans at precisely that pot – perhaps five, ten, or twenty years later – only they would find anything, long after the wind and rain, and the rodents and foxes had found it first.

The fact nobody in Manitoba had ever suspected Dan Rodgers except his wife, who knew of his predilection for ‘squaws’ and who hated them for it, was proof of the efficacy of his methods. If it were not for the faded Polaroids, their margins scribbled with almost hieroglyphic notations, the detectives gathered in the hastily set-up task force room at Toronto Police headquarters on College Street would not have suspected him, either.

The digital records were scarce and incomplete. Detective Inspector Julius Ngai, tasked with liaising between the RCMP and local personnel, as well as with the officers from Saskatoon and the OPP, secretly enjoyed that the project went beyond the capacity of the office peons – who ought to have remained where they belonged, at a nearby LUSH, H&M or Starbucks. No spreadsheets converted to pie charts in Excel; no PowerPoints: for their colleagues, Ngai and his team prepared a good old fashioned photo slide presentation. After all, some of the original material was in that form, and a map – huge and topographical, with colour-coded pins and annotations. “It’s only a theory, of course,” Ngai cautioned, index finger and thumb wrapped around his jawline. “But it makes sense. Plus, you have to account for the season; for his habits and his mind…how one creates the other, and vice versa.” Ngai’s office mates gazed on, worn out from putting everything together on short notice, though nevertheless intrigued to hear his lectures, which always left them feeling either excited with puerile curiosity about the shocking labyrinths of human wickedness, or else shuddering with a fretful desire not to believe, triple-checking their door locks when they got home.

“If only…” he continued, “If only they’d saved and better stored the material from these three” – he tapped three pins situated between Lake Winnipeg and Lake of the Woods with the butt end of a Sharpie – “Martha Gilford, August 1991, Shawna Jane Morris, July 1992, and ‘Jane Doe,’ discovered May 1993 but probably put there August or September 1992 – I am sure there are a couple other Jane Does that only the wolves and the sasquatch know about…” Someone raised a hand. “I know, you’ll say that’s before he came to Toronto. Years before. And he was employed full-time as a paint mixer, or as a shipping driver when required, for the paint plant. Real workaholic; busy beaver; no free time. But, keep in mind, the early ‘90s recession had begun then, and, I suspect, he wasn’t really working full hours…maybe no hours at all, at least for a chunk of that period. The paint plant closed at the beginning of 1992, never having gotten over the recession, thus ceasing to exist before the internet was born. With the twenty-odd years since, no one will have kept every yellowed time card and every rotting binder of schedules. Many of his former coworkers are long since dead.”

Ngai was wrapped up in his presentation and did not notice how some of his listeners’ shoulders sagged, their eyes and lips overcome with weary expressions. Before that moment, none of them cared much about the record-keeping of any particular family-run industrial paints and coatings factory in south-central Manitoba during the early 1990s. It was inevitable that such things did not matter more than a year or two beyond a small company’s cessation of operations, and equally inevitable that this process, occurring in society as a whole, must cause immense frustration as sooner or later some of those stories became relevant long after they had vanished into the ether.

“…I reckon his docile, prim, permed housewife knew he was not at work mixing paint, though she would never admit it aloud, even to herself, that he was on the prowl, further and further afield. Maybe if she ran into someone of the sort she imagined hitched rides with her husband, this individual would be confused by her unexplained rudeness and nasty looks. He focused on the warmer months, I imagine, because hitchhiking is more common in those seasons, because footprints – especially with a struggling victim – going into the bush are obvious in snow, and because his rear-wheel-drive Oldsmobile Cutlass – no ABS or traction control in those days – would not have handled snowy roads well, especially if he felt compelled to take detours along poorly maintained side roads. Note that when Shawna Jane Morris went missing, her friend, who did not get into the car because she ‘got bad vibes’ from the situation, described a vehicle essentially identical to the 1987 Cutlass Supreme coupe, colour listed as ‘light copper’ with a tan interior on the registration.” Ngai pointed to a photocopied poster containing a police sketch of the suspect and also the car, which was squarish, moderately sized, and black and white – though the text on the poster described it as ‘brown or tan.’ “A man like Mr. Rodgers cared deeply about his job…even if he made plenty of cash, at least, enough to survive alright off his itinerant plumbing and handyman work, plus the loot off of his victims – cash, they might not have had, but, certainly, things he could sell. He craved the image of steady, honest toil. Moreover, it meant he was in control, whereas, if he was fired by his company, deemed incompetent; inferior…well, you can imagine how his woman knowing that would have damaged his self image, yes? Good. Then you see…the increasing instability and power in one area of his life, why, he balanced it by taking more in another. Then the divorce, and, well…” The other investigators nodded. Those who had interviewed Rodger’s colleagues at Annex Plumbing noted how he took his work very seriously. The HR department logged more than a few complaints from temps who had to work with his ‘cut-the-crap,’ red-blooded blue collar uncle style, but the company loved that he never drank, didn’t steal their property, and got the jobs done fast. Ngai ceased speaking for a moment to run through several slides on an old projector. “The old-school footage almost makes it more gruesome-looking, not so? You will notice that the victims…mmhmm, he had a type, like most do. Three quarters were Aboriginal or Métis, all of them had dark hair, usually a tan or olive complexion – drug addicts, clearly so just from their mugshots – and, naturally, Rodgers probably stalked his quarry or at least chatted them up before making his move.”

Now that everything had come to light, obviously, it was a matter of a day, at most, before the information became a flurry of headlines and flashing cameras. In accordance with the general rule, the public would seek to pin every unsolved murder of a woman aged 16 to 60 on this particular alleged serial killer, unless and until another singular boogeyman was offered in his place. “…I expect we will have to review a lot of unsolved homicides here, or disappearances where they match the victim profile, seeing as the public aren’t going to believe he simply became inactive, living quietly as a bachelor in Toronto all these years.”

“Way ahead of you!” Constable Singh proffered a Manila folder, its bulging guts braced with elastic bands…

The RCMP delegation sat through the press conference, wearing masks of benevolent patience as reporters from Global, CBC, APTN and even the Scarborough Mirror recounted the generously abbreviated biographies of beloved daughters, sisters and mothers who had met with unfortunate or unseen (though readily presumable) fates at some point vaguely within the plausible timeframe, while the TPS fed their vain hopes. After the crowd had dispersed, a droopy-eyed captain who had worked one of the Manitoba cases whispered in Ngai’s ear: “Don’t wanna be insensitive, but you’re barking up the wrong tree.”

Ngai took the advice as an affront; a declaration of a turf war. “Eh? You weren’t even aware of his identity until you finally decided to do DNA tests on the evidence you hadn’t chucked. If you wanted the glory of identifying him, one, you should have done it while he was alive to be paraded and punished, and two, you should have done it while he was in your jurisdiction.”

The Mountie chuckled. “Cool yer heels, buddy!” incensing Ngai. “Nah, I can be pretty sure half these cases you were talking about here are our guy, unless you’re holding something back from me?”

“What? No, why would we do that?”

“Just in case, you know, policy…I guess we’re all on the same team, eh?”

“So?”

“Whelp, as always, when we suggest it’s a serial offender, we always hold something back. Had two schizo drifters try confess to your boy Rodger’s work -”

“ – He’s from your province.”

“Yeah, well, they didn’t know the signature of the killer. The signature; every serial killer’s got one. That’s what we held back. Sure, most of the killings were manual strangulation, but not all of ‘em. ‘N the brown coupe wasn’t consistent between witnesses; we hear taupe sedan, beige two-door. What all Morris, Gilford and a couple of the Jane Does had in common was these evenly spaced puncture marks on the body, neck or inner thigh, usually.”

“Vampires?” Ngai grinned sarcastically.

“Nah, from a syringe, we figured. No evidence of exsanguination. We were thinking he wanted it to look like they OD’d, just to put us off the scent. The bruising and so on might be overlooked with women living, y’know, certain lifestyles. A psychologist we consulted said it was a mental thing. Maybe a commentary on social harm or something, like how some of these guys feel they’re avenging angels, cleaning up the streets. I figure just a red herring, though.”

“Hmmm.” Ngai was perplexed. Mind, none of the bodies in Toronto, being touted by media and families as potentially related, bore such marks. Gunshots, yes, stab wounds, yes, but no pricks…none except Dan Rodgers himself, which didn’t make sense. Pricks like teethmarks of a vampire…or…a very large snake.

The late summer thunderstorm came down on the City like a sounder of famished boars upon an apple orchard. Flood warnings were issued. Even with the wipers at full speed, driving was madness and many were the employees calling in sick. Professor Cardinal excused his staff, though a dutiful Minnie showed up. Cardinal managed, somehow, to walk in dry and presentable, though, even with an umbrella, he had to have changed clothes. The environmentalists, usually all doom and gloom, were pleased to note some signs of an increasingly healthy urban ecosystem. For instance, the ready flow of water north and south which benefits summer-scorched vegetation in the City’s central corridor, and the endemic wildlife whose numbers were visibly growing, as evidenced by the turtles, toads and even rare species of Nerodia enjoying the weather and showing populations much dense than predicted by research in recent years. Luckily, too, no serious flood damage was reported, a piece of fortune which not a few downtown dwellers, echoing the ancients despite their urban modernity, attributed to the mandalas or Native trinkets they adorned their condos with, or to the general offering of spiritual energy by so many thoughtful minds which meditate and sacrifice to restore the balance of Nature.

The Drumlin

by M.G. Warenycia

“Monday, May 4, 1981

To Gordon MacDonald,

Ministry of Energy, Mines and Resources

580 Booth St, Ottawa, ON K1A 0E4

Re: Report on Survey of the Fermont-Nitchequon Zone

Dear Mr. MacDonald, Sir:

I regret to inform you that the expedition which was undertaken on behalf of the Ministry under the joint leadership of Dr. Fraser and myself has failed to discover any evidence of the predicted deposits of natural gas, nor of any other hydrocarbon resources in meaningful quantities. Due to the unfortunate absence of Dr. Fraser, I accept, in his stead, full responsibility for the failure of the expedition. All observations indicate that the theory, described in the paper co-authored by myself and Drs. Sacher and Catudal hypothesizing the presence of economically significant natural gas deposits along the passive margin at the confluence of the Superior Craton (Abitibi subprovince), the Nain Province and the Grenville Front was overly optimistic. In our defence, the hypothesis was not unreasonable, given the recent discoveries in the North Sea which are now being exploited profitably, as well as other major gas fields found along similar margins elsewhere in the world. It was entirely plausible that the geologic formations of the Shield would prove fruitful. However, as the Minister is only too well aware, prospecting for gas deposit is, at present, an inexact science, barely more advanced than dowsing (albeit considerably more expensive), not to mention the challenges of operating far from major transportation and supply hubs, under the pressures of the current Energy Crisis. I am afraid you will have to inform Mr. Lalonde that they will have to bite the bullet and cut a deal with Alberta as soon as possible.

If the RCMP needs me to explain certain matters further, my apologies, but I cannot tell them anything more that I have said already. Please disregard the more outlandish claims in some of the telegrams I sent you. Conditions were unexpectedly harsh, and the aforementioned challenges of weather and supplies created a great deal of stress and consequent ill health which may have affected my judgment. I would not be surprised if the testimony of the other surviving members is similarly affected.

Accordingly, I hereby resign from any and all roles and duties assumed with the Ministry and I will not respond to any further offers of employment.

Sincerely,

G. Herzog-Belzer, PhD, KNAW, FRS”

A hastily scrawled post-script to the above letter read: “Gord, as a professional and as a friend, I advise [‘advise’ was crossed out] implore you not to send out any more exploratory missions to the region marked on map. If anyone in the Ministry tries to suggest it at the review, shoot them down. There is nothing there.”

That letter to Gord MacDonald in the spring of ’81 was the product of my fevered brain, troubled by the experiences cryptically referred to therein as well as by the painful task of trying to persuade Gord, who had passionately defended my cause at the Ministry of Energy, Mines and Resources, as they used to call it back then. Gord fought tooth and nail to secure the funding for the expedition which the late Dr. Fraser and myself were to lead into the zone lying between Fermont and Nitchequon. God knows he paid for it. Cabinet made sure of that. Jeopardizing the relations with Alberta, which were already tense because of the National Energy Program? It looked bad. It was bad. And you better believe the folks out in Whitehorse would have liked to see the prospecting grants sent their way instead.

Well, the Albertans could laugh and say their ‘we told you so’s’. I did my best, hanging around the bars by Parliament Hills for a couple weeks after, dropping rumours and fuelling gossip to make sure that they had plenty of reasons to feel smug. Not that I cut a very authoritative figure. I doubt any of those oilmen or the federal bean-counters watched many TVO documentaries; my face wasn’t well known in those circles and it was the ‘Fraser Expedition,’ not the Belzer Expedition. Not to mention, I could tell the bartenders were thinking about their liability before they passed me my first drink. If they’d seen what I’d seen, or felt what I felt, out there…why, they’d have offered it on the house. Of course, I wouldn’t wish that on anyone just to get free drinks.

Our original report is stamped and filed; our expedition branded an abysmal failure – and now there’s probably nobody in the whole Civil Service who remembers the harebrained scheme. Good riddance! It disturbs me, though, that there’s people nowadays who are talking that because they’re taking gas out of the seabed off Labrador that it would be a swell idea to go mining the stuff beneath the glacial flats in the interior. Easier than building platforms, right? The idiots. If you’re gonna mine, you’ll need camps, and they’ll probably be year-round, too…it’s cold but it’s not the high Arctic. And then you got these people on the internet, going into these abandoned mines, ghost towns and the like, hunting the next creepy picture or tape of ‘found footage.’ I saw one blog the other day, some guy and his buddy took their snowmobiles out to one of those collections of silvering shacks among the ice-gorged valleys. They use it as their hunting camp; leave the snowmobiles, gas and stuff in the sheds. I don’t know if they stay overnight. If they did and…well, we wouldn’t know, now, would we?

Take my account for what it’s worth. You’ll see why the official report I submitted, the signed and sealed file mouldering in some battered steel file cabinet that was last opened by a guy who retired ten years ago, is as thin as it is. You’ll ask questions about our mental health, ask if we had to eat spoiled food or bear livers, or if cabin fever might have been affecting our reason. I want to say our judgement was unaffected, but we were eight fit, healthy public servants, and you don’t get cabin fever, even in the depths of winter, if you’re working, outside, for just a few weeks, with congenial human company, at 53 degrees, 17 minutes north latitude. It’s because we were eight – were eight fit, sober, fairly well-educated individuals that the things I saw, heard or thought I heard and saw…experiences is probably a more accurate verb, one that I can use without a risk of lying by accident…it’s because of these factors that I gave the Ministry that perfunctory version of events and kept the meat of our notes in a banker’s box in my study. All now I can’t tell you what to make of it. But I can tell you, since I don’t have anything particular against you, that if you intend on voyaging on a hunting trip for moose or bear, or if some egghead bureaucrat asks you to go prospecting for oil and gas in a location around about 53 degrees north, 68-70 degrees west, don’t. And if you do, keep within the forest, hold to the southern slopes, and, no matter how bad the wind, bear with it and don’t ever pitch your tent in the lee of one of the drumlins…

Consulting the expedition journal – the one I kept personally, not the one I made up afterwards to give to the Minister, I can’t make any more sense of it now than I could then. I can say for certain that the whole wretched idea was launched by a chance conservation I had in the Duke of York pub, at Prince Edward Avenue and Bedford Road, in Toronto, in January of 1981. It was and is a convenient place for U of T staff and students to tie one on, since it’s practically right next to Robarts Library. I was drinking a Sazerac, mostly for an excuse to stick myself among a bunch of living human beings for a moment. The endless winter nights were starting to wear on me and I’d been spending the slivers of daylight in my campus office doing a rush edit for a prick of a publisher. Half the faculty was still on vacation, which didn’t help.

Well, this fellow sits down to me, carrying a Sazerac in each hand, one of which he slides my way. “I can pay my own tab,” I told him. Like I said, I wasn’t in a cheerful mood. This fellow, though – he sure was. French Canadian by his accent, dressed in a herringbone three-piece underneath his overcoat, which he hadn’t taken off. I said to myself, the energy program isn’t working out so smooth as they’re saying on the news. The generous stranger wasn’t put off in the least by the cold reception. Right off the bat, he introduces himself in a funny way:

“I work with the Ministry of Energy, Mines and Resources,” he says, shakes my hand and talks about his job, telling me what a pleasure it is to meet the renowned Dr. Gershon Herzog-Belzer. Takes him a full two minutes before he remembers his name. “Paul Leduc, by the way!” I warmed up when he said he’d read the paper I co-authored with Sacher and Catudal and he was so impressed by it he showed it to his boss at the Ministry, Gord MacDonald. Now, my contribution to the paper he was talking about consisted of reading the rough draft, chatting with those two, and agreeing to lend my name to it, but there was no need to tell Mr. Laduc that, seeing how it was so popular at the Ministry. I had a hunch he was there to do more than praise my paper. Nobody goes and buys drinks for you because you wrote an academic journal article.

The conversation got going and pretty soon there’s three Sazeracs on the table and four Old Fashioneds, because most people have never heard of a Sazerac and fewer like them. Cabinet’s desperate, he admits. A real mess. Trudeau was tying himself in knots trying to get Québec and Alberta to sign on to the Charter and get the Constitution repatriated. It’s hard enough to beg somebody for one favour, but when you’ve got to ask them for another at the same time? This was after the Revolution in Iran, remember, and the second wave of the energy crisis was in full swing. Carter had just lost an election because he dared to tell Americans to put on a sweater, you know, because of the critical rise in the price of oil. Trudeau didn’t want the same thing to happen to him. It’s because he couldn’t take the pot off the fire is why Joe Clark had such a short run. The Revolution settled down, but P.E.T. was barely back in office when the Soviets invaded Afghanistan and war broke out between Iran and Iraq, tankers in the Persian Gulf getting hit by missiles…it was clear the headache was going to last a long time, and Paul’s ministry was left holding the hottest of several hot potatoes.

“It’s not all bad,” I consoled poor Monsieur Leduc, who by this time was getting pretty hammered. “That Referendum last year tuned into a much ado about nothing; you don’t have a civil war to worry about anymore.” I was joking, but the Parti Quebecois had at least gone through with attempting to secede from Canada, which had really shaken up the national consciousness. I don’t know if things have fully settled all now.

“Yes, yes, we pulled it off, didn’t we?” My companion’s voice was shaky and he kept mopping his brow. I don’t think he got that I was joking. “That’s, err, what I came to talk to you about. The two things are connected. Oh, I haven’t been stalking you or anything like that. Your colleagues who you wrote the paper with, the French one, he told me you come here sometimes.”

“Yep. Robarts is a block away.”

“Yes…”

“Hold on, two things? What two things? You should slow down a bit with the, uhm…” I pointed to his glass.

He grunted and waved his palm at me. “I mean…the Energy Crisis, which is my daily torture, and the Separatists. Two birds with one stone…with one shotgun blast. Hah!” He pounded the table, drawing unwelcome eyes for a second.

“Easy! So you’re saying you want to, erh, there’s a way to…undermine, I guess? Undermine the Separatist movement, by something to do with your Ministry; something energy-related. What did Catudal say?”

“Your buddy? He looks like he never leaves his office. He’s not the kind of man we need. But…you – you’ve been to…to all over the world! I’ve seen you in National Geographic and on TV. You want to help your country, don’t you?”

I’m not the most patriotic man in the world, but, having travelled widely, I appreciate the boons granted to me by default of my citizenship in the Great White North. And, while I sympathized with the grievances of the Québec nationalists and have profound love for their culture as both an aesthete and an anthropologist – the only genuine peasant culture in all of North America, outside of Mexico – I was uncomfortable with the thought of the city where I grew up (Montreal) suddenly being in a foreign country. I generally approved of the direction Trudeau was taking the country in, whatever the ignorant rubes who pelted his train carriage with rotten fruit might think. If I could help with the situation somehow, I would.

Leduc leaned in till I was breathing in the hot whisky fumes. Speaking in a whisper, he proceeded to outline a plan that was considerably less of a crazy 007 scheme than I’d anticipated. The federal government was caught between a rock and a hard place. The economy was on the rock, in a recession that was lingering like a bad dream. Trying to make the analogy literal, the rock was Québec: Trudeau’s Liberals needed the votes of their traditional heartland in Central Canada, and Premier Levesque, not content to bury the hatchet after losing the Referendum, was doing his damndest to shove a wrench into Trudeau’s Constitutional dreams. As a Montrealer (still am, deep down), I understood why Trudeau moved with kid gloves; he hoped the political turmoil could be resolved without splitting the country into hostile tribes. Unfortunately, there were a lot of voters in English Canada who didn’t grasp this and felt they should just say ‘screw it, leave if you want’ to Québec.

Oil, as it always does, would solve our problems. So he told me and I’m not so much of a tree hugger that I would argue with him. Oil, or natural gas, for that matter, close to the main markets in the Toronto-Ottawa-Montreal- Québec City corridor; energy that had the dual advantages of not being controlled by the Albertans and providing top-paying jobs to Québecois to suck the wind out of the Separatists’ sails: a thoroughly Federal energy project. Spectacular idea. And, for what it’s worth, I’ll concede that, as far as I comprehend the subject, the seabed gas fields off Labrador do in fact extend inland. The arc of the Precambrian Shield practically declares it on the map; the mineral substructure being identical, once you ignore the couple hundred feet of water on top of the Labrador portion. I wouldn’t doubt that there’s substantial crude deposits underneath those bogs, as well, and, based on how the Alaskan production is competitive at current prices, I don’t suppose the permafrost is a challenge beyond the technology Petro Canada has at its disposal. At the very least, your average Canuck at the pump would be insulated from the shenanigans going on in the Persian Gulf.

But they should be happy I failed. And, anyhow, did they even think of the illogic of using a guy whose training is in anthropology, botany and the biology of tropical fish to headline what was, for all meaningful purposes, an engineering project? I hardly know more geology than we learned, or were supposed to learn, in high school. And, just because many of Mr. Trudeau’s voters have seen me on TVO, it doesn’t mean it has to be my name and face on every out-there project that can remotely be connected to the environment. I know why they did it. If it didn’t work, then I’m the spoiled intellectual who lectures the plebs to put on a cardigan and ride a bicycle whenever their diplomatic colleagues get us on the wrong side of politics in the Middle East (which they inevitably will).

[05/04/1981 Gordon – private – communicate to M. Lalonde – tact – NOTHING IN WRITING] … As you know, it starting with us heading up Route 389 in a gang of crew-cab trucks and cargo vans, on account of someone not being willing to pay for flights for the thirteen of us and our equipment. Our jumping-off point was Fermont, on the QB-Labrador border. If your boss doesn’t remember it, it’s because people have only been living there for nine – count ’em, nine! — years. To be more accurate, I should say it’s only been a permanent official settlement for nine years. The indigenous Naskapi-Montagnais have, of course, been in the area for considerably longer, but they never had any stable settlements in the spot where we were ultimately headed. The newness of the town made the strongest impression on me, the region being otherwise a perfectly unremarkable stretch of transboreal forest; the vast belt atop the middle-northern half of every province where the coniferous forest-sea gradually thins out amid glacial bogs until it merges with the barren tundra of the Arctic. But for the relative predominance of Labrador tea (Rhododendron groenlandicum), you could have dropped me there and told me it was Northern Manitoba or Ontario above Lake Superior, and I’d have no evidence on which to doubt you. It was certainly strange, therefore, to see that the area had undergone none of the chapters in the historical cycle of fish, timber and mining exploitation to which nearly all parts of the country possessing similar ecology have been subjected to. After all, we were in the earliest-settled province in continental North America and we are used to the boreal zones being sites of a past already vanishing as everyone with sane and sensitive souls flees them for the cities where one can live a life with actual socialization – art, cafes and much less cabin fever. I don’t blame them, since unlike the rural villages of Europe and Asia, all the settlements of this vast region were inorganic constructions, thrown up by people already fully formed by the mentalities and habits of elsewhere, for the sole purpose of facilitating some robber baron or Crown Corporation to make a buck off an extractable resource, then abandoned, usually before two generations could be formed in their environment. Lots of folks romanticize such places but, dammit, they horrify me. You’re thinking of escape before you arrive. Really, it is strange; the worse that our textbook histories pretend it’s a normal condition of humanity. Fremont had bars where men drank, played pool and fought, strip clubs where women who, in Toronto, could only have been confronted after downing a bottle of Bright’s, gyrated listlessly for obscene sums that would be pitifully wasted, a couple shops for goods of the rudest practical nature, and nothing else.

Of course, the reason me and Professor Moffat – Barney – were going along for the trip had nothing to do with the labours of the roughnecks. The resources available at Robarts Library which I was able to peruse back home were few and out of date. Regardless, there was plenty to suggest to me that, barren as the territory was and as limited as we were in numbers (your boss might consider sending more than one assistant per scholar on future expeditions), there was a chance I might find something to full an article about. Robarts contained no books specifically about the zone where are endeavour would take place, but the Moisie River – the upper reaches of which pass by Fermont and which is known as the ‘Nahanni of the East’ – occasionally pops up in the accounts of the Jesuits and Protestant missionaries who competed for the souls of the Indigenous population, as well as those of the Hudson Bay Co. Officers and whisky traders who competed in extracting their wealth…I almost said “their money,” but even today, the dollar sometimes doesn’t get you as far as will a can of gasoline, a case of condensed milk, or an offer to haul some firewood. The river, treacherous as it can be (particularly during the spring melt and fall freeze-ups), nonetheless provided the best route from the ‘civilized’ towns along the St. Lawrence into the Labrador interior, a region whose gloomy desolation the fits and starts of successive resource booms have failed to alleviate. Most of the sources I poured through mention the place only as a geographic point passed through or beside, en route to places where more important things are done. However, there was a curious anecdote in a work called “Deux Ans parmi les Montagnais,” or a paraphrase of that, which was the memoirs of a Renard Le Pellerin, a priest and schoolteacher. Written in the style of a Victorian travel journal, it was published in Montreal at the surprisingly recent date of 1940. In it, the priest tells of the dangerous canoe trips, the bad or non-existent roads, and his trials and tribulations attempting to imbue his few and irregular pupils with a rudimentary knowledge of reading, writing, and Catholic theology.

Trained in Switzerland, Fr. Le Pellerin, practiced a habit of long rambles in the countryside, sometimes journeying by canoe into the empty country to the south of what is now Fermont, a habit which caused his parishioners much anxiety, despite the absence of risk of avalanches or other hazards in the monotonous terrain. He scoffed at the dangers of wolves and bears, for which the Winchester he carried was adequate medicine, but it was neither of these wild creatures which concerned his flock, since (so they told and so his observation appeared to confirm) there were no bears or wolves in the area. What caused him to open his ear and put pen to paper concerning the matter was the fact that his casual remark that his own people had always shortsightedly exterminated the most enchanting beasts in Creation was disputed by the native folk, who insisted that even in the times of their grandfathers’ grandfathers no member of the Ursine tribe had ever denned in those parts, and that whatever wolves on might glimpse were simply trekking through. The priest wondered why this should be the case since, as he had seen for himself, the natural environment was undisturbed – unlike the long-cultivated domain of his fellow Habitants. The forest, though not as impressive as those in more favourable climates, had never been despoiled by loggers or (at least back then) mining companies. Berry bushes and edible fungi abounded – in fact, he had filled his canoe with them after his plans to shoot a moose had not met with luck. His native friends had no qualms about devouring the fruit and mushrooms he offered them, which made their aversion to the place all the more strange: clearly, there wasn’t some curse or taboo about the soil itself or its products.

The diary of Sean McDermot, a factor employed by the HBC who travelled into the Coté du Nord hinterland during the waning days of the great fur trade a full century prior to Père Le Pellerin, echoes the Jesuit’s cryptic remarks. Concerning the district roughly west of the Moisie River and south of Fremont-Wabush, the trader writes of having cherished high hopes for his trip, such that, a third of the way from Lac St. Jean, he pulled rank on a south-passing canoe du maitre, persuading its illiterate captain with his deed to a house in Québec City, that the Company required the boat and its crew to return to the interior and delay their furlough. For more than two centuries, the country from the mouth of the St. Lawrence through to Lake of the Woods in western Ontario had been roved over by trapper and trade, voyageur and Indian, all in search of the precious furs on which the wealth of the still-primitive colony was founded. The colony was still mired in the same rude stage of economic development – the days of exporting wheat and wood were still decades in the future – but the furs were running out. The heaver had been hunted nearly to extinction throughout the Great Lakes watershed, and the ploughs and muskets of Habitant and Loyalist farmers had driven the other desirable fur-bearing beasts deeper into the receding forest-sea. When McDermot and his crew portaged amid the network of streams and swamps which on aerial photographs resemble stretch marks revolving around the Precambrian Shield, they reckoned, probably correctly, that they were the first white men to have tread upon that ground. Understandably, the trader anticipated that the area, with its umbrous stands of black spruce and damp slopes covered with rhododendrons ought to be teeming with game – especially the coveted beaver, for whom the mazy wetlands were a virtual paradise. They arrived late in the afternoon, to which McDermot’s journal, incomprehensibly, ascribes the absence of beaver that first day. To his surprise and bewilderment, on the second and third days, they also saw no beaver – nor did they note any rabbits, woodchucks, martins, bear or other fur species. The steams contained pike and char, so the men at least had fish for their camp table, but this did not help the morale of the voyageurs who had been anticipating fun and frivolity on leave in the city and who were unused to performing their wilderness labours without meat in their diet. On the fourth day, two deer were spotted and shot at. One was killed on the spot and carried back to camp for roasting. But the other, despite being struck, was able to sprint off under a burst of adrenaline. All through this period, the crews of all the canoes – perhaps two dozen men in total – were plagued with inexplicable discomforts. Two or three greenhorns aside, these were all hard men, cut from cloth no longer manufactured in our safe and hygienic modern era. The diarist recorded that many – but not all – the men slept poorly. The journey was undertaken in May, and, though the weather can be harsh compared to the same seasons in civilized parts, all would have been used to much worse. The persistent sleep issues became such a problem that it interfered seriously with the progress of the expedition, causing McDermot to remark – notably without any harsh words for his crew – on their failure to get to the subsequent portages at the expected rate. Despite dwelling on the matter through several entries in succession, McDermot never stated the precise nature of the voyageurs’ nocturnal disquietude. At the date he was writing, “hostile Indians” or scouting that presaged raids by rival fur companies were legitimate possibilities, but they were also not things which anyone in those times and in that place would have felt compelled to avoid mentioning. Cryptically, in the entry of May 24th, 1832, McDermot lamented not heeding the advice of a Cree elder who had settled among the whites, running a provision store in Sept Iles downriver, when he’d started his journey. “I had dismissed the old man’s tale as mere superstition,” he moaned, “creditable only in the childish minds of peasant women and Savages, told to conjure monsters in the minds of fellow travellers gathered round the campfire, that they may be persuaded by their own trepidation to refrain from venturing into certain parts, invariably those most rich in game.”

On a sojourn to Wabush to stock up on supplies and hire a couple heady-duty Ski-Doos to haul ourselves, the ones provided by your recession-afflicted overseers being only light recreational models, I took the opportunity to gather info that might be relevant to my portion of our tasks. Unfortunately, small, rugged frontier communities often take much less interest in their history than do metropolitan intellectuals and novel-readers. At the dismal local library, I found myself alone perusing the stacks, which contained mostly yard sale fiction, encyclopedias and repair manuals for automobiles no longer manufactured. The archives of the town newspaper were the only materials relevant to the remote land itself, and these were written fora public that read mainly for practical advertisements and to have something to argue about at the local watering hole…which I headed off to before it could be decently called evening.

When trying to learn as much as possible about a new place with the minimum of time and sacrifice, my favourite tactic is to seek out a bar, pub, cafe or hotel restaurant, depending on the milieu I mean to swim in – maybe all of them. I further seek out one or more old men, with worn faces and calloused hands and a knowing glint in their eye. I sit myself down beside them – these characters are pretty much always at the bar itself, or at a good window seat. I never buy them a drink first: I let them figure out that I am curious but bored, and that I’m (not to brag) somebody who people pay attention to where I’m from; someone who might share their stories with a wider audience. I let them earn my attention; they won’t dig the tastiest tidbits out of their bag unless they have to do so to obtain the coveted hungry ear. Only then do I buy them a drink.

I bought a half dozen drinks (Crown Royal!), each, for Fred Bywater and George Volant. The former was an Anglo miner and machinist, the latter a Montagnais who somehow managed to survive the mid-20th century on an industrial-era version of the trapper-fisherman-hunter lifestyle which had sustained his people for millennia. They sat at opposite ends of the bar, each man lost in his own beverage. Their appearance told me that either might be a good source of local lore, so I engaged the barkeep in conversation about dully practical matters – snow conditions, which waterways were navigable in the season, the best local shops for engine parts and provisions, etc. I casually knocked back the most expensive whisky-and-water on the menu (blended in the bottle, I suspect) and nodded, serious but dispassionate, reflecting on how we were on Ottawa’s tab and how I was sorry that sampling rock cores and twiddling with theodolites would not give the CBC the exciting documentary they were looking for. The barkeep agreed passively, as is the nature of barkeeps, although I thought I detected an uneasiness that should hardly have existed in the proprietor of a public house who was raking in a windfall thanks to his new customers from the Big City. Enough scotch and water (even if it’s a lot of water) will put suspicions into one’s head, but I could have sworn that the barkeep’s eyes kept darting into the left and right corners of their sockets, even though he kept his head down over his bottles and rag like it was welded to them…darting towards the two old timers I was consciously ignoring.

“Where, uh, where again exactly did you say you were heading?” the bartender gulped.

Unable to give the precise coordinates off the top of my head, I did better, wiping the bar with a napkin and unfolding a map. “Here, or, I should say, in this general area – we have to move around a bit, obviously, since we don’t know where – or if – we’ll find any of the oil, or, really, any sign that there could be oil down there at all. It’s a crap shoot. I figure, too, with all the gear we’re lugging around, we’ll have to adjust our route as we go, to match the terrain.”

Dammit, the man turned whiter than his bar rag. “Uhhh, gosh, in that case…maybe I can help you fellers out a bit. Been around these parts for a while myself, y’know? He tapped his temple, seeming unconvinced himself. “If it’s oil you’re looking for, you don’t need to go down the Quebec side so far. Or you can go around over the other side, by James Bay. I know they do a lot of mining ‘n power stuff there, last couple years. Or you guys can keep more to the west of where you’re showing, along the highway. Should be easier to move your kit, too. Dunno why you fellers want to make it hard on yourselves when you don’t have to.”

I assured him that we weren’t looking for trouble; we simply had to go where the data indicated the oil or gas would likely be.

“Oil, right, okay, I understand, but…there was some folks…you’re from Toronto, you said?”

“Yes, well, me personally, yes.”

“Well, they were from…Vancouver, and they were prospecting for oil, just like you. Came through here…”

“They were working for the government?”

The rag squeaked in the glass. “Nooo…nope, they were…were working on their own account, I guess.”

“Uhuh. And when was this?”

“Nineteen…forty-something? A year or two before the war, something like that. Anyways, they were looking for oil, like you, but they went more…” the bartender pointed out to a location well outside the basin where we intended to do our exploration – but close enough that Wabush remained the logical depot to purchase supplies.

“Alright.” I was skeptical from the first. “But did they find it?”

From the way he nodded, “sure,” I knew he was luying, which got me thinking, because, what did it benefit him whether we poked around in one patch of dirt or another? “Funny, the Ministry of Energy, Mines and Resources has never heard of these gentlemen you’re talking about, and I think they’d at least want to know if what they’re blowing their money on is going to be profitable or not.” I nonchalantly knocked back another drink. “Not my concern, mind you. I’m only riding along for publicity. My wallet only cares that I don’t break my contract, and maybe I find something interesting enough to get me a spot on the CBC.”

A slightly imbalanced laughter came from my right. There was nothing intimidating in the feeble, toothless chuckle, but it sent the shivers up and down beneath my lumberjack plaids nonetheless. I ignored it. “You’re headed out south a’ town, around Moisie Lake thereabouts, are ya?” It was the old man in plaid and khaki denim overalls, his rubicund visage shadowed beneath a stained International Harvester cap. “I don’t need ta see yer map. If it’s where those folks were drillin’ fer oil back during the war, then you’ll find what yer lookin’ for.” If he wasn’t just egging us on for fun, then the barkeep was telling the truth. “But,” he added, the corners of his lips creeping up his cheeks. “’Course you might find something yer not looking for. Or it’ll find youse.”

“Sorry, excuse me?”

“Don’t mind him; he’s just pulling your leg,” the bartender assured. “After the war, oil was cheap. That’s why nobody stuck around. That’s all. You didn’t believe me?” He could tell. “Still, you could try a little closer to the highway…don’t need to go out into the sticks…”

I hushed the bartender. As much as I treasure the creature comforts of life in a cozy house in the Beaches, or maybe because of it, I’m not above a primal thrill. There’s something about going mano-a-mano against a bear or wolf or shark or something. It’s hardwired into us. “Hold on, why exactly? Bears?”

“Bears?”

“Well, he said something might find us. No need to obfu… – to beat around the bush. So, what are you talking about? I thought grizzlies were extinct in this part of the country and I don’t imagine polar bears come this far south. Or wolves?”

The barkeep was momentarily flummoxed. “Oh, you mean what he’s talking about? Ah, don’t mind old Fred. He’s a shit-disturber. Old Injin’ fairy tales. Don’t let it spoil your drink. But, like I was saying, you’d find it easier to move all your equipment if…”

“We brought rifles,” I mentioned, lest the rustics within earshot take me for a mere city-slicker, full of naïve fantasies about friendly wolves and bears more scared of us than we are of them. “Plenty of ammunition, if we need it. I don’t mind hunting, either, when I get the chance…”

Fred spoke up again, and I noticed his expression had changed and he sounded like he was challenging me, as if, by not acting confused and afraid, I was insulting the dignity of his little town. “I believe you; you can take a wolf, with one of yer cannons, and a guide spotting fer you out in the open, but it’s not so easy like yer thinkin’. The ground plays tricks on yer eyes, eh. Fools ya into thinking it’s flat and open, but you walk a couple yards and then it hides the landmarks you were reckoning by, and yer up and down, and it doesn’t make no sense. The trees look little, eh, but they ain’t so little once you get in the middle of ’em. People get lost out there all the time.”

Ah, yes, ‘the place I live in is tougher than you, stranger.’ Countless times I’ve gotten that. I wasn’t going to play along. “It’s ok, we have maps, a satellite phone, compasses, all of us. And that’s a lot of men; a lot of hands and pairs of eyes.” I finished the watered residues lingering among the ice cubes and felt for cash in my pockets as if I was about to leave. It wasn’t an act. My face must have been irritatingly calm, because Fred stood up in his seat and practically shouted.

“Well, be sure the loopik doesn’t get’cha, then!”

“Come again?” I asked, plopping back down on my seat, as anyone would. “Loopik?”

“Ahhh, for Chris’sake, shut up Fred, will ya?” The bartender scowled with venom you don’t use when just playing around with friends. “He’s only joking. Trying to make an ass of you,” he smiled at me. “Because you’re an out-of-towner, that’s all. You can pay your tab when you leave out or next time you drop into town, doesn’t matter.”

I suspected the only reason he was ushering out otherwise lucrative customers was because the old drunk telling stories was about as immovable as an iceberg. “No, now I want to hear this. Actually, studying and collecting folklore from different places is part of my job, back in Toronto. Go on. What’s this loopik and why should I watch out for it, or him? I don’t think I’ve ever seen anything by that name.”

“Nobody has! He’s just making shit up. Can it, Fred, or…” I could tell the bartender’s anger was sincere and therefore I was more intrigued. On the other hand, it is my experience that 75% of what old drunks tell you in remote watering holes is bullshit, on top of which, as you should know, the word for this creature or being, at least as Fred pronounced it, didn’t sound right. Despite the similarity of ‘Innu’ – which it’s now become the fashion to call the Montagnais – with ‘Inuit,’ there’s nothing at all related between the two peoples. They don’t have the same ethnic heritage, they inhabit different areas, and they speak utterly unrelated languages, the Innu being an Algonkian people, like the Indians of the Central Canada cottage country, and the Inuit are, well, Inuit. Eskimos, as we used to say. ‘Loopik’ doesn’t sound like an Alongkian word, made-up or otherwise, though it is plausibly Inuit. How a word presumably derived from an Arctic language came to refer to a concept in the folklore of an Algonkian region, given the lack of friendly relations, or much relations at all, between the two groups, it was a question my mind was spinning over.

“Don’t ask me,” Fred threw up his hands, and I was about to storm off in anger at having been duped, however momentarily, by an inebriated hick. “I never seen one myself, either, and it’s not something folks know how ta explain, supposing they did see it. ‘N that’s if it lets ’em talk at all. Ask George there. He can tell you a whole lot. He’s seen one, y’know, that’s how I know about it – not that I hadn’t heard about it before. But I didn’t believe in things like that, that’s what I mean. If you’d seen uncle Georgie, how he looked when he came into our cabin right as we were sittin’ down ta have our supper, hoho! Can’t turn out a man who asks you fer a meal – folks are hospitable around here. Hehe, but we were scared he was gonna eat the whole spread, and the table to boot! Looked like a starvin’ ghost, didn’t’cha, Georgie? But, honest truth, he hardly touched a thing. Just bread and soup, and he didn’t sleep till almost morning. ‘N neither did we, after the story he told us. Tell ’em, Charlie!”

The gentleman so indicated was an elderly, worn-out and inebriated as Fred. Largely by virtue of his taciturnity, he’d preserved a semblance of dignity that his friend lacked, though. Strange that what seemed to be two old friends should sit across from but not talk to each other, but one sees stranger things in the North Country, especially if one is not looking for them. ‘Uncle’ George’s body language was casual but his visage was grave, whether or not he could walk in a straight line unaided. He was sizing me up.

“Well? Is Fred here just screwing with me?” I asked.

The man’s narrow eyes were there and not there. “It’s a story,” George replied bashfully. “Someone told me when I was a kid. Don’t remember who, ‘cept it wasn’t none of my teachers.”

“But did you see it – this ‘loopik?’ What is it? Is it real?”

He chewed his phrases before spitting them out. “I don’t want to say that. People see a lot of things that aren’t real.” The way he said it was bitter and mocking.

“Okay, but, speaking specifically about this creature…it is a creature, right? Not a ghost or spirit or something?”

“I don’t know. I told what I saw to my father and he says that’s what it was called. He was a trapper, my pops. Good man.” George took another sip.

“Alright, but what is it then? A kind of wolf? Bear? Why are you so afraid of it? How big is it?”

“Dunno. Only ever saw its eyes ‘n its shadow. Never saw it standing up. Only saw it once. Most people only ever see it once. Anyway, if you hear it in the nighttime, get in your boats or your jeeps and go. Go away.”

“Well, if I’m supposed to listen for it, what does it sound like?”

“Like the wind, but an animal. You can hear it sometimes, at night, where you’re going. Between the long hills, in the ravines. It’s a whistling that all of a sudden everything feels no good inside you. Worst is when the sun’s falling, and everything’s all gold and black…”

I was admittedly intrigued, but forgot everything when George very matter-of-factly said, “Never mind. Horse hockey! Made it up after getting spooked by a cat or a seal out mushroom picking one time, and then our kids started to share it and pass it along, like how kids do with things they hear and don’t understand from grown-ups.”

I paid my tab and left. I’d been entertained by the story but it was tainted by the disgust I felt towards myself for having bought into it for a moment.

Winter lingered harsh and long this year, so we had no need to switch to portaging and riding the inflatable rafts we’d brought, and were instead able to race across the taiga on our Ski-Doos. We arrived, earlier than scheduled, in our first prospecting location south of Fermont, between the top end of Lac Jonquet and the unnamed glacial lake which lies barely an hour’s walk west of it. Everywhere the topography bore evidence of the tremendous processes which gouged and moulded rock like the hand of a furious kindergartener squeezing and pulling a ball of Play-Doh. Of course, the transformations at the end of the Pleistocene are responsible for our landscapes further south, but there the retreat of the glaciers has been demurely marked by cities, forests, and the plough. Here, in the North, the rude sculpting of the ice sheets was fresh. You felt like, if you blinked, a mammoth might lumber out from behind a clump of tamaracks. The Woodland Cree have tales, you know, about hunting great woolly bears – several-fold larger than any other bears – that had two great teeth and ‘arms’ growing out of their faces…about hunting them with muskets. Far-fetched, sure, but if you left your desk to go out to these places…you could believe a lot of things might happen, if only because there’s nobody out in those places, and, therefore, nobody to see what you get up to. There’s no need to bury bodies when no one will be walking by for a century or two.

The ground in the hemiboreal zone is nowhere so steep that you can’t pitch a tent, nor is it so flat that its hard to find shelter from the wind. Staking the camp and setting up the machinery was a simple matter, apparently, for those who had to do it. So easy, in fact, that, since we ate on the trail, Mac, the cook, at the request of Barney, delayed started supper as Jim Bouchard and some of the mechanics wanted to hunt a deer or at least some rabbits for Mac to stew up. The oblong glacial hills, or drumlins, covered with a low but rich layer of thick-leaved shrubbery no taller than an unkempt lawn, mixed with feathery grasses and cattails in wetter areas, poking out beneath the snow carpeting their windswept flanks, offered a delectable banquet for non-hibernating herbivores. On the other hand, I was unaccountably tired, as if I’d walked rather than Ski-Doo’d the last six hours, so I confined my activities to circling the perimeter of the campsite, on the lookout for any telltale signs of past Indigenous habitation. I didn’t really expect to find anything in the short window of daylight that remained, but the land surprised me: probably disgorged from the roots of Festuca-topped hummock when a rainstorm eroded the soil, was an arrowhead. It was unmistakeably pre-Contact, since, French or English, the colonists are never known to have used flint weaponry. Indirectly, my find was evidence of the unusual geological activity of the area, which boded well, since ‘usual’ land in Central Canada doesn’t have any oil under it. You see, heavy rains last summer or not, it’s not going to be enough to dislodge, out of fairly level ground, stone tools that would have been interred potentially millennia ago. My fatigue and cynicism evaporated when I brushed off the moist earth and scrutinized it in the rays of the declining sun. Now, I don’t know what you know of Indigenous arts and culture, but this arrowhead was unusual in the extreme. I was second-guessing myself. It had a shape more typical of a spearhead, though, even as arrowheads go, it wasn’t very big – roughly the size and shape of one of the leaflets of an ash tree. Knapped with exquisite care to create a row of fine teeth on each side, it was made of greenish, flint-like chert, the most abundant material suitable for the purpose between the Atlantic and the Great Lakes. Most remarkably, it was not notched to accept fitting into a shaft. Seeing as the natives lacked metal to make ferrules and no screws or bolts could have been driven through it, I had to wonder how someone could spend hours on the arduous task of shaping the stone and yet leave the end product in a form that couldn’t be held securely to an arrow-shaft, much less endure the rigour of thrusting into the body of a moose or mammoth. Then my finger passed, or rather, was detained, in the act of rubbing across its smooth surface. I examined it more closed and observed a slightly discoloured band, matte in texture, where some type of adhesive gum or resin had been applied. That would work, but it was a mystery how someone out in the taiga of eastern Quebec could come up with the idea, while all the other native peoples around him before and since have only used bindings to fasten points to shafts. Impressive, too, was the fact that, in the acidic soil, the binding gum had endured for four or five centuries at minimum. I pocketed my discovery and told noone, but felt much better about our expedition.

My mood was not dampened by supper. The cook was forced to improvise after Jim and his hunting partners failed to come back with any game. The undulating ridges with their extremely dense ground cover should have proved literal breeding grounds for all sorts of small mammals, grouse and the like, but they were not able to bag even a single rabbit. They were not bad shots – quite the opposite – they simply failed to locate game. The sole exception was a whitetail deer which they shot at but failed to kill. Jim had boasted about his marksmanship and tracking skills and put himself out as something of a protector of the rest of the party, embarrassedly explained that the deer had come out of nowhere (“nowhere” being a spruce bog below the slug-shaped hill whose spine they were stalking along). It bolted, he insisted, with the speed whitetails reserve for when they are being chased by a predator or if a hunter has shot and missed. But he didn’t miss. Jim pleaded that they’d followed the blood trail. Ed, a driller, who accompanied Jim on the hunt, sneered that it mustn’t have been a very good hit, since the blood trail was faint; nothing more than scattered drops which petered out among the rhododendrons halfway up the opposite slope. Jim and Ed were the only ones that really cared. When you’re hungry, sitting out under the stars on a cold night, anything hot tastes good, whether freshly killed or poured out of a can.

I shared a large tent with Jacques O’Hara, the geologist and his assistant, an environmental science graduate from McGill. Our quarters were as spartan as the roughnecks’ but it was nice to have a mind to bounce things off of. Despite both being born-and-bred Québecois, only a generation removed from habitant life, neither Professor O’Hara nor his student knew anything of the folklore of the peoples who inhabited or, at least made seasonal use of our work site. Québecois culture is steeped in native lore, intensely syncretic as Catholic colonial cultures invariably are, but the moraines of the Côte-Nord’s interior were isolated from the development of classic Québecois settlement by barriers more daunting than walls or borders, and so, whatever myths the Montagnais who fished and hunted the taiga might tell about it, they would not have entered into the common stock of French-Canadian folklore. I decided not to bring up what I’d been told in the Wabush bar.

Over the next two days, our partly made excellent progress collecting soil and rock cores, more than a few of which, when subjected to our crude field tests, indicated a promise for future oil and gas developments. Moreover, notwithstanding the innumerable tamarack bogs which dotted the landscape, these were nowhere great in extent and could be drained, since the water and granite only thinly covered the granite bedrock – a perfect substrate for a pipeline or freight railway.

Disquietingly, I found myself called upon on account of my qualifications as a biologist, there being no medical doctor or nurse on the team. Nobody was overtly sick, but three or four of the men had been experiencing sensations of fatigue and listlessness, unaccountable in light of their otherwise excellent health and the relatively moderate work and conditions, considering what and where oilmen’s work is. Whether by progressive action or because they simply became brave enough to admit it, soon a third of the men had reported similar problems. These complaints never extended beyond that population however, to indicate the nature or source of the affliction. I ruled out the food and water, since those were the sale for all of us, and anything infectious would have spread. Stymied, I prescribed more sleep and coffee on waking, trusting that we had enough time and government grant money that a small decline in our team’s efficiency wouldn’t matter.

On the third night, we heard the whistling. I say whistling, because it was a stormy, albeit dry night, and there was nothing to persuade any of us out of the assumption that it was the wind…which, incidentally, shot between the drumlins with enough velocity that, as I huddled with book and flashlight in my sleeping bag, I proposed to Professor Moffat that we might want to construct a shack, which we could do as we had some prefab supplies and there was plenty of wood around. If this was going to be the normal weather of the season, our tents would prove inadequate. I know, intellectually, that there’s not much danger in the wind collapsing a tent on you, but, regardless, I was uncomfortable with the prospect of having our temporary homes destroyed in the middle of a pitch-dark night.

On the fourth day, the McGill student pulled up a core from the bedrock that was such that we didn’t bother testing it before we decided that an urgent cable must be dispatched to Ottawa. The core sample cylinder was oily as a fried sausage. First, we attempted to transmit a message via radio. Despite there being relay stations at Wabush, if not southwards over the moraine, we could neither transmit nor receive any signal. Hiking to the top of the drumlin didn’t help and we decided amongst ourselves that some quirk of the local geology must be responsible. The satellite phone, expensive as it was, fared no better, although we reminded ourselves that none of us was very experienced in its operation. Reluctantly, we called it a night.

By the fifth day, no one troubled about the lethargy that gripped about a third – and never more than a third – of the team. After all, with the continued failure of our communications devices, there was a perfect excuse to get back down south for R & R. There being nothing relaxing about sitting in a tent in a frigid wilderness, I busied myself trying to create work for myself. After the excitement of that first arrowhead, I had failed to find a single Native American artifact of significance, though I was keen on it, since the flora and fauna offered absolutely nothing of interest…except, a nagging feeling argued, for their lack of anything exciting. It was a confounding Catch-22: an area so seldom visited by hunters ought to have been turning with the sorts of game long since slaughtered or pressured out of habitats nearer to civilization. Likewise, a place so far from civilization, and nestled conveniently ambiguously near the ill-policed borders of the backwater sections of two provinces was a natural draw for hunters, legal or otherwise. That solitary deer, a prowling fox, and scattered flocks of migratory geese aside, I could not recall seeing any vertebrates at all in the vicinity of camp. Did the petroleum deposits below the surface impart a toxic quality to the vegetation? Yet the oilsands at Athabaska possess rich ecologies…During my promenade on the reverse slope of the drumlin opposite the one on the flank of which we’d pitched our camp, I spotted a rabbit or woodchuck burrow (the two species might of course use dens made by the other). I waited, but no rabbit came out, nor did making noise at the mouth of the burrow cause its inhabitants to emerge at an alternate entrance. The forbes growing in front of the hole were compacted, indicating the passage of a body of some weight – more likely a woodchuck than a rabbit – probably no earlier than that morning. I took my entrenching tool from my backpack and carefully dug atop the tunnel, acting on the knowledge that burrowing mammals often collect small human-made objects and despot them in their homes. These four-legged hoarders often save us scholars precious time searching and digging, through they may cost us many times that in the office as we try to decipher the mishmashed eras and sources of the jumbled items. Unfortunately, the soggy, stony earth did not hold its shape well, and an entrenching tool and enthusiasm are no substitutes for real shovels and layered excavation grids. I soon lost track of the passages as the burrow collapsed in on itself, never having ascertained the identity of its occupants. I managed to scrounge up a couple of small objects, although they were so caked with dirt that they would have to await washing off at camp before identification could be attempted. On the way back, I noted the tracks of a moose, which, as a keystone species, was an important observation, but I was too tired and the sun was too low on the horizon for me to try to follow the tracks.

At supper, the mood was better than it had been the previous nights. We…intellectuals were confident that our energy-mad backers would reward us as they never would for our scholarship, and the roughnecks foresaw another resource boom which they could eat, drink and lech through, saving them from seeking employment as roofers and factory temps in Toronto or Vancouver. The McMaster student (for the life of me, I can’t remember their name) actually believed he’d accomplished something of service to the country. After an unaccustomedly large meal, I took an enamel basin and rinsed off the objects I’d pocketed on my walk earlier. Taking them inside, to examine them by the light of the Coleman lantern, every one proved to be an item fabricated by human hands. This was not in itself odd. Rodents, corvids and other animals routinely take an interest in objects alien to their environment and give them pride of place in adorning their nests. What fascinated me about them was the variety of the periods and origins they represented and the inexplicability of their all being found together. Let me enumerate some examples: gilded metal buttons, French, military, from the time of Louis XV. A copper pipe-bowl, likely a Native trade good, indeterminate date but probably French from the heyday of the fur trade. The cap of a Sheaffer fountain pen circa John F. Kennedy and a flattish carved bead, fashioned from a material whose identity I’d not speculate, but which was neither bone nor horn, nor the tooth of a cetacean, and whose plausible date would have made me dizzy if I dared to contemplate it. These things I recorded in my journal. I could explain neither how they came to be where found or where they were probably initially acquired. Oh, sure, small odds and ends of clothing and personal items, you might say; we lose these things all the time in modern society as well. Fair enough, but in five days of surveying the glacial till – digging it, poking it – we had found no remains of tents, or lean-tos, let alone shacks or cabins left by the sorts of men who could have worn or made the objects in question.

The kerosene flame bred many questions. It answered none. Anyhow, I was hungry.

You’d expect men doing manual labour to have hearty appetites for all kinds of gross delicacies that would turn the stomach of the man who works in a heated office and you’d be correct. Most of us fell like starving hogs upon the drop biscuits, stewed prunes, corned beef hash, and margarine-soaked half-burnt toast et cetera, but Jim and the McGill student were abstemious, which was all the more surprising since theodolites are cumbersome things to lug around and chipping rocks and boring soil cores isn’t exactly light work. The workmen were mostly too busy stuffing their bellies to care. The guys on either side of Jim proffered him choice morsels, as though pointing with their forks would cause him to eat that which he could easily reach with his own. Like me, they chalked it up to illness. His stomach wasn’t used to the kinds of quantities of food necessitated by the North Country. He did seem out of sorts, like one does who is suffering a mild fever. My attention was soon drawn more to the geologist, O’Hara, however. He didn’t say anything, besides a perfunctory wish for recovery and a humble boast about all the work they had done that afternoon. The man’s body language, on the other hand…he was sitting stiff as the table; from his facial expression, he might as well have been a husband in divorce court, forced by the judge to keep his mouth shut while his soon-to-be-ex-wife gives her teary-eyed spiel to the courtroom. It didn’t make a damn bit of sense. Of course, I mentioned the artifacts I’d found in the rabbit burrow, but the consensus, if anyone was listening, was that typical ‘pack rat’ behaviour, common to many small mammals and birds, was responsible. In light of the species of animals that could have made or occupied the burrow, this required a stretch of the imagination, which we all tried to make. I began to think of the objects I’d left behind in the burrow…

Before we turned in for the night, I asked O’Hara about the student’s odd behaviour; if maybe we should call in a bush plane to evacuate him, since we didn’t have the means to look after anybody who was really sick, especially if it was catching (Jim was robust enough nobody worried for him). O’Hara was non-committal. Either way, freezing rain that started around 9:00 pm put aside any chance of a plane coming.

The night was worse than any of the previous. If – IF – you’ve ever been camping in cold weather, you’d know how, in otherwise tolerable temperatures, rain and dampness can penetrate your tent and suffuse your sleeping bag and coat, and the fire, unless it’s a huge proper campfire, will seem pathetically small. Before you say, ‘oh, it’s the woods, such it up,’ ehhh…it’s one thing to curl up sick in your own bed, but if you come down with a flu or fever out out in the real wilderness, it’s no joke. You should be afraid. It was me, O’Hara and the student in the tent. None of us talked but none of us could sleep, either. O’Hara was passing the time reading, with his back turned to me in his sleeping bag. The student glumly watched the tent flap, which looked out obliquely down the slop and at the tail of the drumlin opposite. Occasionally, thunder, or echoes like thunder, rumbled over the taiga. Bored and irritable, I scooted over to sit beside the student, who was an old hand in the woods, though he was no older than my PhD candidates.

“Usually in Toronto – actually in most places I’ve been, thunderstorms are a summer phenomenon,” I said by way of conversation. “But, then, we don’t have the Northern Lights, either.”

There was a contemplative frown on the student’s face; what’s more, there was a trembling in his eyes that should have sent chills down the spine of anyone who knew how unnatural that emotion was in his type which, despite the bookish veneer, was born and raised in a rural town of clapboard houses and apple orchards before he went off to university on a scholarship. “It isn’t – doesn’t happen this time of year in places like this, neither. It’s not supposed to, not that I’ve ever seen. Should still be getting snow, instead.”

“Snow?”

“Sorry, I was thinking…there’s a ski resort in my hometown. The snow makes a funny sound when there’s about to be an avalanche. The locals can always tell. I dunno about you, but this doesn’t sound like a thunderstorm at all to me. It sounds like the snow and ice, rumbling away just before there’s gonna be an avalanche…but there’s not enough snow for that…is there?”

“You think maybe we should have pitched our tents higher up? The wind’s not so bad tonight, and it’s not like we’re obligated by law. Could always just…move it, eh?”

But none of us really wanted to pack up and reset the tent a few metres higher up the ridge, regardless of whether the ground might be a bit dryer. We had staked one tent on a mini plateau of soft earth, because it was easier to drive the stakes (yes, the tent I slept in), and I was mildly envious of the others who had taken the extra time and effort to secure their own tents on the exposed rock, which you obviously can’t just hammer those yellow plastic pegs into. “Right,” I couldn’t neglect to ask, “If it’s not thunder, and we don’t have enough snow for an avalanche, you don’t think, what is it?”

The student was startled. “It’s a thunderstorm. Different latitude; a-seasonal weather patterns. Yeah.” This was unusually technical, compared to his habitual diction. He wanted that I should take him seriously.

I half-heartedly speculated about the importance of our research, which was essentially complete, but it required too much effort for either of us to connect sealed tubes of dirt and alphanumerically labelled rock chips with commuters grumbling slightly less at the pumps. After a few minutes of what must have been deliberate stalling on his part, the student gazed, with the eyes of an unarmed hunter – though he had a shotgun propped just inside the doorway – across the drumlin, up the pale, smooth oval of granite, brighter than the rainy sky surrounding it; up to the ridge where meagre black feathers of larch and spruce tethered the hard, stingy soil with the purple sky. We both absentmindedly drew our jackets close about the collar. Then he hit me with a question: “Not that it’s my business,” he asked with unaccustomed deference, “But you’re writing a paper after this, right? About what we’re doing out here?”

“Yes, well, I intend to. Not sure about it, at this point, though.”

“Fair enough. But you know a lot about, you know, the wildlife, plants, and how places…natural places I mean…how they change over time?”

“You could say that.”

“You heard they say we are headed for another Ice Age, right? I saw a documentary a while ago, with that guy who played Spock from Star Trek. It wasn’t a show though, it was science; there’s a lot of evidence for it. Would that lead to changes in the kinds of animals you see in which places? Changes we could see already?”

“It would, if it were true, but just because Leonard Nimoy on TV says…”

“So that might cause, say, a seal to come down into…like, these areas?” Doubting himself in the same breath, “Still, that’s a long way, and it was an especially cold winter, but the nearest seals are hundreds of miles away…”

“Excuse me, seals?”

“Umm, yeah, seals. I can’t say what kind. Not a big one, though.”

“What?!?”

“Tell you, Doc, I’ve seen every kind of animal in the Bush; hunted most of ‘em, but I never ran into a seal before.”

“You sure? I mean, a seal…What – when was this?” I smelt the air attentively for traces of alcohol fumes.

“Huh, okay, maybe it wasn’t a seal. But that’s what it looked like.”

“When was this?”

“Two nights ago.”

“Two nights ago?!?”

“Yeah. Before you ask, I hadn’t been drinking.” I hadn’t asked, but the thought occurred to me. “I was tired, though; dead tired. And I thought maybe I was seeing things. It wasn’t even nighttime yet; maybe four, five in the afternoon. We were taking down the frame around one of the drills and I’d gone into some bushes to take a leak, right where the slope meets the bottom, eh, and, I dunno, I just looked around like how you do and I noticed it there. Well, I didn’t notice it at first. It’s just my eyes were looking that way, and it was a clump of shadows beside some boulders and a spruce tree, except it moved up, not side to side, like something swaying in the wind would. And it moved too much, and that’s what made me notice it. I wasn’t a hundred percept sure it was an animal, until it opened its eyes.”

“How far away was this thing from you?”

“About…” he gauged the slope. “Seventy, eighty feet? If it was closer, maybe it’s not as big, but…I was tired…and nervous, and its eyes were red.”

“Red?”
“Like when you shine a flashlight in the dark, on the edge of the forest outside your car on the highway sometimes. I didn’t have a flashlight on me, though. It was like they made the light themselves. Anyhow, it was probably because I was surprised; didn’t expect to see it.”

“The ‘seal,’ you mean?”

“I was…mistaken. Never mind,” he enunciated carefully, breathing so as not to compete with the sounds of the wild.

The rain had thinned to a fine-droplet drizzle, and I could be sure enough to sleep, knowing we weren’t about to get washed away in a landslide, so I forgot the desire to relocate to higher, dryer ground. But I would not sleep just then. ‘Pleasure’ is the wrong word for it, but there’s something about sitting cross-legged, preferably on a slightly elevated spot, just thinking, taking everything in, meditating. The Tibetans understand. The fakirs of the Indian subcontinent certainly get it. However, our industrial culture has, until recently, quite literally busied itself with ignorance.

I thought about the disparate objects I’d plucked from the ground and how the dense carpet of sedges and rhododendrons might easily hide a thousand times as many from view. Perhaps even post-holes or charred fire pots related to the hunters who fashioned that arrowhead of green chert that so closely resembled Aborigine spearpoints from half a world away, which no one would ever learn about because their culture happened to have existed in places far outside the zones of major European settlement – nothing more than names on a map until centuries after smallpox and typhoid had scoured the landscape of its inhabitants. The very emptiness of the land led me to muse about what I might discover were I to return with more funding. The ecology is the key…yet what ecology was there to speak of? There was clearly the odd large ungulate passing through, but in spite of the lack of hunters and the untrammelled abundance of forage, it was as if the ecosystem had been cut off at the lower and topmost trophic levels, with no hare, nor grouse, ptarmigan, voles or shrews, nor martins or weasels to prey on them. Nor, I reflected, had I seen a hawk in the sky. The words of the old Indian in the bar in Wabush came back to me and I debated with myself whether he had told his tale of bad places and ill-fated prospectors out of drunkenness or whether he drank to forget something peculiar about these frigid barrens.

I could see it in the student, too. Something gave him the creeps, as well, but neither of us said a thing because neither of us had any idea what it was…the exact same quality of the light and texture, like the landscapes painted by Andrew B. Phin, that draw you in with their quaintness as you study them in the hall after leaving the washroom, then suck you into a world of depressive gloom and well-concealed sin that weighs on you like cold lead as you rejoin your host and, hopefully, other guests in a house or cottage you will never visit again. I had an inkling that made me want to run – no, jump into a helicopter – a sickening thought that I was about to be confronted with the source of the soul-crushing gloom of the painting in the cottage hallway. But nothing happened. There was the rain, and the whistling wind; across the gulch I saw an owl, Strix varus, I reckon, for I saw only the silohuette, perched atop a boulder below a half-skeletonized spruce. The poor creature was probably hoping that the unexpected rain upon the thin, poorly-drained soil would drive a vole or shrew from its den. Shivering myself, I figured it, too, must have been hungry and cold, for it swayed and bobbed on its perch; it must have clambered down and hopped up on the other side of the tree trunk, because it emerged there and I never saw it take flight. But owls, unless one is talking about the long-legged burrowing owls of the prairies, don’t hop about or even walk for transit. There must have been two of them, suffering equally from the cold and starvation. There is no morality in a food chain, but I found myself wishing that something – preferably a pair of rodents – would scurry out so that the unfortunate hunters might have a feast. Since they didn’t make any moves, I supposed the wish went unfulfilled. And…this seems somehow like a bad omen, after later events – I never saw them take wind and leave, although there was nowhere to conceal them, the trees being short and sparse.

“It’s embarrassing. They understand loyalty better than we humans do. A good reason never to get married.” I remember joking to the student. He seemed confused as if he hadn’t seen what I’d seen at all. I told myself it was good the expedition was coming to an end. I couldn’t put my finger on it, because we hadn’t really done much arduous work, besides the guys drilling the cores and the cook, nor had the weather conditions been truly harsh, at least by the standards of northern Quebec. Regardless, something had worn down the mental fortitude of a good portion of the team and it was getting to me, too.

I didn’t sleep much. Ehh, if you only understood, God, that it is normal – you should expect it – that you can ‘read’ the history of a place, whether a fish pond or Amerindian village, in the environment. Like a forensic detective reconstructing a chain of events from evidence. I’m talking both human and animal aspects of things. The great empty spaces on our maps are, as a rule, the richest in species diversity; the most teeming with life – empty of Man, full of everything else. Yet, there, which is still an empty space on the map…Ugh! As sleep overtook me, my mind lost its logical bearings. As you know, I have spent time in some of the world’s most inhospitable regions, full of venomous and predatory wildlife, virulent diseases, and dangerous politics. One assesses the danger and prepares accordingly. It felt…and I know this doesn’t make sense…it felt as though the land itself had it out for us.

Not the taiga, or Quebec; this specific spot…and all the while I hadn’t glimpsed so much as a paw print of anything that could kill a man, and the weather conditions had been annoying, at worst. I was sure – don’t ask me how – that the very hills and berry bushes and scraggly spruces were conspiring towards our doom. You remember what I said, about the Cree having stories about hunting bears the size of longhouses, with ‘arms’ growing out of their faces, though they’d never seen an elephant? Think, too, how the Kwakiut’l out in BC were carving animal masks that looked almost human but for the prognathous jaw, pouting lips, absense of a nose and copious hair. Since that was in later times, ‘experts’ dismissed them as depictions of mythical beings – oh, just like their representations of ravens, bears, eagles and orcas, I guess! — because the non-literate shellfish-gatherers could have had no concept of ‘ape’ or ‘monkey.’ You will be incredulous as I tell you that there was an entire town in Alaska – Portlock? — that was abandoned due to harassment and attacks on residents by large, hairy bipeds. If you assumed it was an old fur trappers’ or prospectors’ tale, I should mention that Portlock was a cannery town, manufacturing food for the war effort. And before you say ‘bears,’ bears don’t throw rocks or bludgeon men to death with logging equipment. We can accept that the Bengalee cannot effectively farm the Sundarbans because of the presence of tigers, despite it being a century since modern repeating firearms were introduced into the country. I reflected on the fact that, whatever technology we possessed, the capacity of our small band of men to control a hostile force in that environment, beyond the northernmost fringe of agriculture, was minimal. We made hardly more formidable prey than…my thoughts turned to the artifacts I’d found…hardly more formidable prey than some 18th century Frenchman with a musket and hunting knife, or a turn-of-the-century prospector with his black powder revolver. Our flesh was certainly no less succulent…

Think of it! The improbability of sheer coincidence having kept the efficient, destructive hand of Homo europaeus away for so long…The old man in the Wabush bar had been laughing, not because he was drunk, but because he knew something and we city-slickers, with all our degrees and diplomas were blundering into…for the life of us I couldn’t remember what it was we were warned to stay clear of. Sleep got me but not before I decided that we, or at least I, was leaving the next day and if I could not build much of a report on a pile of buttons and pipe-bowls, well, too bad.

From a scientific perspective, I attach little significance to dreams. Under normal conditions, we can dismiss them once the day’s activities have begun in earnest, as the projections of the previous day’s thoughts and experiences, fermented and distilled by the imagination. I don’t claim that my nocturnal reveries that night belonged to a different category, but, night in the cold, star-spangled darkness hundreds of miles from the nearest city, is a different thing from the same in a comfortable modern house surrounded by millions of (mostly) sane, peaceable fellow citizens. Our internal censorship bureau remains active, but its verdicts are much less convincing.

I dreamed – it’s almost shameful to sound like I put stock in this – I dreamed that I was in a small boat, either a canoe or a rowboat of some rough beige material. There were bundles of goods onboard, but, for whatever reason, I felt no desire to inspect them. My coat was also a dull greyish beige, with heavy blue cuffs, and I felt a warm hat upon my head, but I never looked into a mirror. I ‘knew’ – nothing or noone in the dreams said this, but I knew it as by intuition – that it was my job to paddle as far as we could go, taking three or four of the swarthy rough-looking fellows paddling alongside me with me into the lands beyond for a mile or two, leaving the others to make camp. I did not know what I would find, but if I found it, we would stay longer. If not, we would paddle back the way we came. From the context, it must have been beaver we were hunting, but, then, it wasn’t real. The terrain was identical to that which we were actually encamped in. Despite the historical aspect of everyone’s clothes and the canoe, the scrawny forest and rhododendron-covered slopes were no more ‘primeval’ in appearance, although because the sun set on our left, we must have been approaching from the south, not from Labrador. There was a storm, and my small party’s journey of half a league’s distance became a convoluted trek as we exhausted ourselves zig-zagging among similar looking ridges, dry stream beds and spruce and alder groves. Eventually, in the side of a teardrop-shaped hill we found a spot where, sheltered from wind, the trees had grown to more substantial height and breadth, and a cut in the hillside – not quite a cave – offered some shelter for us and a small fire. The storm raged all night. Though we managed to stay warm and dry and were beat to death with fatigue, none of us slept. No man could sleep, hearing those sounds: a strange, whooping whistle. It wasn’t loud but it asserted itself through the wind and rain as if on purpose, to remind us that we are not the masters here. Henri – somehow I knew that he was ‘Henri’ – was frantic, tugging at my collar as I fought for rest. He was yelling something about les yeux, the eyes; le chouan, and the stones, like a preacher on a downtown streetcorner. I slapped him with a gloved hand, as I was entitled to do. When he did not stop, I moved to draw my sword, such was my fury, but…then I saw them myself. First on the hillside, then on the ridge, appearing and disappearing. Red eyes, which glowed – they couldn’t have been reflecting light because we had none. Then, amid what I’d taken to be the outline of a hummock or boulders, they appeared much closer, among the sedges and rocks of the dry streambed in front of us. All the while there was no sign of anything walking or flying towards us. They simply appeared. I tried to make out what manner of creature they belonged to, but it was hopeless. Sometimes they appeared disembodied in the utter blackness, but in one or two instances, there was a silhouette around them, not unlike that of an earless owl or a Scottish fold cat when perched and alert. How big they were – I couldn’t say, depending on if the outline was of one of the creature’s heads or its whole body, but, not very big. I naturally associated them with the whooping and whistling that had scared us…I took a blunderbuss and fired a shot wildly and the eyes and whistling disappeared, but none of us could be at peace, knowing that the beings – whatever they were – lurked around us. At the crack of dawn, we ran and stumbled back to camp to warn the others and flee south immediately. I don’t remember what we found.

After a dream like that, understandably, I woke up in a bit of a bad humour. I was astonished by my watch, which showed it past 8:30 in the morning. Amazingly, O’Hara and the McGill student were still asleep in their bags, as if none of our alarm clocks had gone off. Not being a jerk, I let them sleep and went to go get coffee for myself. The earth was a sponge beneath my boots. The rain had continued all night. I saw that a clump of people had gathered at the tents lower down, on the rocks. Pushing my way through, I asked but got no answer. A second later, I saw they could hardly have provided one. The expedition leader (at least, he saw himself as that), Barney Moffat, was still in his sleeping bag. He was not alive. No inquest was done, but I’ll speak for everyone when I say it’s better to search for your oil elsewhere and leave that God-forsaken snow-desert to itself. I don’t think the expedition’s report included photographs. We didn’t take any. But I can give you a fair description…

Do you garden? If so, do you grow tomatoes? If so, then, I assume you are familiar with the appearance of a nice, ripe beefsteak tomato which has been subject to depredation by M. quinquemaculata – the tomato hornworm? Well, imagine that, but the beefsteak tomato is the torso of a man. What’s more, when all was said and done, it appeared there was a hole in the tent floor as well and – mere coincidence – the tent had been set up atop a natural fissure of about six or seven inches in diameter, pierced through the granite bedrock. This, anyhow, was what we agreed upon in our report. We did not plumb the fissure to ascertain its depth, and, if you have sense, neither will you. Tell your boss that Alberta’s premier is a lucky man, and please forward my cheque to my account at the Bank of Montreal.

Regards,

Dr. G. H. Belzer”

A Knock at the Door

by M.G. Warenycia

            The overtaxed AC unit wheezed and strained against the exhalations of the fatigued, sweat-basted bodies that packed, tighter and tighter, into the already-crowded subway car. It did not offer even token resistance to the evil melange of odours accumulating with each succeeding stop. The northbound train hauled units of production away from the downtown core like a boilerman’s shovel dragging spent ashes from a still-warm firebox. Through the windows, its passengers could observe the southbound train carrying scantily but expensively clad clubbers to drink and dance, and, if they were fortunate, acquire a man who would spare them from riding the subway for a few weeks or months of Friday nights. At the end of the line, you would glimpse serried platoons of this army, advancing clumsily down the sidewalks to the gates of the great night hotspots on stilettoed feet, hoping it might be assumed that they had come out of one of the Porsches or Benzes in the parking lot, rather than a bus two or three stops away.

            There was a time, not so long ago, but already seeming more of a half-forgotten dream than a tangible memory, when Angeline Boucher would have been heading out on the cusp of a sweltering summertime night like this one. Only she would not have rode the train. She could have walked, in fact, and more than one night witnessed her, with a squad of housemates, staggering home, heels dangling in the air, skin-hugging dresses and miniskirts taxed by gross quantities of poutine, pizza and artisanal burgers, which they would have virtuously shunned in the light of sober day, a good portion of which would end up in the sinks of the Edwardian duplex they inhabited – to be cleaned up by the least successful of the night’s huntresses…usually Angeline herself.

            Not that Angeline was the ugly duckling – quite the opposite. Clad in yoga tights and sneaker whites, or in a winter ensemble arranged around her prized ultramarine blue, coyote-fur-trimmed parka, she was a veritable goddess among that urban tribe, sometimes loosely referred to as hipsters, though, really, the subcultural lines are blurry. A lean oval face, broadest at the prominent cheekbones, relieved of its severity by a subtly retroussé nose and shaded by an umbrella of jet black bangs; roseate lips painted crimson to contrast with the marble whiteness of her complexion, and a pair of wide, searching eyes whose tint precisely matched Holbein Manganese Blue Hue. Add to that long, supple limbs and the hands of a pianist, her comprehensible yet exotic (to Torontonians) accent and one did not wonder that so many of her classmates asked her to serve as a model for their own life drawings. When, of course, it was that they wanted a traditional Romantic, Pre-Raphaelite or Flapper-era vision of beauty and not something chosen for ‘are you avant garde enough to pretend you find this attractive?’ sorts of images.

            The wheels gave a banshee screech, rending her out of her meditations. “Due to track maintenance…we apologise…” in the staid female voice of the intercom. It was almost 8 p.m. The sun stabbed in at low angles, flickering through the window frames, stinging those manganese blue hue eyes, but the heat and the soothing rhythm of the tracks lulled her once more into somnolence. She drew an old sketchbook. She did not take out a pencil. She was too tired to make art and, besides, the way people were jammed into the subway car, her elbows would get jostled something fierce. She had learned early on what people wanted to see. They wanted to feel guilty, or to be persuaded they were tyrannically oppressed so as to impart some faint degree of pathos into their lives. Insecure from childhood, she craved praise and acceptance. Had she not been both talented and consciously beautiful, this would have been enough.  She had imagined the City would be a safe harbour of like minds in which she could be the Angeline Boucher she sometimes dared to daydream was her real but hidden self. Unquestionably, she had succeeded, in every objective sense…

            She happened upon a sheet of heavy watercolour paper, wedged among the leaves of the sketchbook. A ‘portrait’ of one of those trees in the Sahara which are otherwise perfectly normal-looking but just so happen to be hundreds of kilometres in all directions from the next nearest living tree. It was executed with a brush and pure India ink, with an airbrush-smooth graduation of reds and oranges in the background, representing the sunset. For added interest, she had put a pen-and-ink-wash Egyptian ruin, with headless columns and rubble off to one side in the middle ground. She submitted it, two winters ago, as part of her portfolio for the semester. She’d even constructed themed series dealing with current events and cultural heritage, which she had tried to make an expression spectacle of discovering through her artistic development. Not only did her professors fail to display the enthusiasm they showed for her classmate Becky’s (‘Jake’ by third year) exploration of ‘transcendent’ sexuality through abstract expressionist acrylic paintings and junk sculptures (in a literal and figurative sense), or Zabeeha Al’Sulaiman’s crude copies of famous paintings – sometimes actual commercial prints – with hijabs drawn or painted over the female figures. Zabeeha – not that it mattered – had gingery red hair, freckles and hailed from some hinterland town not unlike Angeline’s own hometown.

            The watercolours – her favourite medium, though she worked in many others – of rolling hills, bucolic farmsteads and cosy villages dominated by church steeples were taken as generic landscapes, mere technique exercises, probably assumed to have been made with wall calendars or postcards as reference photos.  Actually, it was her hometown and its environs. It had been embarrassing in the extreme to stand, waiting five or ten minutes, while her favourite art-history prof, a scatterbrained ex-hippie, scrutinized her ‘masterpiece’ series: a half dozen large canvasses, depicting religious scenes taking stylistic inspiration from medieval illuminated manuscripts and Jules Breton’s paintings of devout peasant women, transposing them into modern urban environments. “Oh, wow, wow, I can tell you were really connecting with the medium…your colour balance, the way it carries the composition…” the prof gasped and mumbled in awe. Then came the let-down. The professor had been spending all that time searching for the disguised irony and subversive innuendo she was sure from the first must have been incorporated into the painting…searching long and hard because she didn’t want to appear ignorant or hurt a student’s feelings by interpreting incorrectly and therefore de facto implying the student had failed to communicate their message. “Mmmh!” Brenda – the prof’s name; everyone called her by her first name – exclaimed after a swig of steaming peach tea from the tacky mug that never left her desk. Professor Brenda proceeded to congratulate Angeline on how she had cleverly subverted traditional iconography to satirise the ways in which the Catholic Church inculcated backwards medieval ideologies into modern women, particularly marginalized, uneducated ones.

             The pièce de résistance – depicting a latter-day Mary Magdalene in jeggings and a Canada Goose jacket, encountering Jesus, personified as a dreadlocked homeless man – was particularly incisive in showing the absurdity of internalized patriarchy in ‘current year.’ Angeline smiled uncomfortably. She had intended, in fact, to portray the spiritual journey of a modern young woman finding herself – and God – in present-day Toronto. The only irony was in her deliberate application of archaic styles to present-day models embodying the true sincerity of past artists who saw spiritual themes in the living world around them. Pious women in 14th century Books of Hours wore wimples and long dresses; those in Breton’s paintings were clad in the peasant garb of late 19th century northwest France. The spirit which inspired those old artists was present in their world, not frozen perpetually in the image of first century Roman Judea, to be contrasted with a pure and crass materialism for today. Angeline had occasionally started attending services at a church that still did Latin Mass on some occasions – though she did not make confession or take communion – in order to put herself in a frame of mind closer to that of the artists she meant to channel.

            She waited patiently for the other passengers to clear out before attempting to wheel the tower of stacked and strapped-together suitcases and bags she was handling. She winced at the jolt coming up the stretched-up handle of the suitcase forming the base of things, winced in anxiety not for the paints, books and clothes inside, but for what was on top – a very small cat carrier, inside of which a very large cat cringed in mute terror. “It’s ok, Giselle, my baby! Mama is here for you…” she kissed soothing words of comfort to the anxious feline, but grew suddenly uneasy and trailed off. She hurried on; it was only a few blocks, and when she was standing up walking straight ahead, she could not see into those plaintive yellow orbs behind the wire grate. She could barely remember when she’d been anywhere near this far on the line, but that’s where Google Maps comes in.

            The neighbourhood was mostly modest, late-20th century bungalows and split-levels, though here and there rapidly rising property values manifested themselves in massive brick edifices with cathedral ceilings and double or even treble garages, built to the very edges of their respective lots. The general quality of the place was more prosperous and confident than…what was it, four years ago? She did not remember so many eye-catching garden plantings – a lot of houses had impressive displays of peonies, as well as red and fuchsia climbing roses, presently in full bloom. The driveways no longer harboured rusty ‘beaters’ and primer-spotted Astro vans. Upscale Hondas and Toyotas stood alongside smaller members of the BMW and Benz families, lending an air of modest but ambitious respectability. The complex of 60s-70s Brutalist highrise apartment blocks looming behind the station, with their weather-stained cladding and dungeon-like, syringe-strewn stairwells had seemed to oppress the very atmosphere beyond their press-bar actuated, mesh-windowed steel doors – its character of tired gloom only enhanced by the colourful murals depicting an idealized version of the community – seemed to fade into the background; a relic of uglier times and no longer the representative face of the neighbourhood’s identity.

             Such occasional jaunts into ‘Fordland’ had only reassured her of the wisdom of her decision to reside downtown – sometimes in Queen West, Baldwin Street for a semester and change, then Kensington Market. The number of roommates required to hold down a place there inevitably led to conflict over fridge space, toilets and showers fouled, and misappropriation of booze and other common resources. More aggravating still was the talk; the scheming, almost always clothed as well-meaning concern for a ‘gurlfriend,’ wanting the best for her. Such eye rolls, and hushed (but not so much they wouldn’t be overheard) conversation shattered fragile egos, broke up promising relationships. But striking out on one’s own, away from the cannibalistic flock of a particular roommate situation, demanded sacrifices. Sacrifices one would not even consider but for the wet bleakness of November, the anger of family-less Christmases, and the interminable, ice-bound nights of December, January, February…black nights of bone-soaking damp cold that no coat or blanket could resist; nights where a young life’s accomplishments grew dim and one had to flee from oneself to keep from suffocating out of existence.

            It was always comforting to know that, tough and frustrating as things were, it was better than being out by Kipling, Finch, or, God forbid, Kennedy. She had gone out rarely, always only after receiving repeated invites, to birthday or dinner parties in such parts. How satisfying it was to sigh about the difficulties of travelling ‘all the way’ out to Scarborough or Etobicoke and to see the envy in the faces of people who merely shopped and studied where she lived. Then, when she finally had a proper spacious condo to herself – a condo practically overlooking the Lake – she was too afraid to attend any more of those parties.

            She gazed up at the cuboid lowrise, a parkette on one side, a modest corner strip mall with a Shopper’s Drug Mart, florist, fish-and-chips shop, Afghan supermarket and some other typically suburban GTA shops. The sky as bright and the breeze noticeable fresher and cooler han where she’d come from, and a massive relief after the subway. Yes, this was it, undoubtedly. Beige, flush tinted glass, with chrome details and milk-white orb lamps along the flagged walkway. Always the artist, Angeline reckoned it had a sort of toned-down Art Deco revival style with a Middle Eastern palette. A fresco of winged goddesses and picture writing, maybe a pair of pharaonic sentry sculptures too – those would be a nice touch. On entering the faux-marble floored lobby, she was pleasantly surprised to find a mosaic on the walls by the empty front desk, though it was just a geometric pattern. The emptiness of the halls and elevators was mildly disquieting to someone who spent most of her days – and nights – never leaving the radius of other humans’ body heat, without a full five minutes of silence week to week, but she reasoned that the families (mostly immigrants, she suspected) were probably all in their apartments eating supper. The melange of aromas assailing her nostrils from every direction confirmed the hypothesis.

            Not that she was bothered. Her lithe physique belied the fact she was something of a foodie and had sampled the cuisines of much of the known world since arriving in Toronto. Mind, there were always times – more often in the last year or so, it seemed – when she craved some old-fashioned provincial home cooking. Her grandmother made all kinds of wonders – cipaille, vitréais, pudding chomeur, the best pea soup in the world – things you couldn’t really make correctly just by following recipes off the internet…even if she’d had a proper kitchen to herself, the money for the right ingredients, and the time and energy all on the same occasion. That was all in the past, though; so far in the past she couldn’t remember much else that happened around then, or wouldn’t. You could get lots of poutine in Toronto, true. But she was reluctant to let loose into ‘hangover food,’ even if it was late and she was very drunk. She didn’t want to become sloppy, careless; lose her edge. One thing leads to another and she would end up like…it did not bear thinking now.

            A beseeching, kittenish mew escaped from the carrier atop the luggage stack. “Oh, calm down…” Angeline whispered, dragging her fingers along the carrier’s grate as she wheeled her baggage along. “You’ll be out soon…” she trailed off as she came up to the end of the hall which overlooked the street above a radiator and a broad ledge decked with houseplants that looked like miniature palm trees. “Makes it easy to watch the street and parking lot,” she mused to herself, before shaking off unpleasant memories of peering through a screen of monstera and spider plants to watch for a man – or men – in a green ’93 Camry at the behest of a shitty roommate who left in the middle of the night while Angeline was at work, taking the espresso machine, a jumbo bottle of Point Pelee and a pair of Ray-Bans that didn’t belong to her. Never heard a word about that again.

            “Room three-zéro-a’whun,” she enunciated, rolling her feet. She raised an arm, drew up her parachute-like sleeve with the other hand, and daintily flicked the door with the backs of her fingers, so that the stubby, green-painted nails clacked against the resonant wood. The hallway deserted. She heard a shuffling and a tinny clanking through the door; a few more seconds, then the shlick of the chain and the thunk of the bolt, and the door swung open.

            The young man who opened it had not changed much from the last Angeline remembered, what, three…no, more like four years before. That was Dayna’s house party, maybe? Or at the samba studio…Even the same hairstyle. He was wearing a baggy faux-silk mandarin shirt and holding a dish towel and wooden spoon. The pair stood in silence for a moment, till Angeline giggled and asked, “You’re cooking?”

            “Oh?” the fellow looked at the towel and spoon. “Oh, yes, well, not much of a chef – heating food enough to make it edible, I guess, is how you might put it,” forcing a laugh and retreating back into the kitchen to lift a lid and give some bubbling, spicy goo a stir.

            Angeline took this as a sign to come in and heaved her luggage over the sloped threshold with a winsome “Hmph!” then stood demurely at the edge of the open living room.

            “Oh, sit down, make yourself comfortable,” the man emerged again from the kitchen, sans utensils. “Goodness, it’s a lot to catch up on. I mean, there’s Facebook and all, but you’re hardly ever online and one doesn’t always like to follow people’s business; makes for bad, erh, you know…Coffee?”

            “No thanks,” Angeline bowed and looked about for a seat. “Way too much caffeine in my veins already today.”

            “You can use it as a couch; that’s what I normally do when people are over – not that folks from uni come out here often,” the man motioned to a neat, post-less IKEA bed presently covered with patterned rugs and throw pillows like a Persian divan. Meanwhile, he seated himself on a battered old ottoman, racking his brains for a way to ask ‘how things have been’ without probing that which politeness does not permit to be probed. He came up blank. “Eh, you must have taken a while to reach. We should let this little fellow out, no? Cooped up there so long…” Taking Angeline’s silence as assent, he unstrapped the carrier from its place and heaved it down to the floor. “Ough! Hefty feller you got ‘ehr!” An enormous, beaver-shaped black-and-white cat shambled out of the carrier on incongruously frail-looking legs, proceeding to sniff and scout around the room.

            “Mmh hmm,” Angeline cleared her through, twisting her toes together under the bed. “Her name is Giselle. Really, Ruslan, I’m so grateful, you don’t know how much…To find someone who would take…”

            “Bah! It’s nothing,” Ruslan blushed. “You took in some of my furniture while I was moving house way back when. And gave me that antique sidetable. Matches the place too, Art Deco antique, not some Nordic particle board crap or ‘midcentury’ hipsterness. So, hmm, you been doing ok lately? Going to Montreal for the long weekend?”

            “I like how you’ve set this place up,” the girl responded, wriggling in her seat and patting its springy surface with her palms. “You’ve got a theme going…like, adventure, silk road, Himalayas. Neat! Did you draw those?” She cocked her chin at an arrangement of framed monochromes, most depicting exotic scenes in keeping with the rest of the décor.

            “Yes, actually. Pen and ink, based off the sort of illustrations you find in Victorian travel journals, which you can find online. It used to be a popular thing, before mass jet travel, the internet and convenient cameras; pretty much the only way to get an idea of what some far-off land was like, if you planned to travel or wanted to write a book set there…” realizing he might be boring the charming young lady seated on his couch-bed, Ruslan changed tack. “Have you found a next apartment yet? Just, it’s an odd time to take a vacation, no? Rentals, even in Scarbs, are getting snapped up in hours of people posting them. I have a friend from uni – you don’t know him – like six, seven places he and his girlfriend checked, and not like they are looking for a bargain basement deal. Fifteen, sixteen hundred and of course that’s not counting utilities. Heck, CAMH is moving out of their place over by U of T. Three hundred thirty-three percent rent increase, just like that. So I tell the man, best withdraw to Markham, be amongst your own people. Look me, I’m out here because I’d be homeless if I insisted on staying in ‘the Core.’ People paying a hundred-and-ten percent of their income for a rabbit hutch.” He saw that Angeline’s attention was drifting. The cat was rubbing its solid, round head against her leg, coating her tights with a clingy residue of coarse hairs, like a loveable porcupine cheerfully quilling its victim. “You live in downtown still, yes? Kensington, right?”

            “Mmh,” she kept gazing about the room. “I mean, I’m moving, but, yeah.”

            “Ah. And, where to…right, none yet…how did you find it?”

            “Oh, it was alright. Lotta real local culture; you’ve got so much colour, diversity and all the old homes. Plus the shopping’s great. I mean, duh!” She managed to look back at Rusland and laugh; the cat head-butted her shying feet but was ignored.

            “Ehh,” Ruslan sighed. “Scarborough doesn’t have diversity? It’s an ideal I guess. Yeah, I see it. Character, history, the whole Jane Jacobs mixed-use neighbourhood package. Everything Toronto is supposed to be, but that’s mostly just in people’s imaginations, or thirty years ago. I’d live there myself, but only if I had money, or else you’re sleeping in a windowless ex-laundry room. One needs a certain basic minimum of space, or else how do you paint? Have people over? Or even just pace about when you feel like it alone at night?”

            “I dunno, I have a full bachelor. I cook n’ stuff. I mean had.”

            “Ugh, that’s lucky. Must cost, what, two grand, twenty-five hundred? Wah, that’s more than a barista makes in a whole month…one and a half times their income…” Even as each sentence left his lips, Rusland was inwardly berating himself; “Why did you do that? What good do you think you’ll get out of pushing things? Is it so important that she knows that you know? Probably why she hasn’t even said ‘hi’ on Facebook in years and why Teresa and Emilia and everyone no longer have any gossip to tell.” Naturally, he did not speak these thoughts aloud, though he was convinced he had been speaking in a tense, inquisitorial tone that had put his guest on edge.

            As if to confirm his suspicions, Angeline turned and glanced about the room with an astonishment which seemed to spring out of nowhere. “Wow! Is that yours, too?” She pointed to a large watercolour of a calico cat luxuriating on a Louis Farouk settee.

            “Yes, in fact,” the sweetness of her voice and the unaffected smile in her voice washed away his anxiety but left him quite confused. “I did that one for a friend who went to med school out in BC. His cat. It would cost a fortune to ship it out that far, so I scanned it for him to make prints if he wants. Took me an awful lot of failed attempts to figure out how to get the effect of fur without making it look rough or muddying the colours.” He frowned as he saw himself spilling accidentally into another lecture, but was again relieved as, far from being bored, Angeline’s limpid eyes sparked with unaffected delight.

            “Really? Awesome. You totally killed it. Like those portraits, too…”

            “Kriehuber is my inspiration for those. Parker ballpoint pen for everything, except when I needed solid-solid black, or to wash in backgrounds.”

            “It’s so much more…ngh! I know what I want to say but…the word!…Like, you know, something that you can tell somebody poured a lot of attention and energy into, like art that shapes you as you’re shaping it, through the intensity of the process….raffiné, cultivé…”

            “Refined? Hmm, well, it’s nothing compared to what you turn out, but I try.”

            “No, for real. Like, compared to, you know, how in OCAD the number one thing is photography. Which, okay, you can take a photo that required lots of time and judgement, but anybody with a few hundred buy a digital camera or even an iPhone and photoshop, and honestly you can’t tell the difference whether they did four years studying photography in school or if they just bought a camera and started snapping pics two weeks ago – except based on what they take pics of…normal stuff or trying to gross people out, or be ironic, or make some statement that’s supposed to be all brave and shocking but is just what everyone else is doing.”

            “Such as? I think I see what you mean, though…Lazy, I guess.”

            “I mean, like,” Angeline’s pallid complexion flushed with uncharacteristic anger; “Say you wanna be, ‘oh, I’m so avant garde that I laugh at silly people with backwards habits and organized religion.’ So, like, this girl I know, you take some photos of people dressed as nuns or mocking some famous religious painting for attention. And if somebody complained, she’d get all outraged, like, ‘oh, how dare you, the church has been oppressing womb-myn for centuries…’ yeah, brave act of rebellion. An’ you know, one time I saw she posts on her wall asking people why there’s all these people on the streets with black marks on their faces. It was the start of Lent. You gotta ask, why such people…ugh!”

            “And they’re the same people who would say the French cartoonists were asking for it,” Ruslan hoped he had grafted something onto the topic without stealing it from Angeline.

            “Exactly. This girl also had one of those Himalayan salt lamps in her dorm and believed in horoscopes. People want all the street cred of being an ‘artist,’ but they don’t want to live the life.”

            “You mean hipsters?” but the passion of the moment had so infused Angeline’s graceful frame that she did not notice his question.

            “…They think that living at a certain address, having those ugly glasses and a fixed gear bike makes you an ‘artist.’ And if you don’t play along, you can’t be one; doesn’t matter if you can draw or play an instrument or whatever. Screw that. And you have to believe everyone who can read a book and use a paintbrush voted for Justin Trudeau and Olivia Chow…”

            “Right, completely agree…”

            “…They don’t want to make the sacrifices. Those neighbourhoods in Paris, you know, that the Impressionists and those modern masters lived in; people moved there because it was cheap and shabby, which meant they could devote their lives to their passion and still pay the rent. The places became special because they lived there. It’s like the total opposite here, where you pay crazy rent, which means you have to work at two or three mundane jobs and never have time for actually creating anything, just so you can live in a place that looks n’ feels like where some authentic starving artist who eats $22 burgers, and…ngh! It’s like, a product you buy: you.”

            “But you lived in Queen West or Kensington Market, no?” Ruslan chimed, instantly regretting it in his head: “Stop. Why can’t you just stop?” He was doubly intrigued now, wondering what exactly it was about this topic that got her so riled up.

            “…And it’s like, if you don’t play along and pretend all that stupid stuff matters, then everybody hates you. And if you seriously try to…be what they pretend to be, they’re scared to ever talk to you or laugh behind your back…! Like, joke’s on you!”

            “I see, yes, I know what you mean,” although Ruslan’s understanding of the problems that tormented the young lady was intellectual and detached. As an overheated boiler venting steam, Angeline suddenly returned to her usual wistful demeanour, staring longingly at the cat which had now mounted the bed beside her and, this exertion completed, was kneading a sleeping place for itself. She stroked its dense, somewhat greasy fur, occasionally wiping her hand against the blankets to scrape off static-clung hairs. As she did this, she half-closed her languid eyes, cooing softly in joual baby talk to it, fully aware that as long as she wasn’t looking at him, Ruslan would not take his sight off her – she could guess he was envisioning her replacing the central female figure in a dozen famous paintings.

            “That’s my favourite kind of cat; you could make her the star of a YouTube channel which would consume thousands of cumulative labour-hours each day!” he suggested, trying to be humorous with obviously tongue-in-cheek grandiosity.

            “Ha-ha, oh, good they don’t allow pets in the studio, or I’d never get anything done!”

            “Mmh, what is she? Looks like Maru, if he was black and white. Scottish fold – one of the prick-eared ones?”

            “Hah, no. You’re right, this loafer could get a job, with her celebrity good looks. Actually, she’s a Laurentian Shorthair, purebred, registered and everything. Got her from a breeder’s in Hull, back in second year. Cost me twelve hundred bucks, too.”

            “Oooh, precious kitty! Pricey as a Canada Goose jacket, one of the top-of-the-line ones, at that.” Ruslan darted into the kitchen to check the pots simmering on the stove. He opened the fridge and surveyed the contents shelved on the door. “Ask or don’t ask,” he debated with himself, laying hands on two bottles of wine. “No,” he concluded in his head, “Just one,” reflecting that, while the commonsense advice holds that naturally prudish and awkward persons, in social situations, especially those involving the opposite sex, ought to toss away inhibitions and try to be fun and playful, it never worked out very well for him in practice. He didn’t want to appear to have ulterior motives. On the other hand, it wasn’t like ‘keeping proper distance’ these last couple years had won any victories. And if it went badly; if he got an indignant ‘that is NOT OK,’ the worst case scenario was…more of exactly the same. He returned to the living room holding a bottle of Red Label. “Something to drink?” he asked, furtively watching Angeline’s reaction. “Been so long, you must have a lot of stories. I’d uh, if you feel like sharing…” toning things down as the embarrassment hit almost before each word had left his mouth; “Catch up on old times, I mean. I’ve always…admired your sincerity, as an artist, you know. How you live your life, determined to be what you want, not just have and act, or…” He wanted to bash his head against the coffee table.

            To his surprise, Angeline responded warmly, “Ah, thanks, definitely!” taking the bottle off him and filling her cup. “Hmm, Red Label ‘wine beverage,’ Kingston, Jamaica…oooh-kay. Didn’t know they could grow grapes down there.” Things moved more smoothly than Ruslan dared imagine, as Angeline regaled him with all kinds of random anecdotes about OCAD life, gallery shows, and her attempts at learning to cook traditional French cuisine. She was also gulping back the 13.5% alcohol fortified wine with a vengeance, leaving him to strategically nurse his initial half of a coffee mug’s worth. Maybe the second bottle would have to come out. Afraid now of seeming like he was only pretending to pay attention, waiting for an opportunity for…whatever. Ruslan searched for a talking point. Alas, he had been too lost in those huge and radiant, yet icy, blue orbs, the measured movements of those tactfully bared porcelain shoulders and the slender but well-formed thighs pressing smoothly against the black leggings confining them….he could only recall with any clarity that very last thing she’d said. “Cooking, eh? I suppose, done well, it’s an art in itself. French especially. You never learned growing up?”

            “What do you mean?” the passion in her face flared once more.

            Caught off guard, Ruslan stumbled. “I mean, I thought you grew up in some little village, farm country… and you’re always keen on history and culture…you know, from mother to daughter, traditions, that sort of thing…thought your mom or grandma would have taught you,  I don’t know. Not to stereotype or anything.”

            Angeline quietly rested her eyes inside her cup for a moment. “My grandma died when I was seven. My mom never taught me how to make anything, except Kraft Dinner. She wanted to smother anything creative I ever tried to do. Like, ‘who do you think you are?’ Everything was like that.” She brooded on her words, taking a long, loud sip and pouring another cup.

            “I see…I see…” The only one in the room not affected by the tension was Giselle, sitting sphinx-like, flapping her short, clumsy tail against the bed. “I thought your dad was a painter. Odd they wouldn’t support you then…”

            “I dunno, if you find him you can ask. My stepdad is a house painter, which isn’t painting; just coating shit in coloured liquid.”

            Ruslan had scanned old photos of childhood birthday parties, with balloons and sheetcake aplenty, and a seemingly affectionate, unselfconscious working-class family on her Facebook. If that was the stepdad, he looked an awful lot like Angeline. Then again, a small Québec village settled four hundred years ago, everyone probably was more or less related. Or relations could have soured. Pretty much nothing new had been uploaded to that page in at least a year. Too nervous now to do anything but dig himself deeper, he carried on. “I thought you visited them lots, like when you got Giselle here. And Aida posted lots of albums of you guys on road trips to Montreal.”

            “Montreal is nowhere near my place.” The hot anger dissipated into cool and airy contemplation. “There’s not really hotels or anything, and nothing to do, unless they want to play dairy maid.”

            “Like Marie Antoinette.”

            “Hah, yeah. Plus we usually go in Aida’s car. I wouldn’t want to drag people out to the middle of nowhere and people don’t speak English…” She trailed off, lost in some melancholy reminiscence.

            Mustering his courage, Ruslan moved over to the bed and sat down there, though keeping a good two or three feet down from Angeline, the cat interposed between. “You keep in touch though, right?” he asked tenderly, now petting the cat, making clicking noises, “good kitty,” and so forth, to put a thin disguise on his surely-perceived plan that their hands should come into contact, with adoring the kitty providing plausible deniability for both parties.

            Angeline was silent for another moment or two – their hands brushed slowly, not staying but nor did she flinch away. “They know I’m in university, studying fine arts…” Ruslan could see her eyes in the shadow of her glossy bangs, looking vaguely at the coffee table in front of her, but seeing something far away – something which he could not see. Her lips parted, revealing the barest hint of even, gleaming teeth, but no words escaped. The foamy clatter of a pot lid startled Ruslan from his trance, and he dashed up towards the kitchen before lentil soup met stove burner and all his neighbours would be irritated by the smoke alarm going off.

            When he got back to his guest after ploughing up the tarry matter on the pot bottom with a long spoon, Ruslan was dismayed to see her standing up beside her luggage, looking perfectly at ease, as if no profound sentiments had crossed her mind all evening, though her cheeks were glowing crabapple pink from the wine. “Going already?” was the best he could do. “Who are you staying with tonight? I know some ex-classmates who might help with the apartment hunting…there’s a lot of units around here, actually, seeing as it seems time’s soured you on downtown…Need help getting tubbums into her carrier?” He picked up the cat, which was purring contentedly, wrapping its paws over his chest like a sleepy, well-fed baby.

            “Hee-hee! She likes you!” Angeline tittered.

            “Seems so! Well, you know, I am a cat person…”

            “Me too!”

            “Yes, that’s pretty obvious. You know, there’s this author, horror-mystery stuff, wrote a fascinating essay on the character differences between cat people and dog people…a bit overboard sometimes, but funny…and true! Pretty much, anyway. I’ll send you the link on F-B…”

            “Actually, I’ll be spending the night on the road.”

            “What the?!?”

            “Travelling!”

            “Oh, right.”

            “I’m going back home for….a while…”

            “With Aida and them?”

            “No…I mean home-home. Not Montreal. I’ll be taking the Greyhound.”

            “Oh. How long will you be staying?”

            “I dunno. A while. Anyways, I haven’t got a new place in Toronto yet, and the people on Bunz weren’t any help. Seeing how much she likes you…”

            “You want me to be cat sitter for Giselle here?” Ruslan sighed.

            “If you’re ok with it. Otherwise…the Humane Society…”

           “Kitty Auschwitz?” Ruslan puffed with righteous indignation. “Good Lord, no, no. It can’t happen. Such a wonderful creature, but…do you have to be travelling now, then? Why not wait?…”

            “Listen, things have been…” Her looks said she knew that he knew – if only intuitively and through fourth-hand gossip. “My mom is…sick. And I have to see her. I can’t keep hiding out here. I can’t run away…”

            Ruslan wondered if that was the meaning of Angeline’s coming to Toronto. Running. Then hiding from what she’d fled. The lights and rush of the City did appear to be a king of anaesthetic for a lot of young people, usually from elsewhere, whether from foreign countries or Northern Ontario, the Maritimes and such places (which was essentially the same thing).  It pained him to contemplate this secret muse of his as being one with the cookie-cutter hipsters; the castrated race of interns competing in obsequiousness; the hackneyed academics quoting post-modernist drivel like religious mantras to accompany vicarious lives, the coffee shop toilers with their resentful herdist attitudes; the meth-scabbed slumpartment dwellers whom three generations on welfare had stripped of all ambitions beyond the fulfilment of the animal appetites. It was inadmissible in the scheme through which he viewed the world. Wiser men that he believed it; if Thomas Hardy, Lombroso and such genius minds were agreed, surely there had to be something to it – that a vessel so exquisite, seemingly embodying so much history and culture (all the more if it was done unwittingly) should, after all, contain a soul undistinguished amid the low and level plain of millennial North American urban humanity. Were the laws of environment so ironclad that the types which inspired the poets and novelists of one or two centuries prior were now no more than stories themselves? Was it so stupid to wish that there were still real flesh-and-blood people who were ‘The Solitary Reaper,’ ‘The Tired Gleaner,’ or ‘Tess of the D’Urbervilles?’ It was undeniable – he insisted to himself – that such permutations of the human character existed – even if they tended to suffer unhappy fates. If it were otherwise, where would anyone have got the idea? Though whether they still could exist in a modern metropolis…

            “I’ve got to go, or I’ll miss the bus and they only come like every two or three hours. You’ll take Giselle, then?”

            “Yes, yes. I’ll look after her till you get back. Oh, I don’t have your address or phone in Québec. I mean, if I needed to get in touch with you…”

            “It’s ok. I’ll probably be staying at a hotel in Montreal while I’m there, not at my parents’ house.”

            Ruslan wanted to ask how that possibly made things ‘ok,’ since he’d be equally at a loss how to reach her. He knew how little she came on Facebook and emails…he’d feel cheated, since he’d never know if she read them or not. Before he could find the words, though, Angeline had slipped nimbly outside. He managed to catch a glimpse of the hall-end door swinging shut on its pneumatic hinge. He had the cat and a suitcase full of sketchbooks, painting supplies and canvasses to ponder upon in the sleepless hours after midnight.

            The leaden white paint clung like a curse to the clapboard walls of the bungalow, grudgingly conceding, flake by flake, to the age and decay which had eaten away at the rest of the house. The mesh screens of the small-paned sash windows, kept open because there was no AC, were holed and gashed by squirrels’ teeth and errant songbirds. The grass around was green and lush from the summer rains, but unmown. An old navy blue LTD, stuffed with random items like an impromptu storage shed sagged to the wheelwells under an open carport. A Chevy van in marginally better condition rested in the gravel drive. The asphalt shingles of the roof were peeling up at the edges like the petals of burnt pinecones. It was not a farm; there were houses on either side and across the road, spaced not that much farther apart than in a typical suburb. For all that, though…perhaps it was the contrast with throbbing, bustling downtown Toronto, or perhaps it was other memories…the bungalow might as well have been in a different postal code from its neighbours. The property had an atmosphere common only to itself – though how much of that was due to its physical condition and how much to other, less quantifiable factors could not be easily determined.

            The CBC news wooshed and crackled on an elderly CRT television. A sluggish retriever was dumbly gnawing a rubber kong, inherited from a predecessor, lolling on the brownish-olive carpet whose pile was cropped and felted with years. The syrupy savour of sausages crisping in a well-greased skillet wafted out of the kitchen. A stiff-faced, knob-jointed woman prodded and turned the blackening meat logs with a two-pronged melamine fork. “Christ, you don’t haftah burn them ta ashes! The money’s gotta last till the first. Gawd, half of everything you gotta throw away, even the daag won’t eat it,” a beefy armed, square-headed man in a rough patterned cardigan shouted from the sofa in the living room.

            “Well, if you were workin’ instead of on pogie…”

            “Don’t come at me with that crap. It’s my pension; they won’t give me anything else ‘cause I worked too damn much. If it wasn’t for me doing twenty-seven years in the mill, how much d’ya think you’d get?”

            “I’m just sayin’…”

            “When you get out and earn it for your goddam self, then you can say whatever you like. Hmph! Yeah, you’d haftah work a lot ‘a overtime, the way thing’s lookin’ now, ya would.”

            At first she had not noticed it above the scrape of the fork and the clatter of dishes. But after the sink was full of hot and soapy water, she paused and listened. Had she really heard anything? The TV was getting in the way. “Turn it down!”

            “Whaaat?”

            “The TV. I heard somebody knockin’ at the door.”

            The man grumbled, but complied.

            “A minute ago,” she considered, glassy-eyed; “I heard someone knocking at the door. Knocking real light. A couple of times, now that I think of it.”

            Probably Jo-hos. Or somebody sellin’ something.” The man turned the volume back up and returned to watching the news, but the woman was gripped with a curiosity – almost a compulsion. It made her uneasy. She went to the front of the house and flung open the rickety screen door, stepping in her socked feet onto the sagging porch. She looked searchingly, left and right, down a long and empty road.

           

          Copyright © 2017 by M.G. Warenycia

The Lake

by M.G. Warenycia

                ‘And thro’ the drifts the snowy clifts

                Did send a dismal sheen;

                Ne shapes of men ne beasts we ken –

                The Ice was all between’  –  Coleridge

            The seasons are moods as much, or more, than they are sections in a calendar. Following the foetid, grossly humid summer in Toronto, the city enjoys, for a brief fortnight or perhaps a month or more, a sort of season, cool but not health-endangeringly frigid, where the life of the great northern metropolis proceeds in a relaxed, yet productive mode. This is particularly the case for students, hordes of whom are returning to the city’s several universities, but are not yet faced with the tedious burden of term papers or the looming existential dread of exams. It was an unremarked certainty that this quaint and pleasant season was over. It was clear, in the wind shipping down out of the Shield Country with all the unflinching sternness of a Puritan schoolmaster, rattling the glass-walled canyons, spearing through jacket collars and zipper seams, flinging empty coffee cups across the busy roadways.

The shuffling, hustling current of pedestrians moving along Dundas Street covered elbows with palms, tucked heads into collars and stiffened their gaits. It was, ironically, perhaps, not so bad for the immigrants – those still sufficiently ‘fresh off the boat,’ at least – who, coming from less-homicidal climes, had not adopted the schizophrenic local dress code: fur trimmed parkas as soon as they were bearable in autumn, beach or strip club fashions as soon as temps rose above fifteen degrees in the spring. Among the locals, many a pair of sockless ankles grew pink as boiled hams, and crossed arms gave a feeble boost to thin ‘mid-century’ print rompers. Ramen and Mongolian hot pot restaurants lining Dundas and nearby shipping streets did brisk business. Spadina fruit vendors huffed glum cloudlets of tobacco smoke as the chattering crowds ignored their pyramids of refreshing, but unfortunately cold and watery, bounty. And the rain began to pink bullets against streetcar windows and the plastic shells of bicycle helmets…

Jemma Paquette, luckily, was dressed more akin to the sensible foreigners, in an olive and beige patterned Aran Isles sweater of heavy wool and sturdy jeans, as opposed to the yoga tights which had rendered pants almost obsolete among the local womenfolk. This was not out of any desire to be unfashionable, nor because she was unattractive – quite the contrary, although a natural insecurity prevented her from showing herself off to best advantage. Rather, it was a habit formed in long hours spent drawing and painting in the studios at TCAD-U, the city’s – indeed, the country’s – premier arts-focused university. The combination of sitting still plus the strong AC in summer and weak heating in winter made such ungainly armour necessary.

As Jemma leaned forward and squinted her eyes against the wind, she had to simultaneously fight to steady the enormously broad, flat bag she was carrying. It caught the gusts like a galleon’s sail, paining her wrist and guilting her as it occasionally slapped a passer-by. A white plastic bag with the ‘Curry’s’ logo splashed across it. Jemma was coming from the location on Yonge, near the campus of Ryerson University, for they alone among the chain’s downtown outlets happened to have in stock the particular pigments she needed. She could not wait the four to six weeks to order online; she needed her tools now. The stretched canvas, which shaped the bag’s bulk, would embody months of thought, sketches and art theory research, including the term paper she had submitted at the end of the spring semester.

“I wouldn’t wanna get caught in that going home!” Jemma heard a familiar voice; “but I won’t, ‘cause I live like, right here!” Jemma saw her friend and classmate, Eunice Yu emerge from under the awning of a one of those shops selling Chinese curios and random goods that crowd in on the sidewalks of Chinatown. A faux-Qing Dynasty porcelain urn held out salvation in the form of some colourful, wood-handled umbrellas. A wise shopkeeper ran this place. Before Jemma could suggest that her companion wait a minute for her while she goes into the store, Eunice read her thoughts, “Bought ‘ya one!” and offered her a shield against the rain, which was now threatening to become a proper downpour.

Jemma and Eunice, in accord with a prearranged plan, walked northwards up Spadina. Eunice knew the place where they were going, a restaurant. Suggested it just off the top of their head, as she always did when they needed to eat or shop somewhere new. Jemma had to look up the review of the place on BlogThe6ix.com, even though she had lived in this area, owing to her studies, for the last 6 years. She marvelled at her classmate; envied her. Eunice knew these streets; knew their pulse and flow like a salmon knows its ancestral stream. She could navigate them just as well night or day, summer or snow, drunk or sober.

The two young ladies squealed in unison as a peal of thunder clapped the red and white plexiglass signboard, heralding the beginning of the real storm. Eunice called from a table in a nook by the window – she would never sit in the middle of a restaurant – talking in Chinese to the bowing, vest-clad waiter; rather overformal for what was really no more than a slightly glorified version of your typical ‘chop suey house’ sort of restaurant, which, along with beautifully illustrated cookbooks of dubious authenticity, was one of North America’s principle points of contact with Chinese cuisine during the very beginnings of the era of Multiculturalism back in the reign of the first Trudeau. New Ho King, being deep in Chinatown, and with (so one of Jemma’s Chinese classmates had told her) a fair number of allegedly triad-affiliated clientele, had a somewhat more elaborate menu than most and a ghost story or two to its name, but was still of the same basic type. BlogThe6ix online magazine gave it 4.5 out of 5 for providing hearty, greasy fodder for cheap, such that cold, hung-over students at the two nearby universities appreciated, served in a suitably “homey” (read: “close, cluttered, tacky”) and “authentic” (read: “just clean enough to get a Health Department ‘Pass’”) atmosphere. It probably lost the point-5 because there were no schoolgirl-looking waitresses, adorably incompetent and tittering uncontrollably in foreign languages, like at the wildly popular Korean cheesecake place around the corner. Also, it had obstinately kept serving sharks’ fin soup, even when, during a campaign to ban the stuff a couple years back, hipster students, fresh from classes where they had imbibed Edward Said’s Orientalism and raged at their country’s historic discrimination against certain immigrant cultures, proceeded to decry the fact that these Chinese immigrants were permitted to practice their barbaric, backward culture in the sacred and progressive municipality of Toronto. If the owner, old man Hwang, understood, one suspects he enjoyed the yu chi at this grandson’s wedding banquet all the more.

Jemma loved the place for all the reasons BlogThe6ix.com told her to. The dinginess made it even more comfortable a refuge from the blizzards of winter, or the blasting winds of autumn and spring. It was as if the greasy spirit of the past (visible and tactile on the wallpaper and picture frames) somehow lent its spicy, salty warmth to the diners in the present, making its Cantonese comfort food that much more comforting.

Jemma ordered General Tao’s Chicken – it didn’t feel wrong, now, with a Chinese friend – with hot and sour soup, while Eunice chose BBQ pork on rice, with pork blood soup. The rain was lashing down hard outside; so heavy it was like a curtain of water, enshrouding the scene beyond fifty feet or so from the restaurant window. That and the savoury, well-laden dishes made the conversation expand as their stomachs.

Eunice chatted, or, really, lectured about her latest boyfriend, how the crusty old judge had no right to sentence him for a full two years for what was just an ordinary break-and-enter; how school was busy and dull; how her father’s doctor said his blood pressure issues had mysterious vanished…Jemma wasn’t bored by this sort of talk. But, who, who has some secret affair or project, does not wish for others to ask about it and make it the centre of conversation? She wiped the syrupy General Tao sauce from her fingers and fumbled in the Curry’s bag, keeping her eyes and half-hearted smile on her companion. Taking advantage of a moment when Eunice turned to beckon the waiter to refill their teapot, Jemma drew out an object which she made an act of studying while nibbling the batter off a lump of chicken.

“What’s that? Paint?” Eunice was a painter herself, of exceptional talent, moulded by being crammed through all-day art school by her parents from kindergarten till their emigration to Canada when she was in high school. While even the professor paled next to her in sheer technical ability, Eunice was, unlike most artists, not too much of a snob to take genuine interest in individual styles different from her own. The soft tones and use of glowing, flooding light in Jemma’s works, especially her landscapes, impressed Eunice. For all the derivativeness of her subjects and her stilted forms, Jemma had that knack – impossible to learn from books – of using light to create and atmosphere that expressed the ‘mood’ of a season or place better than the light of whatever scene in a true-to-life photograph…kind of like how a horror movie director can make a clean modern office tower into a site of creepiness, or how 1980s Hong Kong filmmakers shot bar and party scenes that long onscreen just like how such experiences feel in the warm, drunk mind of one experiencing them or remembering them in melancholy reminiscence. “Something big cooking in the studio?” Eunice noted the impressive size of the tube.

            “No…” Jemma answered absent-mindedly. “I mean, yes, but, like, not in the studio on campus. You know, if you have a really original idea, how those lazy hipsters will just copy it and claim some shared inspiration”

            “Yeah, I know, right?” Eunice recollected, with no small bitterness, how she had one planned out a series of vaguely cubist-surrealist canvasses themed around the TTC. She had shown off her sketches (stunning works of art in themselves) to classmates, basking in the warm glow of being the first and most admired among colleagues all competing for the same thing. Her triumph was short-lived. Weeks before the end of semester, when she planned to make a dramatic presentation of her series, she saw a poster in the halls and cafeteria of the admin building. She immediately rushed over to the student gallery. Oh. Em. Gee: there was a full on show, complete with elaborate and ridiculous artists’ statements, music, even slam poetry. A couple of her adoring classmates, either more industrious or less scrupulous than her, had pumped out a dozen canvases, large and small, that, besides the signature were indistinguishable from those she was working on or hoped to begin work on. So much for hashtag sisterhood, hashtag ‘you go gurrrl!’ “What is it then?”

            “Well, you know like how the England like Thomas Hardy writes about had Constable, Victorian Australia had Tom Roberts and Frederick McCubbin, and the Boreal forest had the Group of Seven…”

            “Yes, I do know most of those names. Settler colonialist art? What are you getting at?”

            “No, that’s not what I mean…ugh!…It’s…It’s like, you know, an era in space and time, sort of crystallizing its spirit in a distinct style, not created but like channelled through a couple artists who just are that place, that time, that energy….you know?”

            Eunice’s broad, empty smile showed that she kind of got it though failed to see the profound relevance of Jemma’s remarks in the context of her hauling home the canvas and tubes of pigment.

             Jemma Paquette had had spent many years in earnest study of John Berger’s Ways of Seeing, John Campbell’s theories of symbolism and archetypes, Gimbautus’ flattering but groundless pseudo-archaeology, the colour fetishism of the Romantics and the line-worship of the Neo-Classicists. She had diligently practiced, with varying degrees of success, but always with a solid competence, replicating the flat perspectives and unique palette of Ancient Egyptian papyri. She had created convincing works of Medieval illumination (with allowances for material limitations of budget and convenience), even though she had never read the Bible (though she had a self-satisfying sense of being persecuted by the Catholic Church) and found monkish piety unintelligible and revolting. English-style watercolours, cubism, Ab-Ex. She had done a little bit of everything, and done each morsel with the same exacting seriousness and technical proficiency, in her long period of study.

            Actually, you could say that Art, capital A, had been her raison d’être for the entirety of her reflective life, which one might fairly say begins in high school. Indeed, you could say the whole of her education was consecrated to the visual arts, for she had attended a small, selective (though not expensively private) high school, where the focus was on the arts and other ‘soft’ subjects, largely through the charismatic influence of the art teacher, a crazy but genuinely interested and caring old hippie who was also the history teacher, the ‘Ancient Civ’ teacher (Canadian history being taught by the principal), and the World Religions teacher. Poor marks in math and science classes were generally tolerated if a student showed promise in those that counted – not that many of the school’s graduates were inclined to pursue STEM fields in uni anyway.

            Like most of her colleagues at TCAD-U, there had not been a great deal of questioning as to what sort of major Jemma would pursue at uni. True, had she been a bit more aggressive and embittered, she might have gone in for Gender Studies. Had she had a messianic streak, Social Work may have beckoned. But there was never any thought of, say, engineering – so dull and practical; so devoid of soul-cleansing ideological indignation. Nor, for that matter, was the Sisyphean task of ploughing through law or medicine – and the necessity of having one’s skills tested in life or death matters – in the cards.

            She made the choices everyone, including herself, expected her to make. Like most of her colleagues, too, she never asked herself whether they were good choices; she just instinctively knew that every alternative was wrong or not up for consideration. If she needed any reassurance of this – such as when an ex-high school classmate, who had become insufferable for his constant complaints about Toronto (rendering him a pariah among Jemma’s friends and no small embarrassment as a guest at parties), actually left to become a lawyer in hot and easy-going Queensland – she merely had to consult NOW Magazine, BlogThe6ix, or the student newspaper. In an emergency, blocking on Facebook, or at least hiding posts from her feed would prevent any arrogantly posted photos from insulting her and her life choices.

            It was only in the last year of her undergrad and, especially, in the last year, that, unexpectedly and quite unnoticed at first, a nagging, unpleasant feeling had crept over Jemma like a pair of possessed sunglasses that made her world appear in hard-to-describe but manifestly discomfiting tints. As first, the ‘sunglasses’ could be batted off with little effort. Some energizing music, a shopping trip to Pacific Mall with Eunice, foodie-food or PSAs and gossip with the ‘gurrrls.’ An hour or two of the bright sun in the busy city. Then it would be gone for a month; a couple weeks at the very least. But the ‘sunglasses’ kept installing themselves in front of her eyes, casting the throbbing urban life-drama before her in that brooding, inexplicably isolating and mind-fatiguing light. It began to happen with increasing frequency, too. Gradually at first, till, last winter, it was like a person with a longstanding chronic lung complaint, who has suddenly met with cold, damp weather with an immune system that had been silently weakening for months.

            What ‘colour’ were these sunglasses? Of course, they had no colour in a literal sense – in that case she would have gone to a doctor. But there was a definite ‘colour’ nevertheless; not any of the major slices of the colour wheel in their bright, solid forms. No; it was an uncanny blend of tints, cool and murky; a good deal of titanium white blended in, but with some greying by a splash or two of strong ochre and ultramarine. Uncanny it was, too, that she had seen it before…knew it such that if it were in tube form she could come up with a catchy, descriptive name to stick on it. It was in her memory; she felt it in her young bones; in the prickly of her pale, lightly freckled skin. Try as she might, though, it would not burst out of her unconscious.

            A casual observer with a practical mind might have diagnosed the mundanely material worries of a student looking down the barrel at life in a city with few prospects for a young person seeking the normal sorts of things one is supposed to grow up into in a post-Second World War Western capitalist culture. What, with an average house in the City – and not even in the sacred core of the City, where any sane arts grad would want…would need to live being over a million dollars, while the average BA-holding barista-slash-office peon-slash-contract sweater-folder earned barely enough in a steady month to pay the rent on a cramped and scuzzy room in an apartment shared with a couple other random (and usually loud and filthy) co-habitants. And that on a diet of predominately instant noodles and Kraft Dinner to save pennies between the socially-obligatory, vigorously Instagrammed visits to the BlogThe6ix and Torontoist-approved Black Hoof charcuterie pub, Thai fusion at Spring Roll on Yonge, Cantonese comfort food at Kom Jug Yuen, Burgers from Hero and Burgers Priest and poutine from Smoke’s. Not to mention the unmentionable fact that a battery of Aboriginal Studies and feminist theory electives on top of the typical Toronto girl’s YOLO-forever attitudes and non-existent domestic skills had rendered her essentially unmarriageable to a man with prospects anywhere above barista, office peon or contract sweater-folder. A life lived on social media, in restaurants, bars, clubs and galleries, between long intervals of mercifully hidden drudgery, tedium, and doubting loneliness darker than an impasto gob of Mummy Black.

            Such an observer would, for the most part, be overthinking the problem. Though Jemma was not naïve, and all her friends were well-educated, none of them ever really thought about such problems in any theoretical sense. True, there were the aforementioned dissidents, but thankfully they mostly ceased to exist as soon as they passed south of the great lake, or east of the Bluffs. Everyone else she knew as in the same boat, whether they were a few years older or just starting undergrad.

            Sometimes, though, the never-ending orgy of consumerism and, above all, soul-cleansing toil, comforting because  it brought no awkward, guilt-ridden success to detach oneself from one’s friends and classmates…it was alive, real, vital…as a process. The brush strokes were textbook; the professors all nodded encouragement. Yet, in the wee hours of some mornings, or on a late-night walk past the century-old Bay & Gables whose narrow, fretwork-browed eyes glared in the eldritch shadows of the ancient lindens and silver maples…sometimes – just sometimes – her heart would skip a bit as she wondered what on earth she was painting?

            As the thermometer dropped and the wind bit at throats and eyelids, one tip of the iceberg weighing on Jemma’s mind revealed itself to her. It had not been detectable when the student and alumni gallery of TCAD-U was a new, hard-won and hence imposing privilege. Not when Delacroix, Kriehuber, Ingres, Alma Tadema and Bouguereau were just hard-to-spell names in books, more condensed representations of ideologies and aesthetic value-sets in textbooks and lectures; archetypes who existed in a purely hypothetical world with no real-life models to compare against. Familiarity breeds contempt, as the saying goes. When she entered undergrad and began to slavishly hang around the cafes and shops around campus, attending the regular uni social events and house as well as dinner parties, she assumed that her classmates were the modern incarnations of such great names. After all, was not the “starving artist” a creation of the fin de siècle in urban Europe? And was not the Queen West indie café the modern iteration of that in 1890s Vienna where delightfully deranged painters, political poets,  poetical revolutionaries and edgy psychiatrists had mixed and mingled – albeit with pumpkin spiced locally-sourced frapp’ foam and gluten-free macarons (not macaroons!) instead of kaffe mit schlag and sachertorte?

            As she struggled with preparing her Master’s ‘thesis’ for the spring – there is no doing an all-nighter before the due date with an oil painting – everything suddenly looked very different. Which is not to say it was different: everyone looked and acted exactly the same as in undergrad. That made it all the more disturbing. She finally got it after she – perfectly ingenuously – kept trying to discuss art and share her works with her colleagues. She felt like she was being magnanimous, inviting them to share in the creative process (and naturally offering to reciprocate herself), for, she was sure, it was only in their mutual sharing of their artsy lives together that they could live the types they modelled themselves on. To do otherwise would feel fraudulent and a waste of their precious years of uni time, all relatively free and easy (if impoverished). She’d held off on being more aggressive with publicly adopting an ‘artiste’ persona, in fact, until a massive accumulation of professor’s praise, high marks, and Facebook-liked finished works had given her shy nature sufficient confidence to shake off some of her habitual self-deprecating introversion. That loneliness, especially in the winter – it is a killer.

            When she actually went so far as to bring a sketchbook and a couple small canvasses over to a dinner party at Eunice’s, it was as though she’d fallen off her fixxy bike into a mass of urticating caterpillars, her romper-bared legs stung till she wanted to writhe in bloody madness. Oh, yes, Eunice gave the event some artsy name on Facebook, suggesting it was some clubby, insular meeting of avante garde types. Eunice’ own profile pic had her standing in a beret in front of the Louvre, too. Over several hours, what she witnessed was several generic-faced (she had thought all her female friends as beautiful as goddesses, but then she’d never been to Ryerson or bothered to realize that the fact drunken men will sleep with a woman does not make her beautiful), generically dressed young harpies bragging about how they are “like, genuinely, actually, a slut; for real!” Boasting about their exploits with random men at parties or on vacation in Jamaica, England or Spain – when she knew some of them had boyfriends, who were decent men. Stuffing their mildly overweight faces with coarse, greasy food (not regarded as ‘junk food,’ as what is expensive cannot be junk) and dry, weak local wines with no regard for ladylike etiquette. Conspiring with the preternatural cohesion of an ant colony surrounding an intruder to backbite and cause this or that friend of theirs who wasn’t there to break up with her boyfriend. He “wasn’t right for her,” “she could do better,” “she shouldn’t settle,” “he isn’t in her league.” Really, of course, what it really meant in translation was “he earns more money than her even though he doesn’t have a university degree,” “she got banged by someone hotter than him at Danielle’s Halloween party,” “she shouldn’t settle for someone who is not a handsome billionaire, seeing as she’s an up-and-coming young artist with a BA…even though she works at a coffee shop or as a retail clerk,” and “if she gets with him she might one day be above us.” What pathetic people, Jemma though, who would rather smash someone else’s happiness – and convince each other they are actually doing her a favour in it – than make the slightest real effort to improve their own lives. Not to be outdone were the gay-best-friends, with their affected lisps (apparently lisping and limp wrist tendons are causally related to having an address in the old Metro Toronto), skinny-fat physiques squeezed into plaid and skinny jeans fit for their 12-year-old selves, insecurity-concealing beards and shaved-sides long-top hairstyles. Many an honest, muscly but degree-less plumber and one scion of a prosperous Dubai-based Persian business family were spared months of annoyance and stress and perhaps the agony of a mispurchased diamond ring and premature Facebook relationship status due to the conversations that evening.

            And not one of them gave a damn about her sketches and paintings. Nor, for that matter, did they seem to give a damn about their own. It was as if being an “artist” to them really and truly meant the purchase of certain items of clothing, the renting of accommodations within a specific geographic area, riding a ‘vintage’ or otherwise shabby bicycle, particularly in weather and road conditions unsuited for the purpose, and espousing certain superficial ideologies. Nothing more. Nothing.

            The issue weighed her down for weeks afterward. How was she different? She looked at herself in the mirror. The skinny jeans, the thick-framed glasses she didn’t actually need to see, the ghastly and shapeless rompers, the Canada Goose jacket she had to wear on alternate days to Tabitha (who put up half the cost), the snotty bangs, the bicycle that took up a huge chunk of her allotted space in the shared rental which she rode whenever she didn’t need to get anywhere urgently or carry meaningful quantities of groceries or other goods.

            It all suddenly was superficial; hollow; as predestined to collapse as Gibbon’s Roman Empire. Yonge Street was fast becoming unrecognizable. Block after block, she could see it, tacked up beside the laundromat that had been open since Trudeau the First was in office, the army surplus emporium that had kitted out generations of punks and urban rebels, and the sushi place that opened to serve the first yuppies who predicted how the miraculous robot people of the Pacific Rim would become the ruling global superpower of the 90s. The grim black-and-white signs. The owner of this property has applied for re-zoning…to construct a tower as tall and un-godly as that of Babel. All the way from Xanadu in the south, where Eunice had briefly strip-danced to ‘pay her way through uni’ (though the government had already taken care of that) and rebel against her conservative Confucian father, to its main competitor, the Bronze Rail, in the north, and east, and west, soon to blot out what her aesthete’s eye cherished to see. She drew away from her classmates as much as politeness avowed. Indeed, she saw neither of her friends, besides Eunice and Parvaneh, whom she felt could not rightly be lumped with the others as they did not share the taint of their baseness. She would focus on her art, yes…though whether she was in fact an artist was now a matter for doubt.

            One late winter afternoon she and Parvaneh, another ex-high school buddy, were strolling along College Street near Bathurst. They were heading to a Persian restaurant, Parvaneh’s treat – she had plenty of spending cash. Then again, she lived with her doting, shamelessly bourgeois parents in North York. She wasn’t even an arts major – studied tropical agriculture, actually, a subject as practical as it was absurd. However, she had the hyper-developed aesthetic sense that all Persian people seem to have… “Am I being racist to think that?” Jemma wondered to herself. Parvaneh could share in the art galleries, museum visits, and the general appreciation of the beauty in the details of everyday life that Jemma regarded with unaffected seriousness – the bloom of the crabapples in April-May, the majesty of a hundred-year old willow waving on the banks of a watercourse, the sublime waves that crashed against the Beaches in all but the cheeriest weather. They passed a stone-fronted section of the sidewalk strip, where, between an upmarket curry house and a Japanese fashion store, was an art gallery, no doubt converted from some random shop closed more due to rent than lack of business. A small bay window projected beside the recessed door. While it was impossible to see inside the gallery proper from the sidewalk, the window bay was given over to a display of small to medium-sized paintings, stacked three layers high. Jemma broke off the trivial conversation she’d been carrying on with Parvaneh and stopped. She stared, half the enchanted dreamer, half the cynical critic.

           Every single one of the pictures was a recognizably “Toronto” scene. Not Canadian. Oil on canvas, watercolour, gouache – all were Toronto. Most were winter scenes, the more to distinguish the notoriously frigid city. Too, there was something about the winter and how it played on the pulses of the citizens. What it was Jemma could not specifically identify, but it was there. There were sections of old-school Victorian shop-tenement fronts, carefully cropped to exclude any chain stores or glass-and-steel condos looming in the background. There were certain famous intersections – Dundas and Spadina, for example, or that spot in front of the haunted old castle-looking building on the U of T campus – with streetcars passing. Without the streetcars, of course, the entire character of the scene would be lost. Usually vintage designs, the streetcars, often ones that were pulled out of service when Jemma was just starting high school…though the presence of modern cars and the still-recognizable arrangements of businesses in the images reminded one they were supposed to represent the unique character of the City as portraits, not as history pieces. None of the paintings, for instance, featured horse-drawn vehicles. It was a past that, to the ahistorical smartphone and Twitter generation, was blurry enough to be beyond critical analysis, yet near enough to somehow identify themselves with.

           “Hey!” Parvaneh tugged the fur-trimmed shoulder of Jemma’s parka. “I thought you were hungry. What’s so interesting?”

            Jemma stepped back and gestured to the window display.

            “Meh, they don’t have much character to them, do they?”

            “I…I think they’re charming scenes. And it’s our life,” Jemma tried to respond to the stinging but all-too-correct dismissal of the works that had so charmed her fifteen seconds earlier.

            “Ehhh, yeah, no, not really. I mean, there’s nothing like the architecture and history in the landscapes you can find here that would match any street corner in London or Tehran.” Both cities’ names were over-pronounced in volume and accent. Parvaneh never bragged about her degree, though it was a Master’s in a subject genuinely intellectually challenging. She did, however, endlessly lament how everything in Toronto was not like its unarguably superior equivalent in London (though her university was in Manchester) and equally not like its indisputably more cultured and exotic equivalent in Iran – even the bad aspects of which were so foreign they were interesting, at least in second-hand story telling.

            “But this is our City. The snow. The streetcars. Don’t you ever find it cool, you know when something that you have special feels for; something that you think is just like some stupid part of your own personal tastes…and, like, suddenly see it in some format you never expected. Like when they make a Hollywood movie out of your favourite TV show when you were a kid, or, like, an oil painting of Mario Kart, or a gourmet restaurant serving mac n’ cheese prepared by Michelin-starred chefs.”

            “I know what you’re talking about, yeah, ‘it’s ironic,’ But…these paintings…I mean, I guess you love ‘The 6ix’ and all, but you could do way better than that. It’s like they were all done by the same artist, although obviously, with the signature n’ things, it’s not. It’s like they are painting for cookie tins.”

            Jemma understood what Parvaneh meant. And she was right. Each of the paintings was of that style, hard to describe but familiar to any critical eye that’s seen it, if, indeed, it would be reckoned a style at all. Jemma had to admit that the paintings were more about their subjects than the art. Irony over inspiration. Jean-Leon Gerome and Edwin Lord Weeks also painted contemporaneous with photography. It was not for the simple purpose of possessing images of India and the Middle East that people bought works by Gerome and Weeks. They could get those easily enough and more economically from the camera – a whole genre of vintage French postcards attest to that. But the soul, vitality, ‘colour’ (in the metaphysical sense) of the Orient; that no mere camera could capture.

            Jemma sighed and the two girls carried on up the street. Their destination’s turquoise-framed door and sign styled like the inlaid walls of a Central Asian mosque were within sight when Jemma felt a hand grab her wrist. A hand larger, rougher and…she struggled against fear to turn her head…much darker than Parvaneh’s….aye, it was purplish black in parts, with dirt or necrosis from drug injections; possibly both. Parvaneh was dumbstruck; she motioned with her cellphone as if to suggest calling the police and held her mouth open as if to say something, but couldn’t figure what to do. Jemma giggled nervously. “I don’t have any spare change,” she tittered, pressing the palm of her free hand over the bulge of her wallet in her coat pocket.

            This hobo – no one would guess him anything but a member of that tribe which is all too numerous in Toronto, what with his long, dishevelled beard and hair, trembling, liquor-rotted frame and greasy, shapeless clothes – did not appear to be interested in ‘change!’ though.

“Get your hands off me!” Jemma managed to cry out.

 The leathery brown claw dropped, but the strange man, somehow still he held her, held her with his glittering eye: “Sorry, lil’ lady…I dunno, I dunno,” he slapped his forehead; “When I see the face, I just know it in my bones, Gawd, I got’s ta’ tell my story. Won’t cha’ hear my story, lil’ lady? There was a ship…”

“I, uh…I’ve got to go to the restaurant there with my friend…uh…I’ll…I’ll mace you!” but, brave words aside, it was as if she could not choose but to hear the ancient and filthy wanderer tell his tale, even as his overproof breath made her choke and wince.  

He rambled and ranted, yet his voice, and more so his glassy, hypnotic eye fixed the two girls in place, struggle as they might to tear away. At first, the tale appeared to be like the typical fantastic ravings of such individuals, replete as it was with mentions of golden apples on golden trees…golden apples for everyone….slithering eels and snakes crawling upon seas of slime and what appeared to be references to dreams that troubled him. It eventually became apparent that there was a coherent story to the greybeard lunatic’s mutterings…a story that, if true, might make an episode of the Fifth Estate. Something about a ship, a storm….there was mention, probably another fantastic element, of a “great gull” whose eyes could see the sins of a man’s soul, and whose piercing cry denounced the sinner to God and man (he stopped up his ears when he spoke these lines). Something about waves roaring with the voice of hell; about a beach; a hot summer night; lost souls dancing in the moonlight…

When he quivered out “The body and I pulled at the same rope…but she said nuttin’ ta’ me,” the two girls’ will and fear overpowered the spell and they sprinted into the restaurant.

The restaurant was one which Jemma loved to eat at whether in the harsh cold of winter or on sweltering summer nights, for the food and décor were equally suited to both. Mind you, just as she never went into certain Chinatown shops without Eunice (even where she did not anticipate any conversation with the staff), she would not eat here without Parvaneh as escort. She would not be looked askance at by the owners, who, for that matter, had netted much of their early clientele from among local professionals and academics who had done the ‘Hippie Trail” in their younger days – before the Revolution in 1979 that both put an end to that party and sent the restaurant’s owners and their beloved Monarch into exile (a portrait of the Shah and Shahbanu hung in a discrete but respectful location from the date of opening). Too, those well-paid baby boomers were willing to pay good coin to savour a slice of their youths, which required the owners to set the place up properly, almost opulent – like something out of a 1970s National Geographic. This suited the owners as much as their customers, for Mr. and Mrs. Ispahani, too, liked to be able to imagine themselves in a piece of pre-Revolution Iran, cryogenically preserved and transplanted. It was a sanctuary as much as a business.

As it was a weekday afternoon, Parvaneh was able to secure one of the coveted dining booths that were one of the restaurant’s main draws, now that plenty of other establishments in the area offered similar food. These were raised platforms towards the interior of the dining area, situated somewhat above the level of the regular tables and cordoned off by wooden railings and partition screens. Inside, one got to dine in an atmosphere right out of….well, a 1970s National Geographic… “The High Road through Central Asia” or some such. Patrons sat on cushions and rugs, lavish things hand woven by the most talented traditional labour (surely either blind old women or illiterate children), in rich maroons, blacks and creamy whites, with detailing in yellow and forest green. On the walls were calligraphy scrolls and framed reproductions of Qajar-era paintings of hunting and palace scenes.

Somehow, this time, the cosy and exotic atmosphere did not succeed in transporting Jemma’s mind to the freer, more interesting haunts of daydreams, however. While Parvaneh ravenously attacked her morasa polo, Jemma dug her spoon listlessly at her kashk-e bademjaan. Parvaneh may have been rich as well as pretty, but that did not prevent her from being sensitive to the moods of her friends who were less fortunate in both departments. “Hey, darling! Don’t play the mysterious artist with me! Something’s bothering you. Is it your roommates? A guy? Tell me and I will teach him to behave himself with you!” She gripped her knife in mock menace.

For a minute or so Jemma was silent. Eventually Parvaneh gave up and returned to the task of eating. Then Jemma suddenly leaned in to her, wide-eyed, “It’s my art…”

“Oh?  You got bad marks on your exams or something? Worried about that…thesis?”

“What? No. Not worried. I mean, I was but…it’s like I was given an epiphany today.”

“Today? When?”

“The wise man who shared his story with us before we…”

“What the…you mean the crazy homeless guy talking about…I dunno what…somebody he murdered out on a boat or something.”

“Buried in the shore, I think….but you get it was moving, right? Like, remember what I was saying about an oil painting of Mario Kart or something?”

“Yeah….but I don’t see….”

“Think about it. Ok, I know you like my art. But, be honest. It’s all so formulaic. Like everyone else who puts on a lumberjack shirt and skinny jeans and a toque and is like, ‘Oh-em-gee, I’m such an artist!’”

“Yeah but you’re more talented than your classmates. You’d think the first time some of them held a paintbrush was in the first semester of undergrad. That’s why they all go in for photography…as if it was difficult to take yet another pic of the CN Tower looking all spirey and tall, or of red streetcars in the white snow and the crowds huddling up in the cold at Yonge and Dundas under the bright lights…Oooh, the contrast!”

“I know, but it’s the same thing. I mean, in spirit, what’s different with me? I paint what the professor tells me. I take photographs everyone else takes. I’ve done art of the City. But what have I done for the art of the City? Do you get me?”

“No…” Parvaneh’s good will ran into a wall of perplexity. “I’m afraid I don’t, actually. You mean like volunteering at the AGO or something? You wanna do some artistic job outside class? Sure, why not…”

“No! Nnngggh!” Jemma clenched her hands. “That’s not what I mean! Like, ok, you know why people like us, progressive young people, now, in 2016, are moved by the poems that William Blake wrote back in the 1700s, or Wordsworth, and how people still read Dickens’ novels, but nobody gives a crap about Coleridge, or Bouguereau, and honestly the Brontes are more popular than Trollope or Wilkie Collins now? Right?”

“Umm I see what you mean but, uhh, my dad has a print of a Bouguereau up in his study. And, oh my God, what are you talking about…’as if some vast Tropic Tree, itself a wood;’ that one doesn’t make your spine tingle? There’s a reason I didn’t take Eng-lit.”

“Hear me out. There’s a reason people love the Impressionists and not Bouguereau; Dickens, not Wilkie Collins; Blake not Coleridge.”

“Depends on your people, but ok.”

“The Impressionists painted raw, authentic Life. Bars with tired, sultry-eyed ladies of the night drinking absinthe. Polynesian women, their innocent freedom unspoiled by civilization and patriarchy. Crowded, urban streetscapes on rainy evenings. Bouguereau painted, what? Exotified, Otherised Arab girls with thick eyebrows and devilish glances? Umm, the objectifying male gaze anyone? Dickens and Blake wrote about chimney sweeps; about mill workers; about the marginalized of early capitalist society. Collins wrote about ‘good ol’ boy’ white Anglo-Saxon heirs solving poor girls’ problems with their stuffy honest-to-a-fault chivalry and inherited fortunes. And stereotyping Indian and Caribbean religious practices for poetry…there’s a reason that shit just doesn’t reach educated people today.”

“Suit yourself. I’d like if my man was honest and respectable and bought a yacht and a big country mansion for me…and hired Bouguereau to paint my portrait…in oil! Take that, our high school art teacher!”

“Please tell me you see what I’m getting at. All of the contrasting artists I mentioned. They all, you can’t argue, reached the highest level of skill and technique in their respective mediums, yes? The difference was in their spirit; their choice of committing in faith and self-identification with…with who and what? With rich country squires and damsels with dulcimers? With emotionally dependant princess who die of sadness? With dying generals; soldiers in khaki lusting with yellow fever after colonized maidens with whom they have relationships with unhealthy power dynamics, because they can’t stand the strong, independent women back home?”

“Unladylike is more like it. But go on…”

“Identification plus inspiration. Plus talent, of course. And sheer determined energy. We respect Blake, Dickens, the Impressionists in ways we don’t respect the others because they chose to take all their skill and social status, and throw in their lot…live with, identify with, express the soul of the mill towns, the slums, the South Sea islands, the seedy cabarets. They volunteered themselves to serve as the conduit of the soul of their eras, places…”

“If I follow, you propose…to be to The 6ix, in the 2010s, what Constable was for the English countryside in the 18th century? Wow, ambitious. I mean, I’m not saying you can’t do it but…how? What will you paint?”

“How? Classical oil painting. The most exacting, the most prestigious style. No acrylic cookie tin images. No abstract or surrealist easy excuses. No editing photos in with an App to look like paintings. As for what I will paint…”

“The CN Tower? The streetcars? The pretty signs and fruit stalls in Chinatown? The condo towers glittering at night?”

Jemma pondered. “Hmm, no. No…That’s…that’s its expression; the soul of the City’s expression in terms of higher level stuff, more superficial stuff, yes. I want the soul itself. To depict that; to speak that in paint. Not the Constable of The 6ix…the Caspar David Friedrich.”

Parvaneh had only the faintest idea of what her friend was saying, so let the matter lie. Eunice, too, forgot her girlfriend’s worried face and gloomy thoughts, blending them in her memory with the countless other vicissitudes of the hyper-emotional lives of perpetually up-and-coming university artists, struggling to find their individuality as they savagely beat themselves into narrow subcultural moulds.

It was several weeks, in fact, that neither of them had seen Jemma, though they never troubled themselves about it, nor thought it unusual. Late in semester, as exams are coming up, some students prefer to study on campus…perhaps for socialization, perhaps so they can be seen to be studying, or maybe their residence situation makes it necessary. Others instead cloister themselves in their apartments, compelling concentration with solitude. Jemma had been putting up regular Instagram posts. Never of social situations, though; always natural scenes, or pictures of old architecture in the still-lowrise-dominated parts of Toronto which can still properly be said to have something of an ‘urban forest.’ Cherry Beach was the most recently dated one, as Parvaneh checked her social media again after the gauntlet of exams and final papers had been run, though that was dated Friday. Now it was Monday. It was an unseasonably warm early December. Still cold in a general sense, of course – everyone in coats at least, though not necessarily full parkas, toques and boots yet. There was no snow on the ground though. Just decaying grass, flattened like gelled-down hair and faded to a sickly pale olive-yellow.

Cherry Beach. Parvaneh remembered, that was the ring tone on Jemma’s phone. Cherry Beach  Express. Something told her she should waste no time in hurrying down there. Hurrying was possible for her at least, as she didn’t have to rely on the riding ‘the rocket.’ She raced her mom’s Rav4 south through the downtown core, down to the beaches. Luckily, it was early in the afternoon, before the rush. She parked on a side street and trotted down the boardwalk, across the stiff hummocks of grass-knotted wet pink sand. She looked around. Not a soul in sight, besides a soccor mom running with her golden retriever two hundred yards or so down the shoreline. And the seagulls circling overhead – if those had souls. She instinctively walked over to a spindly but venerable white ash that she, Jemma and Eunice had often picnicked and sketched under. She remembered that the last time they had done that, on the Labour Day weekend, Jemma had remarked on how all the ash trees in the city would soon be gone; victimized by the emerald ash borer beetle, or cut down by the municipal authorities desirous of saving time. Probably to be replaced with Norway maples or oleasters, Jemma had lamented. Parvaneh remembered this, though she didn’t understand what it meant.

Then, half buried in a tuft of grass at the ash tree’s roots, she saw Jemma’s cell phone. There was no mistaking it. Jemma had made a point about bucking the trend towards ever-more-complicated and capable smartphones by acquiring an old mid-2000s flip phone from an indie trading site online. She used her own, much more effective device to call Eunice. “Hey, Eunice.”

“Sup, girl?”

“I need you to go to Jemma’s place. Need. Break down the door if you have to.”

“Haha, don’t worry, I know how to pick a lock. But…why exactly?”

“I can’t explain right now. I am not sure actually…just…just go. You’re like five minutes away.”

“Ok, sure thing, but you gotta explain if it’s some CIA shit your trying to get me involved in!”

It was an agonizing several minutes of waiting. Parvanah gazed out at the lake. The overcast winter weather meant that the New York side was not visible. It was as if the edge of the sand represented the end of her world. It was a windy day; the waves were enormous. The slimy green water, flecked with indecipherable objects, roared at the land and its inhabitants. It was opaque, as if the clear greenish pigment had been blended with a chalky white. She almost felt tempted to try dare the waves as they climbed up the shore with her foot, as she did on vacation in the Caribbean, laughing hysterically when the sea caught her bare ankles. She fought the temptation; it scared her.

Her phone rang. “Yeh, hi, Eunice again. Listen, her roommates know me and they didn’t mind to let me in. Her door wasn’t locked actually. But…I dunno how to explain this.”

“Just…ugh, tell me. Did you talk to her?”

“She’s…she’s not there. The girls here say she left out Saturday morning for a walk. Man, though…her housekeeping standards have really been slipping. You can hardly walk with all the Mr. Noodles cups and cooler bottles on the floor. Eww…I just saw a roach…”

“Is there…” Parvaneh didn’t want to admit to herself what she was asking. “Is there a note?”

“No but….there’s a painting. Huge. Like wide as the bed. Really amazing, too. Sublime. Like, a Gothic Romanticist sort of sublime. A landscape.”

“Just send me a pic!” Parvaneh yelled, losing herself for a moment.

Eunice duly did as requested. Parvaneh held up her phone in the shadow of the ash tree, so as to see the screen more clearly. She held it straight in front of her and stared. It was as though she were looking through her camera App. Above, a seagull shrieked. She cast the old flip phone in her other hand as far as she could fling it and ran, stumbling, across the hummocks and board steps up towards her car.

The Alexandrine Hoard

by M.G. Warenycia

            I had finished a late day of lectures for a pair of summer courses I was teaching—this would have been the summer of 2004. I had skipped lunch. Something in the combination of the sweltering July evening and the residues left by the daily news directed that hunger towards the cuisine of climates that the weather, the languidly streaming crowds of pedestrians, and the slow-descending crimson sun suggested. A colleague of mine, Professor Weisbrot, had been singing the praises of a Persian restaurant on College Street west of Spadina Circle that had opened a couple years earlier but was only then becoming popular. Professor Weisbrot – Helen – is something of a ‘foodie’ and had dragged two thirds of the department to this joint over the course of a semester. A busy schedule and a plethora of habitual dining spots help me from joining in the foodie team’s adventures, but now I found myself on College west of Spadina, so, hey, why not?

            It was easy enough to find ‘Bademjan’; the sign with swooping gilded script on a background of purple and blue mosaic tiles would have given it away even if the sign had no English on it. Customers were few on a Thursday afternoon and the staff moved at a glacial pace. I was left with a pot of tea to await my meal and with no smartphones back in those days, I contemplated my surroundings. I wondered if the knowledge that people will spend most of their time looking at their phones is partly behind the identically bleak, dental-surgery décor that practically every restaurant that’s opened since 2008 is afflicted with. In contrast, the Bademjan was a veritable Where’s Waldo feast for the eyes. The walls were trimmed with carved wood panelling and festooned with a cornucopia of photographs, tapestries, paintings and souvenirs. More impressive still, a section of the dining area was built into a raised platform where guests could sit on hand-woven carpets (I can tell) at a low table in the traditional fashion.

            Unfortunately, the carpet table was only for parties of four or more, but I already loved the place nonetheless. I was one of the many thousands of Westerners who travelled along the so-called Hippie Trail, back when it was safe to do so. Before the fun came to an end with astonishing abruptness in 1979, you could travel, as a university-educated Western tourist, all the way from Istanbul to Kathmandu. Some went seeking enlightenment at the feet of shaggy gurus, some to smuggle drugs (eh, the stuff you could get through an airport back then!), most to take them, and some for sheer adventure. In my case, it was assignments for the U of T or National Geographic. Either way, the experience left a deep imprint on those who grew up in white-bread suburbs of the modern industrial West—remember, we didn’t have the internet back then, or so many TV stations—suddenly finding themselves in a world where there might be no electricity, no  television, no telephone to call home, no 911 if you ran into an emergency, no supermarkets; where people still lived according to the soil and water and immemorial traditions…things that were no more than academic concepts to us adventurers. I say adventurers, but you were in a hell of a lot less danger lodging with Pathan tribesmen than you were, in that era, hitchhiking through our own Pacific Northwest—all the serial killers they had back then, yeesh!

            After nearly half an hour, the ash e doogh and albalu polow made their appearance, brought to my table not by the waiter but by a plump, middle-aged man with a walrus moustache whom I knew from Helen’s descriptions and the Toronto Life Restaurant of the Month article framed beside the table was Rostum Esfandiari, the owner.  I gave him perfunctory congratulations, “my friends love eating here” and so on. He smiled sleepily, stopping on his way back to the kitchen to twist and angle his head, staring at something—probably at me, from how he scurried away when I returned his gaze.

            The meal was decent, sure enough, but the décor overpowered the experience of the food. It’s not that Mr. Esfandiari had too many rugs. I thanked God at least one restaurateur hadn’t gone the IKEA route. No; it was one particular item among the whole garish ensemble that caught my eye and wouldn’t let it go. It was a coin, set on green velvet in a glass case. There were many artefacts from what Rostum and his ilk universally regarded as the ‘good old days,’ when the benevolent monarch whose visage watched, stern-eyed, over Bademjan’s diners yet looked down upon their homeland, ruling with wisdom, tolerance and peerless aesthetic sense. The coin was much, much older than the Shah of Shahs…or at least appeared to be. Shifting my chair to get closer, I studied it with —not to boast—the full battery of knowledge accumulated from perusing countless museum collections and personally participating in as many excavations. Contrary to the common-sense assumption, the more scrutiny I gave it, the more faith its appearance inspired. I had half a mind to casually make an offer in my capacity as an expert in such subjects, trying as much as possible not to let on that there was anything strange in a stranger offering to buy a random bit of somebody’s restaurant’s decoration. There was nothing strange or irrational in my excitement—not to anyone who could recognize a tetradrachma of the time of Alexander the Great. Rudely stamped into an irregular blob of silver (I was sure it was real silver) was the image of Herakles, a.k.a. Hercules, right profile, with a beak-like nose and a lion’s pelt over this shoulders. No date was indicated—there should be no date on an authentic drachma of the period. There were a couple nicks and tiny gouges, especially on the circular ridge where the edge of the stamping die would have struck and on the largest areas of plain surface. Yes, a forger can replicate wear marks like that, and, if he’s faking such an old coin and he has half a brain, he will. These marks,, though, were grimed with tarnish at the same rate as the rest of the coin, and the slight softening of some of the more prominent details of the portrait argued for natural processes of erosion. Then again, it could have been struck from poorly engraved dies and, anyhow, it wasn’t like interest in Alexander sprung up yesterday. Two hundred years ago, when Neo-Classicism was the rage, some enterprising innkeeper might have recognized that there was profit to be made in having dug up a few coins or other knickknacks connected with the Macedonian general and hawking them to European dandies taking a side trip along the Grand Tour. It was possible, but, who knows? I quickly discarded the thought of trying to bargain with the coin’s owner. He seemed like such a gentle, genial guy, it would have been wrong to take advantage of his ignorance like that. Besides, he was a friend of a friend. Still, if I left without getting a definitive answer…

            “You are enjoying your meal?”

            “Huh?” I turned my head (which was almost pressed against the wall) and saw Esfandiari right there, his dozy eyes managing to lift a brow in surprise. I had to mention it now…

            “You are a professor, at the University?”

            “Oh, uh, yes, I am. How did you…?”

            “I remember your picture, maybe from television, maybe your friend who likes to eat here showed me.”

            We slid into a long conversation. It turned out that Mr. Esfandiari, although he’d studied some kind of engineering, was well-versed in some of my own subjects and took a particularly passionate interest in history, especially anything that helped fuel his innocently zealous patriotism. It was a good seven or eight minutes before I thought to bring the discussion back to the coin. “This coin here, it’s not real, is it? I mean, I’d feel uneasy having something like that just hanging on my wall, where anybody could come along and, well, go figure.”

            Esfandiari shrugged. “Some of them were. This one? Hard to say.”

            “Some of them?” Was he implying that some Alexander the Great tetradrachmas are real, while others are facsimiles sold as souvenirs to tourists? That would make sense. Like bronze Buddhas you buy in Chinatown; might be Qing Dynasty, might be cheap factory. Then again, as is sadly often the case, there are plenty of locals who would trade their patrimony for a little foreign currency, whether on the banks of the Amazon or in a Cairo marketplace. The authorities mostly do their best, but, in a place wracked by revolutionary upheavals or corruption, the law’s dragnet is full of holes.

            “Have a look, if you want. Perhaps you can tell me.” He removed the coin from its case and placed it on the tablecloth in front of me.

            No matter how many times you have done it, there is always a thrill in coming face to face with an object of great antiquity. It’s hard to describe: a bit of awe, a mildly giddy pride in holding something rare and mysterious and immensely valuable; a sense of connection with those who have lived before any of today’s states (in their present form, anyway), before any of the cities of this young continent’s foundations were laid. Somebody more superstitious might attribute it to spiritual energies transmitted from the person who made or originally used the object. It’s hard to discount them when (if) you ever feel it for yourself. The verse of the coin was the correct image of Zeus, seated on a throne, with the words “ALEXANDROU BASILIKON” embossed. Nothing in the wear pattern or weight of it supported any conclusion other than that it was a genuine piece from 320 or so B.C., worth, depending on various factors, somewhere between $2,000 and $4000 US. “I can’t believe you have it just hanging there on the wall.” I laughed weakly, incredulous.

            “If you cannot believe it, then that may be why no one has stolen it yet—not that my customers are the people to steal, or else I should have no rugs, no paintings, or anything else nice put up here.”

            The idea that we might stumble by sheer dumb luck upon a valuable chunk of history is a daydream that’s simultaneously exciting and anxiety-provoking. If there’s ‘buried treasure’ out there, we might want to kick ourselves for not being vigilant and missing an opportunity for instant fortune and fame. We also feel tempted to rush out to every curio shop, abandoned farmhouse and estate auction just to be sure we don’t miss out on something that our special knowledge will allow us to recognize in what is a heap of junk in the eyes of the Philistines. And it is worth it, too, or at least that’s the thought that itches at our conscience. A comparatively small investment of time and effort and, voila, fabulous riches await. Better not to think about it. But, when it’s right there in front of you, what are you supposed to do? “You never checked if it was authentic? Do you mind my asking what you paid for it?”

            “Nothing,” was the answer. His expression showed it was a source of puzzlement for him, too. “A gentleman I know wanted to get rid of it, and I thought it would go well with the design theme.”

            “Sure, but this is the sort of thing you’d expect to see at an exhibit in the R.O.M. I think they did one on Alexander, to tie in with the movie, two or three years back or something. The person who gave it to you told you it was a fake?”

            Esfandiari rotated his head like an inquisitive owl, pondering the wad of tarnished silver, all the while keeping his hands at his side, as if to avoid any impulse to touch it. “To tell you the truth, I often wondered myself. I would always say, ‘but Rostim, would he have given you a real one?’” His chest heaved and his forehead wrinkled. “But, he was not in a healthy mind when he gave it to me, so he might not have known himself.”

            “Ehhh, you wouldn’t mind telling me the story, would you? Sounds like a pretty good yarn.” If it was believable, maybe he would take a cheque…

            “It came from Fars Province,” he began. “A very ancient land; it is from there that we have the name for the language, Farsi, and, via the Greeks who took a province for the whole country, we have Persia and Persian. Ancient, indeed!”

            “This came out of Persepolis, then?” I anticipated him. Visions flashed in my mind of the colossal ruins of the Sassanid capital conquered by the Macedonian warrior-king, where, roughly twenty-three hundred years later, another Emperor held the greatest party humanity has ever known, assuring his predecessor (mistakenly, sadly) that he might rest in peace, for a bright future awaited their land.

            “Not exactly. Ah, I should say, I have a friend—his name is not important. He is ruined now, but he had a business in Dubai. Something to do with cargo ships. Started maybe 1980, ’81. He left after the Revolution, like me, only he was able to bring out more money with him. It was still expensive back then, but it wasn’t the futuristic city of skyscrapers and man-made islands that you see on television today, not until a few years ago. My friend, he had a son, maybe twenty-three, twenty-four at the time. This was 1990-something, maybe ’97, ’98. Before 9/11, for sure. His name, the son’s, was Farhad. He had been educated at the University of Toronto, which is supposed to be the best, because his father did not have to worry about pennies and nickels as does a humble restaurant owner. Of course, he would do a Masters, PhD when the time came, but he wished to take a Gap Year, as they call it, to rest form his studies.

            My friend wanted him to learn the family business because it was tradition. That is how things are done. Hence, Farhad found himself in Dubai, learning the ropes. This was the summer, in the month of July, in fact, like now. Very hot, very boring. You can imagine, a young man, like that. Really, he had grown up here, in the City, in the West. He liked clubbing, the discotheques, chasing the ladies. Now he was stuck in a place that was very religious, especially back then. United Arab Emirates: those people, they don’t play around. No alcohol, the women all covered up! You didn’t have that in Iran, not in my day. Who says the world is always in progress? Agh! Naturally, he had hobbies. Cars, art, collecting antiques, carpets and exotic crafts to bring back to Canada. He was an artist himself; he did painting, sculptures. Therefore, he enjoyed surrounding himself with objects of beauty and he also made a fair pile of cash on the side selling parts of his fluctuating collection here and in Europe.

            ‘The bazaars there, they are really something. Maybe if you stuffed Kensington market inside a mall—a dozen, a hundred Kensington Markets—you would get something like them. Yes, they are the original shopping mall, which we invented. You can find everything, including things you did not know existed. Here, there is metalwork; craftsmen hammering brass plates. You can buy swords and daggers that a blacksmith made centuries ago, or last week. Rugs, obviously, and food. Ahhh, the food! And everything is done to be beautiful, a treat for the senses even if you never take a bite. The pyramids of fruit, the rainbow of spices heaped into colourful cones, the silver and gilt trays of pastries—I am getting fat reminiscing! Modern goods, too: electronics, video tapes, anything you want or could want. Everything is crowded and cluttered together, but that is part of the attraction. The parts merge into a whole, like the dots in an Impressionist painting. Now, because of the different laws and the way business is conducted, you will find things that would never be sold in the Eaton’s or the dollar store, and the prices are what you can negotiate. Maybe you lose, maybe you are tricked—there are many promises but no warranties. But, maybe, if you are clever and sly and have the sixth sense for the bargain, you will score a real treasure. This Farhad was a clever young man and there was not the surplus of foreign tourists and expats in those days, so many was the occasion when Farhad discerned the wealth hidden to the Arab merchants; disguised wealth which he alone knew that he could realize if and when he could get it out of the country.”

            “The government—of Iran, I mean—they mustn’t be too happy, what with their national heritage being shipped out and sold to people living in the Great Satan or its lackeys,” I remarked.

            “Of course they are unhappy. The Islamic Revolution does not like such things and they are not shy like the courts here about imposing harsh sentences for violators. And, oh, I do not mean only jail sentences…although, an Iranian jail, my, my…what you have here, it is not jail; it is a joke! However, the UAE is not Iran, and, after eight years of war with Iraq, the mullahs could shake their fists but they were tired and broke. What could they do? Most everything Farhad bought and sent home was from Iran. There are rich folks in North York who will pay you enormous sums for a sentimental trinket; for a fragment of their country, when it was great.

            A friend, a young lady who he knew from university back in Toronto, she had hunted that she wanted a Persian tea set. The pot, like a samovar, with the glasses in metal holders. She must have been pretty, because he could have bought her something in any strip mall that caters to the community, but instead he went to the bazaar thousands of miles away, to get her one that was more authentic. Not more authentic, I suppose, but certainly much fancier. There was a dealer in silverwork, an émigré, like us, whom he knew and trusted to always provide top quality goods.

            He goes to this dealer, “What have you got for me today? I’m searching for a tea set, for a young lady. It must be graceful, elegant, and, above all, it must be something she could not find in a store.”

            “I have just the thing,” the dealer says, and he shows Farhad a very fancy one, Qajar Dynasty, he says, finely chased, or, here is one in the style popular with the desert nomads…While the shopkeeper is explaining, Farhad sees something that makes him forget the tea set, forget the girl. Or maybe he was thinking of a different gift for her, even more lavish: three coins, also silver, and not any ordinary coins.

            “Are those real,” Farhad asks.

            “Of course!” replied the dealer. “All of my wares are the truest and most genuine articles of their kind.” As if to say how the devil he could ask such a question. There are many stories that are too good to be true, and a coin from the days of Alexander the Great which is not in a museum but is readily available for you to hold in your hand and purchase if you see wish…you could be forgiven for thinking it among them. The prices, too, were low—not low enough to prove they were counterfeit, but lower than an honest businessman would expect to pay. On the other hand, Farhad told himself as he fought to suppress his excited breath, the dealer, he knew, had tried and failed to obtain an immigrant visa, and he had no family abroad, so he could not himself assess what would be the price in a more lucrative market. Farhad employed his eyes, his fingers and the jeweller’s loupe which he kept in his pocket; he smelt it; put his lips to it and weighed it against other objects which he could be sure were pure silver upon the dealer’s scales. No matter how hard he tried to prove to himself that the coins were fakes, each test only reinforced their authenticity. He bought all three at once, jealous that some other shopper should possess his insights and snatch a share of the windfall. The dealer smiled, remembering that he had sold to two other customers, and Farhad, who had bought three coins at once, was the first who purchased without haggling. “Your father and my father are friends,” the dealer offered, feeling guilty for his customer’s naiveté. “Take your pick of the tea sets; a bonus gift, no charge.”

            Farhad, however, had long since forgotten the tea set. He did not want to let on what a gold mine he thought he had happened across, but there was no way around it. He had to ask the dealer where he sourced the coins from. Whatever the source was, it must have been cheap, for the dealer to turn a profit reselling them at such a fraction of their international price.

            “I do not mind telling you,” said the dealer. “Since coins are not my stock in trade, nor, with the political situation how it is, do I think I will be returning anytime soon. I did not find them myself. They were brought to me when I was helping out at my cousin’s stall in the Vakil Bazaar, which is the great market in Shiraz. This man came by who had a few things to sell. I bought. I have no idea where he got them, though.”

            Farhad was a more intrepid soul than the fretful old silver dealer. He immediately formed a plan to travel to Shiraz himself. Had he known there were such bargains to be had, he might have gone sooner, angry mullahs and Revolutionary Guards notwithstanding. What was the name of this Shirazi silver merchant who wanders about selling millennia-old artefacts and how would he get in touch with him?

            At this, the dealer became reticent. To tell the whole truth, he was not a merchant; in fact, he was a peasant, and a shabby, rough-cut one to boot. A Lur, based on his accent and physiognomy, though he was dressed as any labourer of the slightly more prosperous sort that you see in Iranian cities. Maybe he was a trucker. A lot of those hill tribesmen become long-distance truck or bus drivers, which would make sense for him to bring in items picked up on his travels. The rustic was not a sharp bargainer. The dealer nearly felt a pang of guilt (he liked to remind Farhad how guilty he felt) over the smallness of the sum he paid to the man who, quite possibly, could not read ordinary Farsi any better than he could Bronze Age Greek, but he washed this feeling away by reminding himself how sums that seemed modest for such rare objets d’art  would nevertheless be a boon to the Lur’s no doubt numerous and hungry family, who would never know the true value of a tetradrachma but would thoroughly appreciate a couple extra loaves added to their daily bread.

            Farhad asked what other marvels this mysterious Lur had on offer which the dealer failed to snap up, but, no, the coins, all of the same type, were all that the man had to trade. As far as the dealer could figure it, the man came to the Vakil Bazaar solely to exchange the coins, of which he never brought more than one or two on any one occasion. He had bought five of them off him by this point. “They are very poor people, those Lurs,” the dealer speculated. “On top of which they live frugally. Bringing the coins in one or two every few months ensures that he gets the best possible price for his finite property, compare to if he were to sell them off in large batches.”

            The green monster was alive in Farhad’s heart. He knew what he had to do. He packed a suitcase, hiding in its lining and on his person all the US dollars he could carry, including many thousands borrowed from a friend in Canada, taking a passage on the next seaworthy ship that was sailing to Bandar Bushehr. This young man, who knew what it was like to travel aboard luxury yachts, riding in a rotting diesel-belching cargo ship full of machinery parts…but, when one has a goal in mind…From Bandar Bushehr, he went by road to Shiraz, which is up the highway inland. It is a bit city, Shiraz, the second city of Iran. Although he did not know anyone there, he could be assured of a hotel room with a clean bed and decent security. The conditions were not nearly as bad as he imagined from hearing his parents’ stories and watching the news. Shiraz had not suffered so badly as the western provinces from the bombing and missile attacks in the war with Iraq and it was far from the borders and the hotbed of unrest and espionage in Tehran, which is perhaps why the customs and policing seemed lax, or perhaps he had simply come with too many misunderstandings.

           This is not to say he was perfectly at ease. No matter his name or that he could speak the language, growing up in Toronto versus growing up in Iran, especially after the Revolution, it is two different worlds. There was no chance of anyone mistaking him for a local, whether in his clothes or how he carried himself, there was not hiding it and it put him on edge, especially with the stories of the government using hostages as bargaining chips against international sanctions. He calmed his worries by spending most of each day at the Vakil Bazaar, which did not disappoint: a fabulous place, truly, like a painting of…who was that famous Orientalist…Jean Leon Gerome. There, in a familiar environment, he felt more safe, and the pickings were much richer than what he was used to getting in Dubai, which were all through middlemen twice and thrice over. In particular, the ivories and gems on which national customs often put restrictions impressed him, and he was sorry he had not brought more cash. Too bad, there is a limit how many US dollars one man can smuggle with only his suit and suitcase. He had succeeded in bringing thousands for the serious business. The inevitable bribes to police and petty officials he would pay with rials, more of which could be wired to him by his friends if required. For three days, he would leave his hotel, eat breakfast in a café, then spend all day at the bazaar. He wondered if the trip had been a waste, but he was too afraid to ask more than the vaguest, more innocuous questions of the bazaaris. The grapevine, how quickly it turns into a snake!

            On the fourth day, as he was about to leave to het lunch, he caught sight of someone who he was completely convinced must be the man the silver dealer in Dubai had spoken about. Sixth sense, perhaps. But he did know, because it was the man. This fellow was tall, strong, like most Lurs; a thick moustache, wearing a sweater and leather jacket: very much how you would expect a long distance trucker, the kind who drives between Tehran and the provinces, to look. This man, however, he went straight for the section of the market where they trade in metal jewellery and handicrafts. He did not move with haughty swagger, in the manner of an experienced merchant. He looked fully like a coarse peasant, the patriarch in his home who is suddenly out of his depth amid the colours and lights of the big city which makes his heart shrink and his step clumsy. Farhad watched from a hidden spot in the crowd. The fellow greeted some of the bazaaris, but he did not seem to bargain with any of them at first, preferring to approach other market-goers, who were caught off-guard by his entreaties. It was not till fifteen minutes had passed that he shuffled up to one of the bazaari’s tables and emptied something out of a tiny drawstring bag onto the counter, shielding it with his hands and body. The merchant, doing Farhad no favours, hunched down to peer at whatever it was and, with almost no discussion, pulled a wad of bills out of his coat pocket and pressed the lot into the Lur’s palm. Alas, the merchant grabbed up the object just sold and jammed it inside his coat. Farhad hurried to the stall from which the Lur had departed. He asked the merchant who the man was.

            A mistake. “I don’t know him. There are thousands of people who come here to buy and sell. How can I know all of them?”

            “But you…you dealt with him, thirty seconds ago.” Farhad did not want to admit to having observed the whole process and how it implied that the merchant had an intimate bond of trust with the stranger.

            “I deal with many people, or else I should be poor. Do I look like a policeman?” the merchant added special menace into the last word, as if he expected it to put Farhad into fear that he might bring the police into the matter.

            “Sorry, no, no, of course not. But at least, if you can tell me what he sold you? Can I see it?”

            “Sold me what?” the merchant’s eyes flamed. “I bought nothing from him. Only a customer who looked and did not find what he sought.”

            “But I s—“ Farhad’s heart was pounding like a jackhammer now; the non-answer of the merchant made him all the more desperate to speak to this mysterious peasant. He saw the shine of a leather-clad shoulder at the mouth of a passage and forced his way through the crowd, seizing hold of the man’s jacket and calling breathlessly for him to please halt. The man spun round and with a lightning motion seized Farhad’s wrist. His hand was big and calloused, the pinkie like your or my thumb. The strange man’s expression, with only slightly less swiftness, broke into the warmest and heartiest of smiles as he realized that he who had tugged his sleeve was no foolhardy robber, merely an eager businessman of some kind. With the gentleness of a strong man towards one who is too weakly to be a plausible opponent, the Lur shepherded Farhad to as secluded a spot as could be found in the great bazaar. Farhad was too overwhelmed by adrenaline to beat around the bush, and so he made his purpose known, saying that he had heard of from a friend in Dubai, who had bought coins from him, that the Lur was a supplier of ancient artefacts, the one to seek out if one was ever in Shiraz.

            The Lur, who introduced himself as Haidar Khan, blushed beneath his windburnt skin, explaining that, as Farhad could surely tell having now seen him, he could not be called a trader by any stretch of the term; he did not even have a stall in the bazaar. He was from a village in Kunderuz County, several hours’ journey to the northwest. Normally, he worked the fields in the village, driving a truck in the winter, although, whereas formerly his family had two vehicles, now there was only a van, which was mostly in the hands of his brother. Work was neither so plentiful nor so well-paid as in his father’s time. He freely admitted to selling old coins when money was short or when there was a wedding or funeral, or someone had fallen ill, but never more than two or three at once and usually only one. If life in the village had an advantage besides freedom, it was that nothing one did or ate cost much. In fact, he had sold one of the two coins he had brought with him that day.

            This Haidar Khan was self-effacing and denied all pretensions to special knowledge in his side occupation. All he had, he said, was a great amount of luck, for if the merchants had not told him so, there was no way he would have known that the coins his father left him were of any more value than others of their size, hue and weight. Farhad did not mention that the coins sold for substantially more outside the country.

            “Your father left them to you, eh?” Farhad picked up on the slip. That considerably narrowed the possibilities for their source and the quantity that would likely be available. “Your father had a bunch of thousands-of-year-old silver coins, and he worked as an itinerate labourer? I guess he quit when he found them. Was he one of the men brought in to work on fixing up Persepolis, and did he take the coins from there?” The ruins of Persepolis were located only forty-three minutes’ drive away—even less, following the aggressive local driving habits. It would not have been surprising if a poor labourer, happening upon a stash of old coins or precious stones, or anything small and valuable, decided to pocket it when the foreman wasn’t paying attention. Farhad knew people in the construction and renovation business and heard anecdotes like that all the time. The assumption he expected Haidar Khan to share was that the authorities would consider anything dug out of Persepolis to be national treasure and therefore subject to confiscation. Farhad would play wise, but it was well that the thought was planted in Haidar Khan’s mind. “However many you’ve got, I will buy them all. Cash. US dollars.”

            Actually, Haidar Khan told him, somewhat nervous but not angry or afraid, that was precisely the story he told most potential buyers, something about Persepolis in the 70s, because they would more easily believe his goods were authentic and be less apt to raise a fuss, since they also did not wish to risk trouble for trafficking in antiquities. In reality, the coins came to him indirectly, through his grandfather, but by so unusual a route that nobody would believe him unless they saw the relevant site for themselves. If someone should be persuaded thus, then they might rob his family (he feared only the state on this point, as the villagers were all armed enough to slaughter mere burglars). It would also lead to the inevitable nonstop barrage of requests for money from relatives near, distant and false, as well as the revival of every decades-old village feud over a stray sheep or an incorrect field boundary. It was better to live as a poor man, content in the knowledge that one has riches for an emergency, than to live as a rich man, with the knowledge that one is soon to become poor. Farhad could not argue with Haidar’s logic.

            “Err, how many do you have, then, and are they all of the same type as this one?”

            “About three hundred,” Haidar Khan replied nonchalantly. “Though, I have brought sixteen here and sold them, so there are sixteen less than that number.”

            Farhard was astonished. If he acquired them and sold them quietly, bit by bit, to a museum here, an auction there, why, here was an investment! The profits would easily run into the six figures. Two hundred eighty-odd coins, if all tetradrachmas in good condition, like the Dubai silver dealer had shown him, times a conservative estimate of $3000 US a piece…You realize, back then, you could buy a house for two hundred fifty, three hundred thousand. Now, you probably have to add a hundred-fifty thousand on top, but that would get you a decent house back then, when the market was at its bottom. An S-Class Mercedes, with taxes and fees, was barely over one hundred thousand. “What price would you charge, if I bought all of them? Then you don’t have to work about the cops stealing them, or travelling into the city to sell them. Cash, one time. You could buy up all the land and sheep in your village.” Farhad used terms the tribesman could appreciate.

            The wheels were turning in Haidar Khan’s head. He turned away for a split second, as if to gather courage to make a bold demand: “One hundred…one hundred US dollars, for each coin. That is my price.”

            Farhad had to use all his self-control to mask the laughter trying to escape onto his face. When he returned home he could sell the coins at auction for thirty or more times that, and, if he got lazy he could waltz down to the ROM or whatever was the major museum in a city he happened to be visiting and sell a handful, although the price would not be nearly so high. “Your father,” he asked, as the man himself was not old enough; “You didn’t answer me about him. He was a worker in Persepolis? One of the guys clearing out around Cyrus’ tomb, when the Shah…?”

            “I did tell you that it was only a story I told. The real version, ah, well, for that…a public place like this, it is not suitable.” Haidar Khan told Farhad to meet him at the main bus station in two days, in the morning. They would take the long-distance bus to Kazerun City and from there they would get a local to give them a ride to the village, which was north of the provincial city. He mentioned the name o the village, but in his less-than-perfectly Persian-literate head, Farhad could not associate the sound with any name he had seen on a map before, not to mention that the Lurish accent is harsh and matches only loosely with standard Farsi. Haidar Khan was quick to add that he would not find the village on any map, which was why he would accompany Farhad for the duration of the journey. It also got cold in the hills at night, so Farhad was advised to bring extra clothes.

            Farhad was excited by the opportunity, so much that he could not sleep that night. He paced his room. He tried to fall asleep by watching the grainy television, but it was no use. Genuine Alexander the Great coins—and he had seen for himself they were genuine—he pressed one of those he bought at the market in his palmd and looked it over again and again. It was the real deal. What a plan for making a quick buck and feeling cool and cunning while doing it. Then again, basically three hundred coins at $100 US each. It was an excellent price for the article in question; a price at which an honest man would be ashamed to buy. But three hundred…and US dollars, so, in Canadian that would be more than $130 each. When he went back to Canada from Dubai, he was going to buy a condo, one of the ones you can see on the waterfront, Lake Shore Boulevard. He had the downpayment. As for the girl he was dating, no one would come out and say it, but it was expected they would move in together. She was smoking hot, too. A hundred other men were ready to treat her as a princess should he show the slightest weakness. He had also intended to trade in his old Honda for a new BMW 3 Series. You have to bear in mind, those condos, before everyone was obsessed with the idea, they were $150,000, $200,000 tops, and his credit was unimpeachable, so he could get away with a low downpayment. He would have to ask a friend to wire him some money the next day. Of course, he would repay him when he made it all back.

            Despite Haidar Khan’s warning, he poured over a map, a decent one that showed the roads well. Haidar’s description of the village put it somewhere in the eastern foothills of the Zagros Mountains, before they peter out into the Dasht-e Kavir, the empty desert which occupies the centre of the country, all the way to Afghanistan and Pakistan. Based on what he remembered from history books, Alexander’s troops would have marched through the general area, on their way to the Persian capital and, later, to India. Too, it would not be strange if a merchant had carried the coins when him when he retired to the village (if it were his home) or if, on business travels, he met with foul play…No, he couldn’t think about such things. Besides, it was almost the 21st century, Iran…was a safe country for travellers? He took the wisest course of action and swallowed some Benadryl, then went to bed.

            The next day, Farhad returned to the Vakil Bazaar and, taking advantage of the fact that Haidar Khan was back in his far away village, he inquired of the bazaaris what they knew of him. Though he knew he had no solid reason to suspect the Lur, he was nevertheless surprised at the unanimously favourable testimony he heard. The burly tribesman was nobody’s regular supplier of anything—it was true that he was, as he said, no merchant. Regardless, he had come around often enough that most of those in the section where jewellery and precious metal goods were sold knew him by sight. Several of the merchants had purchased from him and many more were witness to this fact. The odd time, it was a tribal carpet or a piece of dowry jewellery that had parted from its intergenerational possessors, but the most notable were the coins, which all the silver dealers recognized as more valuable than their seller imagined, and which they, being honest gentlemen who did not like to take advantage, were content to offer $120 or $130 US (in rials) for. Tourists were few and far between, but one might sell the same coin to a foreigner for $400 to $800, hence it was a profitable arrangement. All the fourteen or eighteen coins sold (nobody could agree on the number) had been subjected to the most thorough inspection; all had been proven to be originals, not forgeries.

            Farhad slept without aid that night and was ready and eager when he met Haidar Khan at the bus station at 9:30 a.m. Unfortunately, there was a hiccup, and the bus which they had thought would leave for Kunderuz at 10:45 did not arrive. Haidar Khan was terribly embarrassed and got into an argument with a driver who infuriated him with his greasy insolence. The argument almost came to blows when the driver told them, as if it was nothing, that there would be no bus to Kunderuz that day, but Farhad intervened and assured Haidar that it really didn’t matter; they could hire someone to take them. The cost would be more, but, given the deal he was looking to make, it was a trifle. Haidar was taken aback; it would not be easy to find someone to go all the way to the village, but, if Farhad would pay…

            City-bred men would balk at the idea of venturing into the Zagros Hills, among the scowling tribals, every man jauntily hefting a four-foot-long ‘Berno’ rifle, just waiting to blow the head off any stranger who should stare too long at his beautiful unveiled wife. Thankfully, many Lur drivers ran the route to Shiraz, as it was closer to home than Tehran, either as their main occupation or for side cash. Haidar Khan dragged Farhad between dingy cafes and grimy diners, asking around, until finally they found a private minibus driver who was willing to head out that way. The fee he asked was higher than Farhad had anticipated paying, but as he explained, the roads were terrible and he had to account for the cost of a burst tire or broken axle, should they strike a boulder or run into a ditch. “Just don’t drive so fast,” Farhad suggested. “We have plenty of time.” In fact, it was almost 2:00 p.m. and Farhad was getting anxious.

            The driver laughed and wagged a hairy arm at him. Drive slow and steady, yes, then it will be dark and you will run into a ditch or boulder no matter how careful you are. And if you should have to stop and change a tire then? Bandits! Wolves! Unless Farhad planned to bring guns…Farhad sighed and paid up.

            The roads were as horrible as described and it took much longer to reach the village than the map indicated. By the time they left Kunderuz City, the sky was already tinged with orange. For the last half hour, the scenery was nothing but dusty hills covered with patches of thorny vegetation, the trees no bigger than large bushes, dotted here and there by clusters of low, rectangular huts that looked as if they had grown out of the ground itself. The Zagros peaks were always on the horizon, but a few twists and turns and undulations in the road and any trace of civilization was soon lost to view. Farhad enjoyed hiking in Canada to ‘get away from it all,’ but here he wished that ‘it all’ was close at hand. He kept telling himself, merchants as savvy as any in the world had never had a faithless dealing with this man leading him out into the hills and back in time.

            They reached the village right as twilight was descending. Haidar Khan apologized profusely for the journey having taken so long, but, of course, there had been no buses, so the alternative would have been to wait another day or two. Farhad couldn’t have endured that. Farhad’s host, as such folk will do, made further apologies for the humbleness of the conditions and was very sorry that there were no hotels in the village; all he could provide was a room in his own miserable residence, although he knew Farhad’s refined nature was not meant for such hardships as spending a night there. No one needed to say that Farhad must spend the night, at this point. Most of the houses were of mud brick—it would be a dream for an archaeologist—two storeys at most, with courtyards to keep the goats, chickens and children in, and the wolves and jackals out. Three or four houses—the richest families in the settlement—were made of cinderblocks. Haidar Khan’s family’s house was one of them, although the courtyard wall was made of the traditional mud brick, plastered and whitewashed, except the portions on each side of the gate, where cinder blocks were used.

            To Farhad, it resembled something he would see in a movie or a story about suffering people in the countryside whom one should donate to uplift them. If it wasn’t for an antenna for a TV and a van pared beside the chicken coop, you couldn’t tell if you were in the 20th century or the 12th. The women and children came to greet and gawk. Haidar Khan ordered his wife and daughters to prepare a big meal—there would be other guests coming as well. He was rough, almost violent when he spoke to his woman. Farhad figured that he was trying to show that he regarded his guest as important and felt bad about putting him through the hassles that had occurred in the day.

            The best carpets and dishes were laid out. The children of Haidar Khan’s household and others peeked and giggled from behind the doorless portals around the living room. The repast presented qualified as a feast. The hill folk work up hearty appetites and their women know how to cook. If you have ever tried Kurdish cuisine, it would be similar to that. The men—men and women dining separately—were the sort, who we don’t see much here, who still use their strength to earn their bread. Most had spent a lot of time in Tehran and other cities, or in the oil facilities on the Gulf, so their speech wasn’t as hard for Farhad to understand as that of the women. Eating from the same dishes as these warlike fellows from another age and sharing in their laughter, Farhad felt a bit of their manliness rubbing off on him. It was pleasing. Apparently this was a day when several of Haidar Khan’s cousins—all the people in such villages are related—had returned on hiatus from whatever jobs they were doing in faraway places, hence the stories told were numerous, the cups of tea even more so, and it was three hours before dinner was over and each retired to his house.

            Ten o’clock at night is not a very late hour for us, living in the metropolis, where people go clubbing and drink in bars until 2:00 a.m. But out in the rural areas of the world’s hinterlands, where there are no bars, no discotheques and no such thing as a night shift, when it is two or three hours past dusk, you already feel that it is late indeed and that you had best not stray abroad. And in places like there, in the foothills of the Zagros, you do not know who or what is lurking in the darkness; who owns those eyes you caught a glimpse of, twinkling in the alleys of the pistachio groves. On the one hand, Farhad was glad the houses had walls around their yards and thick, sturdy outer doors, and that the men had plenty of guns. On the other hand, even as the meal sat heavy on his stomach, when he saw the bleak little room where he was to sleep, which had no light switch on the wall or running water, the cheerful mood of suppertime swiftly faded and he saw truly how alien he was among these rustics, any one of whom could snap him in two with their bare hands. It took all his courage, when Haidar Khan came bearing a jug of water and a kerosene lantern, to remind his host about the matter he had come for.

            Haidar Khan was not in the least reluctant. “Oh, no problem,” he said. “Only, I thought you might prefer to wait until tomorrow. It is night already. In the morning, you can examine the coins with the aid of daylight.”

            Farhad did wish for daylight—for multiple reasons—but he could see what would happen already. If he delayed his leaving till he had examined all the coins in the sharp sun of day, it would be close to noon when he would be ready to leave. Then, the rickety van (he assumed the one parked in the courtyard would be his ride back to Kunderuz…he’d made up his mind that he would do the Kunderuz-Shiraz leg by himself) would give trouble or be short of fuel. Then they would hunt for another driver, who would be willing to take them, but only after he saw that his goats were pastured and the maize weeded. Then they would have a meal and it would be too dark to set out, and he would be stuck, imprisoned there for another night. No, no, no! He would examine the coins now, get it over with, and they would leave as soon as possible after dawn. Inwardly, Farhad started to suspect that there might not be any coins; that it was all a ruse to lure him out to the village, far from the reach of the law, he who these bumpkins must think rich. According to their mud-huts-and-goats standards, he was. Why they would wish to do such a thing? The cash he has brought under his jacket and in his suitcase gave the answer. Farhad waited in his room, staring out of the tiny window, which had no glass in it, only wooden bars. He studied the hills, blue-grey in the moonlight, rough as scouring pads, folding upon each other into ravines black as ink. He could not remember which direction the road was in relative to where he sat. If he tried to flee and ran in the wrong direction, he would be running for longer than a man could survive on the water he could carry. His eyes were glued to the window, scanning for any movement in the fields and orchards, which he would catch whenever he blinked or began to turn away, as if the creatures out there (if he wasn’t imagining them) could read his face even as he sat in the lightless room. His ears were attuned for any sound of activity that would accord with safe and healthy expectations: the opening of cupboards, a jingling of metal, maybe the prying up of paving stones or the knocking of bricks out of a wall. He heard none of those things; only voices in guttural accents and the soft groaning as of a heavy object being carefully dragged across the floor.

            Minute passed like hours until at last Haidar Khan appeared in the doorway holding a wooden chest, which he heaved onto the table. “Here they are,” he announced. “Besides the ones I have sold already, of course.”

            Farhad lit the kerosene lamp and fiddled with the wick until a warm yellow flame gleamed through the filthy glass. The chest was tall; more cubic than rectangular. Scales of lacquer clung to the porous wood; the brass furniture looked about to jump off. He opened the chest and saw that the coins were wrapped in rolls of greased paper blue paper tied with twine, not unlike an old-fashioned version of the rolls of coins people use to take small change to the bank. A scrunched wrapper lay in one corner of the box and the roll beside it was shrunken, the twine knotted much closer to the middle and less expertly than on the full rolls: the coins which Haidar Khan had already sold in Shiraz. Farhad gulped. He was afraid to offend, especially in the situation he was in, but his pride caused him to hate even more the idea of being taken for a dupe. “I am not saying they aren’t genuine,” he said, as casually as he could manage; “But they can’t have come like this; not originally.” The chest and the paper wrappers were old and weathered, to be sure, but there was no chance they were 2,300 years old.

            Fortunately, Haidar Khan took no offense. No, they had not been like that originally. His grandfather had packed them that way, so that they were protected from damp and so he could tell at a glance if any coin went missing. Each roll held ten coins, all Alexandrine tetradrachmas, so all the bundles were the exact same size and weight.

            “I see,” Farhad nodded soberly, putting aside one coin and untying an unopened bundle. Picking over it with his jeweller’s loupe, fully conscious that his condo downpayment, BMW and impending marriage depended on his judgement, he was certain that the coin was genuine. “Persepolis? Sorry, I know you explained it but I don’t recall. Too much excitement. It was your grandfather who worked there?”

            No, no, Haidar Khan corrected him with only the faintest hint of being caught off guard. That was only a story for the merchants. The real story, which he could now comfortably tell, was, on the face of it, more fanciful, although when one considered the likelihood of an ordinary labourer sneaking a hoard of precious artefacts under the noses of the Shah’s security service, it was actually more credible.

            Many years ago—this would be in the time of Reza Shah, not ‘the Shah’—in this village, in the structure, quite a bit more primitive, which once stood in the place of the house they were in, there lived a man named Bakur. This Bakur was old, the oldest man in the village, and was notable even among the frugal tribesmen for his Spartan habits. He was considered a scholar, by local measure, because he could read and write and had worked in the civil service as a surveyor, back when the Qajar Dynasty sat on the throne. He still collected a pension, owing to friendships he had made in higher places, which meant he had cash. Most peasants in those days rarely used cash money—where would they get it? People did not have ‘jobs’ like they do nowadays. To live, one grew and made things or did services for other individuals using one’s personal skills, for which there were no degrees or certificates. One only got cash money by working in the towns or for the government. So, people said that Bakur was rich. It was speculated that he had sources of wealth besides his savings and pension, as the silver he paid was sometimes in coins bearing pictures and symbols different from those which the Qajars stamped on their official tender, and, being illiterates who feared to travel much beyond their tribal lands, they could not investigate further. Bakur had several daughters but only one son. This son took after his father in intellect and won himself a minor post in Tehran. He did not follow his father’s character, however, and was addicted to the fast life in the capital. When he would visit, he would be in a black suit, silk tie around his neck and patent leather shoes that gleamed as if dipped in liquid diamond. You could not tell him from a farangi; even his face was pale from too much time in the office and opera house. His wife’s appearance scandalized even the boisterous Lur women and, it is told, her complaints about the villagers and their backwards and unhygienic ways could fill a book, had any of them been able to write it. Bakur wanted his son to be near him and hoped that the couple would give him grandchildren to cheer him in his old age. Of course, he was proud of his son’s career, but Bakur was a Lur hillman at heart and the pull of tradition and the desire for respect in the eyes of his fellows was stronger than the glow of any title his son might achieve or the prestige of whatever apartment address he might occupy in Tehran.

            The son would have none of it and the daughter-in-law even less. Following a particularly vicious argument, the son was not seen again. Haidar Khan’s grandfather was at the time only just married. He lived two houses away from Bakur and often did odd jobs for the old man, sometimes bringing him food cooked by his wife and sitting with him for tea, as Bakur’s wife had died you and, with his daughters married off to other villages, he had no one to help him with chores. Haidar Khan’s grandparents worked hard, but times were tough and Bakur noted their poverty and that they had no family to help them. Come, live with me, he said to Haidar Khan’s grandfather one day; live with me as father and son—for you can see that the son I have is not worth the name, no matter his extensive learning. Take care of me in my old age, he promised the couple, and, when I am gone, my wealth will go to you.

            There was a tale that Bakur gave Haidar Khan’s grandparents, in addition to the house and lands, a hoard of silver coins that he had found in a cave in the nearby hills. One afternoon when Bakur was out surveying the area, a sudden thunderstorm drove him to take shelter in a cave, where he found some clay jars. His education allowed him to recognize that they were amphorae, from the Mediterranean, and quite ancient. Half-jokingly, he checked to see if they might contain some well-aged wine and poured out…silver coins! To bring the huge, heavy jars home would require several trips and would be very obvious, but if he smashed them and filled his rucksack with the coins, he could carry them concealed and no one would be aware of their existence. Moreover, no one would come across the jars and wonder if they might have contained something and if he (who was one of few people with a reason to be in that remote spot) had anything to do with it.

            Bakur intended to inform Haidar Khan’s grandfather about the coins, but the young man happened to be in town when Bakur fell ill. Bakur would not reveal where he stashed things to anyone else and, since there were no telephones and they had to send a messenger to the town, Bakur died before Haidar Khan’s grandfather could arrive back in the village.

            “But, if this Bakur fellow never told anyone where he kept the coins,” Farhad, who was engrossed by the story, asked; “How is it they are before me right now?”

            “That,” Haidar Khan explained, “Goes back only a couple years, not long after the war ended.” He said that Farhad should recall that Haidar told him the present house was not the original structure, although the floorplan and size were not vastly different. In Bakur’s lifetime, the house had been made of mud bricks. Now it was of cinderblocks.

            “The wall around the courtyard, though…” Farhad foresaw what Haidar was about to say.

            Haidar smiled. The house had a wall in Bakur’s day, too, which was daubed with mud and whitewashed as required to keep it standing. Importantly, rural folk did not have cars back then, let alone vans and trucks. When Haidar Khan’s brother acquired the van which he drove for work, they could not fit it through the original gate. It was cheaper to knock down a mud wall and replace the missing portion with cinderblocks and a wider gate than it was to replace a vehicle lost to theft, so that is what they did. When they were smashing down the abutment where the old gate attached, out falls this chest with the coins wrapped up inside in greased paper, to protect them from moisture.

            Farhad had to smile, too. What a tale! And he held a piece of it between his fingers! To be sure, the money that he would pay was not a fortune in modern times, but to these poor souls it would seem a lot. As he was having that very thought, Haidar Khan asked him, with the utmost delicacy, if he would not perhaps agree to a price of $150 per coin. After all, he had seen how difficult were the conditions they lived under, and, after the war and with all the sanctions and so on, jobs were few and far between. One-fifty. That would bring the price to $42,600 US; more than $55,000 in Canadian money. It was all the money he had on him, besides spare change for food and the return trip. He groaned and wracked his brains, but, in doing so, his eyes wandered to the window and the forbidding hills shrouded in night’s gloom. He understood that it would be unwise to haggle. Besides, he would earn it back several-fold. He handed over the money, Haidar Khan left, and he went to bed. Sleep did not come. They had his money, these Iranian hillbillies. He had their silver coins. But what did that matter, seeing as he was in their house, in the middle of the night, hours from civilization—perhaps even farther from sympathy? They knew he was a foreigner; a fish out of water. They were probably not so ignorant as to be unaware that, in smuggling so much foreign currency into the country as he had paid them with, Farhad had committed a serious breach of customs laws and so could find himself in an Iranian jail as a political hostage. Accordingly, he had probably not told anyone where he was going. That assumption would be true. If Farhad disappeared, his family and colleagues would be telling them to search in Shiraz. He reasoned himself into the expectation that his hosts would come into his room and murder him as he slept, keeping both the US dollars and the ancient silver. It was the most logical chain of events. He lay frozen, his heart accelerating at the sound of a beetle scuttling across the carpet beside his pillow or an owl flying past his window. Whether he eventually slept or not, the next thing he was conscious of was the bright blue square of the window and that he was able to see the walls and the table: it was morning.

            It took every ounce of focus to wait as the household had breakfast. He himself ate nothing, claiming the feast the night before overwhelmed his stomach. His heart obtained no rest on the journey to Kunderuz and it was agony to submit to Haidar Khan and his brother’s offer to walk him to the station. Alas, he did not know where it was, and he feared robbers. He feared his guides, too. Normally, when you are showing someone the way, you walk in front of them or beside them. Haidar Khan walked in front and his brother walked behind Farhad. The streets were too narrow for him to lag back behind Haidar’s brother. Farhad made sure to get on a bus with some uniformed soldiers riding on it. The government, if they found what he was transporting, might confiscate it for themselves, but they would not murder him over it. In his hotel, he packed the rolls of coins into the lining of a suitcase, where the extra weight could be assumed to come from his personal effects. Tightly wrapped in their paper packets and squeezed on by the padded fabric, they did not jingle. Only when he got back safely to Dubai did he feel relief.”

            “He made out swell, then?” I have declared, half asked. “Hope he didn’t charge you auction price for this one.” I marvelled again at the Alexander tetradrachma that reposed upon the tablecloth.

            Esfandiari tut-tutted. “No, no, he neither charged me full price nor had a heart o aggressively seek full value for the four or five that he had.”

            “Four or five?” I was confused. “Thought you said he bought nearly three hundred of the things.”

            “Four or five that were genuine, not counting the sixteen Haidar Khan had traded in the bazaar. He was approaching the end of his stash…”

            “But—how? Didn’t you say your friend, or your friend’s son, the Farhad guy, that he examined them and that he knew something about coin trading?”

            Esfandiari insisted that, yes, Farhad had examined the coins—some of them, and he was a skilled numismatologist, no doubt about it. That was the trick; the juice in the orange. A handful of coins were real historical artefacts. How they came into Haidar Khan’s possession was anyone’s guess. Maybe his dad snatched them while at an excavation in the ‘70s, like Farhad first guessed, maybe they were found in a cave by some surveyor or goatherd. Not impossible; that’s how they found the Dead Sea Scrolls. The renovated wall in the courtyard might simply have been convenient, suggesting part of a story to Haidar Khan. The stuff about his grandfather…who knows? Who can know? All in all, it’s not far-fetched that someone, finding himself the lucky possessor of twenty or so ancient coins to enrich his impoverished self might figure out that there’s more profit from selling three hundred than twenty-two. The genius was in how he did it, being honest where he had to be—never trying to pull a fast one on the shrewd and well-connected bazaaris, for instance. Establish a reputation for honesty with people who you know are going to be the first ones anybody is going to go to for an opinion—that was a good start. Taking his mark—Farhad—out to the village was the next step: let him get in so deep that he would be inclined to deceive himself rather than back out. Don’t take him immediately; give him two days to stew in his own expectations. Haidar Khan would also have enough experience of the wider world to know what an urbane yuppie like Farhad would think about him and his fellow villagers: backwards people who dislike outsiders and are prone to violence, especially against those outsiders. Picking a day when he knew there was no public bus running to Kunderuz, then stalling for time while finding a driver ensured they would arrive at their destination late in the day, compelling Farhad to spend the night. The accumulated frustrations, the mounting anxiety of being alone at night, laden with cash, among strange and hostile people…all this wore on Farhad’s nerves, while the overt hospitality the villagers showed him would fill his heart with conflicted emotions: a soft young man like Farhad would one minute be trembling, thinking he was about to have his throat cut, then he’d be wracked with guilt for harbouring suspicions about the innocent, kindly country folk. He’d have no spare room in his mind for anything else.

            The sun having set, there being no electricity, what kind of lighting would he have to judge the coins by? He would look at them; none but a saint could resist the impulse. A candle or a kerosene lamp will do to read by, I suppose, but there’s a big leap between reading a printed page that’s designed to be read and the professional appraisal of an antique coin, trying to detect the subtle clues left by the counterfeiter’s hand. Tying the coins up in wrappers like that was another element of the Lur’s strategy. It was perfectly plausible as a thing somebody might have done in the past, and the long, secretive trip ahead, it was a way of helping guarantee that Farhad would only get through vetting a few of the coins instead of spending all night untying the bundles, leaving himself a loose, noisy mess while he strained to determine their authenticity in the feeble, colour-distorting light of the kerosene lamp. Psychology!

            After such a night, it was a safe bet that Farhad would not take out the coins again until he had left Iran. As for any threat of him returning afterwards to complain to the Iranian police and get them to go after Haidar Khan (if that was his real name) in a village h couldn’t locate on the map, all because he’d allegedly ripped off Farhad on some antiquities which Farhad smuggled out of the country…Yeah, that had about a snowball’s chance in hell of happening. “Guess your friend’s son didn’t get his BMW and condo?”

            “Nor the girl,” Esfandiari chuckled wistfully.

            I left the Bademjan with my belly and thoughts both well-fed, along positive vibes for an immigrant restaurateur who, if he wasn’t able to smuggle his wealth out of the Old Country like his friend, at least managed to bring some wits. Sometimes, the younger generation would be better off inheriting the latter.

Chaco

by M.G. Warenycia

            The straw-blonde blades of the elephantine grass drew invisible lines across Tuco’s shins and calves, only coming to his attention when a bead of sweat found them. The tall grass and the desiccated quebracho trees that huddled in clumps across the savannah hid him from the aim of the Bolivian’s Mausers, but not from the heat and the thirst that was killing him as surely as any bullet. Tuco was not the type to despair easily, though, just as he was not one for dramatic displays of joy or pride – though there were exceptions. It was perhaps a fundamental trait of his people, this passivity that endured without complaint, suffered without self-pity. To a different fragment of his heritage – forgotten to living memory – he owed another side of his character, latent, but as irrepressible once erupted…just like the faint bluish muzzle that remained no matter how closely he shaved. It was fortunate he grew up in a countryside not unlike this harsh subtropical zone, except in being marred by the hand of plough-driving man. He observed the dense lines of acacia and wild olive, grey and green amid the yellow sea, which he knew meant a shallow creek, which ran with life-giving water and which – almost as important – curled around the thicket into which the recoiling enemy had fallen back. He trod onward, hunched and stealthy, the red dust mixing paint with his sweat, contemplating succour in water and blood…

            When the Colonel pinned the badge of brilliant cloth and noble bronze upon his chest, he had given a piece of paper to Tuco that, the Captain told him, explained that his country was grateful and proud for his fearless defiance of the risk of death, leading the charge when the platoon leader was down and the battle depended on coming to grips with the enemy and driving them from their emplacements. It was true, as well, that the men of the regiment credited Tuco with this quality, so vaunted by the nation that she now fed with bread and beef, and shod with leather, her very same children who, mere months earlier, she was content to witness toiling under the meridional sun with bared backs, sand flies and chiggers gnashing their naked and stone-scuffed feet. But the officers who mentioned Tuco in despatches and the comrades who slapped his muscled back did not understand what lay beneath the surface of that visage, impassive and unchanging as Machu Picchu’s stones. They thought that Tuco was unmoved by the risk of death. In fact, he was driven by hunger for a victory that could never be found on the battlefield alone. The hunger that impelled him was as savage and monomaniac as that which drove men from hardscrabble villages in Galicia and Extremadura to throw down their last doubloon for a rapier or arquebus and passage across the unfathomed ocean to lands more idea than place, trying their hand in a game whose stakes were conquest or death. The treasures that Juan de Solis and Jeronimo Cabrera sought were yellow and glittered; those which Tuco craved were black and liquid, and red and pulsing…

            Tuco had lived in the district of San Ignacio all his life. In fact, the entirety of his experience, from birth to adulthood, had occurred within a day’s ride from the Estancia Narvaez, on which his father worked until drinking himself to death somewhere in his forties. For boys born as he was, there was never a moment of choosing a job or career. One entered life and did the things incidental to its preservation with more or less regularity. For a few tedious years, as determined by some big men in Buenos Aires, Tuco and his ilk were imprisoned for a portion of each day in a large room where they were lectured on all manner of subjects in words seldom more comprehensible than those spoken by the priest at Mass. After this, one took to living – living full-time – which occasionally required an expenditure of sweat and pain. The priest had explained that this was a kind of tax upon sins which had been gathering interest on Man for a while (though some folks seemed remarkably unconcerned about paying this tax). Some laid bricks and some dug ditches; some carried heavy loads in the manner of donkeys, but by far the most toiled in the care and processing of crops grown on the properties of men – other men; men not like them; men who had much land. Most of all, it was in the maté plantations where the eons-old exchange of sweat for bread took place. Tuco was tough and uncomplaining. He did every task well, so that whereas the other lads were allowed to sweat and earn bread for a few months out of the year, between which intervals they drank themselves to sickness and spent themselves to beggary, Tuco remained where he was, month after month, year after year.

            The estanciero, on horseback in white suit and broad-brimmed hat, watching the shirtless, shoeless men growing wealth, saw this and was pleased. Tuco soon began to receive more silver and copper each month than the men who worked beside him and, because he did not use it to buy liquor or women, he worked strong and steady when drink and sickness made those beside him grow weak-limbed and slow…which added more coffee cans full of silver to the mine under the floorboards of his room.

            At rest breaks or relaxing after work, Tuco’s colleagues – mostly young men like himself, Indians and Mestizos, plus a smattering of the European migrants who had fallen through the cracks or reprised their old-country roles – shared a few topics of conversation, adjusted and reframed but never varying in their basic substance. Prominent among these was each man’s hypothesizing what he would do with his pay; a mental analgesic for the physical sufferings of their toil. This man would save up and buy a donkey and a cart, hiring himself to transport crops, wares or fuel. Another would accumulate the capital to buy a stock of goods and rent a small shop to sell them from. And this other would hoard away cash till he could purchase a plot of land to farm on his own account, with no estancia, no padrone looking over his shoulder from his high horse. Not maté if course, nor sugar.  Perhaps tobacco or vegetables for the market; maybe a few dairy cows, a flock of chickens…No man bandied about grand visions and gilded stratagems for becoming a big proprietor or figure of renown himself. Anyone who boasted he would have a hundred hectares of land or someday own a substantial enterprise and have doctors and lawyers for sons would have been scorned as a daydreamer; as one who was paradoxically both a fool for desiring the unfeasible and a snob for outshining their own humble goals (if only in the battleground of the imagination). He must be ambitious, therefore mad. The men whose likenesses stood in greening bronze in the town square and whose names lay graven in the gateposts of lichened manors had been mad, too, of course.

            Tuco listened to these lectures as if they were fresh each day, nodding and smiling as appropriate, leaving unremarked (because he never seriously pondered it) the fact that the donkey prices, the shop capital, and the children’s educations became cachaça and dice, dead cocks and slow horses. Each month born anew, the same transformation occurred as if by an immutable law of the universe. Tuco listened, but he never commented on such tales. He remained taciturn because he did not have any of his own to share. Although he worked harder and wasted his wages less than his comrades, he had not given a moment’s thought to what he would do with the accretion; not even the most superficial speculation. His stoic heart harboured neither bitterness nor aspiration.

            As an earthquake jolting the volcano from its millennial slumber, a chancing glance of a pair of feather-lashed black eyes set his dormant heart boiling, steaming up a pressure which no force of reason or circumstance could cool or divert. There was not a week where Tuco did not attend the market, if for nothing but boredom, and there were plenty of fine distractions parading about and haggling at the stalls. The estate, however, was the real hub of the local economy, where almost everyone, man and woman, boy and girl, who was not a thoroughgoing merchant or burgher served their turn when larders ran low, dresses for quinceañeras and weddings needed purchasing, or when the paterfamilias (if he was not already on the estate) took ill or died. In every seasonal shift and harvest gang, there were always a few comely maids; an ample bosom, a sturdily shapely waist…what would spur the transient lusts of a red-blooded workman or overseer, usually traded at modest price without much expense or shame, but one never saw a truly beautiful woman; one who would not look out of place on a painter’s canvas (unless he were that type of painter who likes to depict, as ethnographic records or declarations of avant garde tastes, figures overbearingly rustic). No beauty who would be described by that adjective without qualification. Hunger as he might in his heart and work-exhausted daze, even an untraveled man like Tuco understood the deficiencies of the plebeian beauty which, while it might surpass others in moments of fatigue, darkness and rum, but which a gentleman would feel no little shame for having drunk of when daylight comes…sultry and alluring though she might be in the simple, bust-enhancing garb of a free-spirited barmaid or washerwoman, even her most sodden paramour well knew she’d ill fit the balls and soirees of the planters and rubber barons, turning squat and ungainly in dresses not drawn for her figure, clomping flat-footed in heels, a crude satire of a ‘Lady’… beauty that blooms frank and vigorous, just long enough to secure – or give the sense of securing – a modest, stolid provider, before being rapidly effaced by a life of unremitting toil. The human face and form, so said the Sage of Turin, expresses the spirit within, and in a rude and practical land will flourish rude and practical faces, hands and feet. But this, oh, this fair maid he espied…bearing a basket of plucked maté leaves cushioned upon silky tresses so black they shone blue in the late-noon sun…this was a different kind of Beauty.

            Tuco knew nothing of the myths of Greece and Rome to bestow upon her, in his mind, one of the analogistic appellations the poets favour to write up a woman’s character in three or four syllables. Nonetheless, he knew that the lithesome statue turning a glance so innocently bewitching, not five paces in front of him under the eaves of the drying-house shed, was of a different order. One sight of her rendered most of the rest of her sex crass and cheap – mere females – in comparison. There was something in this belle – who differed in no aspect of blood or clothing or colour from any other lass who laboured upon the estate – something that he could not have explained in concrete terms…something that embodied the same essential nature one perceived, instinctively, in the estate house’s Iberian colonial elegance, at once opulent and timelessly at one with the soil that bore it; in the hummingbird that feeds upon flowers, as if its beauty is nourished from theirs, floating rather than flying as ordinary birds do; or in the music that wafted on special nights out across the fields from the balconies of the great houses, sprinkling the dregs of rhythmless dreamsounds on the palm-roofed huts of the workers’ settlement.

            It unsettled him when he comprehended the sensation stirred up by the sinuous motions of her tawny arms, the nimble padding of her dust-kissed feet, unshod yet dainty and smooth, and, above all, those eyes which struck the onlooker like obsidian-tipped arrows. The sensation was like that – indescribable and of more than material origins – which was produced by the strange music which he would never admit a fondness for to his friends and drinking partners, but which drew him, unfailingly, to the doorway of his barracks room, no matter how tired his body. He could not reconcile it; for the one was a sound, never simultaneously associated with any unique sight, and the other was a visual phenomenon, very real, of course, but profoundly detached from any noise, smell or other merely concrete sensory impression. Moreover, that strange music which pulled at his soul in ways he did not understand was, he knew, a thing of the aristocratic folks – his bosses and their kin – made in and imported from across the sea in Europe; something which belonged to the rich blancos and their world, and which he had no wish to possess as his own. Tuco, after all, was not a man who coveted things which belonged to others, even when he could easily take them for himself. The angelic being in front of him was an India, with the same copper skin, black hair, almond-shaped eyes, proud cheekbones and firm but quiet jaw as he. She had been born to people like his, nourished on maize and beans, dwelling under palm-thatch roves like he – though judging by her nude soles and the many patches on her once-fashionable clothes, her household circumstances were somewhat below his own frugal but secure level. All these thoughts and a hundred more sprouting therefrom invaded and seized control of Tuco…and he did not even know her name, nor had he heard her speak a single word.

            Tuco had to hurry back to the fields and did not see the woman again that day. It was payday, and he took some of his earnings – in a move quite out of character – and splurged on as scanty a meal he could design from the menu without looking out of place, at a restaurant run by Germans which was frequented by the foremen, lower managers and the skilled workmen when they had the cash and fancied themselves able to sit alongside their social betters. The exotic black-beam-in-white-plaster architecture came with equally exotic dishes: huge joints of pork stewed without spices and cutlets coated in batter, served on mounds of vinegar-soaked cabbage, with bottles of nauseatingly sweet wine. But someone who worked in those other departments of the estate, so near but so foreign to Tuco, would surely have some threads of a story at least; some information regarding this girl who was the most beautiful to have set foot on the estancia (and that included the proprietor’s three daughters, seen regularly in carriages and at fetes in town…alas, though sheltered from sun and work, and adorned with fine silks and jewels though they were, no effort of presentation can compensate for unfortunately ordinary natural endowments)…this girl who was not only fine to look at, but something of a mystery and hence doubly alluring.

            As Tuco hoped, Rosario, the bookkeeper, and Herr Dreyse, the junior superintendent of the packing warehouse, whose granite-chinned frauline was supervisor of the girls at the sorting tables (which presumably included the object of Tuco’s desire), gave him fodder for a week of sleepless nights and wandering daydreams. Tuco found himself growing tipsy as he bought glass after glass of wine, for he had to wait through anecdotes about the latest sensational crimes, the minor celebrations around the return of Senor Narvaez’ son from his studies in Spain, and the ups and downs of agricultural commodity prices. His concentration never wavered, though, and each half-whispered factum entered his brain as a fish into a weir.

            There was a good reason why Tuco had not seen the mystery maid before, either working on the estate or at market. The girl – whose name was Ximena, Ximena de Aguirre – was of a family as poor as the one Tuco was born into, whose distinguished name was its sole attribute of note. Her father, who none but the older managers recalled (and those only as hazy impressions) had died in a barroom knife-fight when Ximena was yet an infant. The wife of the lawyer who employed Ximena’s mother as a domestic developed a fear – which none of the tellers could say was unfounded – that the recently-widowed servant harboured designs upon her prosperous husband (inevitably futile, but offensive to household peace nonetheless), and so dismissed her. Too proud to endure her peers witnessing her degraded to broiling in the fields or slaving in the packing house (no other cash employment being conceivable for an illiterate Guarani woman in such parts), and with the last few yards of her family patrimony sold off to pay her husband’s debts, Ximena’s mother took the child with her to Buenos Aires, that they might make a new life in ‘the Paris of the Americas.’ Ximena would have been about three or four then. Mother and daughter never returned to visit. Their relatives, receiving no wires of money nor parcels of presents from the city, made no effort to remain in contact (in their defence, it would have been a challenge, as there were no proper roads nor a complete telegraph or telephone system in those days).

            Herr Dreyse’s wife had become fast friends with the girl’s mother (both mother and daughter did indeed work in the packing house, though that was tentative). The veneer of metropolitan polish on the once-ambitious India, acquired in the City of Fair Winds, was sufficient for the Munich-raised Frau Dreyse, who had some education in her homeland and found herself in a backwards corner of a wild and alien land, with the added impediment of being resented by the working women (whose language she hardly spoke) and gently kept at arms’ length by the Ladies with a capital ‘L’ who were wives or sisters of the more prestigious members of the European staff. Indeed, Senora de Aguirre had been to the Dreyse household twice already for coffee and dinner. Fond the Senora was of regaling her provincial audience with dramatic and colourful anecdotes about life in the capital (Frau Dreyse hung on to every word about the utopia to the south, more accessible than the one she left across the Atlantic). As long and seemingly rambling as the Senora de Aguirre’s stores were, curiously – now that Herr Dreyse thought about it – not from any chapter or snippet of the cumulative hours of women’s chatter he’d been forced by politeness to overhear could he say or even reliably conjecture what exactly it was that mother and daughter de Aguirre did in B.A….that is, for her employment…or, for that matter, how they lived and why it was they left to return to what was plainly a harder life, devoid of the comforts and conveniences of civilization that tempted the youth of the countryside as a candle tempts restless moths. The local grapevine, intricate as it was, did not sprawl far beyond the red soil floodplain and its maté plantations, but for feeble tendrils here and there. Whatever the reason, the Estancia Narvaez and the small town symbiotic with it witnessed a sight rarer than a modern-day vision of the Virgin: an eager rural youth gone to the Big City to seek her fortune and fame (or some vague idea generally related thereto), returned, sound in mind and body, to her native soil…albeit no longer a youth and more sullen than eager.

            Naturally, such a rare spectacle incited gossip, most of it salacious or defamatory to a greater or lesser degree – though the various popular theories, however accurate they might have been, lacked substantive proof and in no way jeopardized the Senora and Senorita de Aguirre’s position at the estate or at the shabby-but-semi-respectable boarding house of Madame Schneider at edge of town, where mother and daughter shared a suite. Public opinion was not yet settled on where to place the pair. Undoubtedly, they were possessed of neither wealth nor honour, and, without any effective extended family, had no illustrious kinfolk to attach themselves to for status. On the other hand, the mother’s haughtiness was backed with enough composure, half-cooked worldliness and sheer feminine venom to be treated with some distant deference in public (whatever people said when out of range of her baleful glare), and the daughter – were it not for her ethnic features – was as polished and refined as any of the middling sort of eligible bride coming off the boats from Naples, Danzig or Cadiz.

            Throughout his lecture, Herr Dreyse cocked eyebrows and suggestively altered his inflection, although all-in-all nobody could have gleaned very much from what, beyond the bare-bone facts, was really nothing more than a little fodder for idle talk. At intervals, Dreyse had seen fit to drop odd mentions of the notable charms of the younger de Aguirre. It might have been perfectly unintentional, but Tuco couldn’t help but detect in it a sort of hinting, boisterously encouraging or disheartening according to his turn of mind at the moment.

            From that day, Tuco was like a catfish ogling a duck upon the water, entranced by whatever fatal mysteries might lurk within his prize. He daydreamed, something he had not done since he was a boy, but his work did not suffer. On the contrary, he went about his tasks with redoubled energy, especially when his gang was set in any place where the mostly female-staffed packing house workers and domestics might pass by – for he could not be sure, on account of her looks and city-smoothed charms, that Ximena would not be switched to some activity in the big house (while he fretted for the health and tender hands of her, so vivacious yet wincingly delicate, scrambling in the dry leaves, sewing bags and tacking boxes, he shuddered with foreboding at the obvious alternative). Once, he had been sent from the field to visit the bookkeeper’s office – only a few dozen yards from the house – so that he might request the urgent dispatch of some extra horses to replace an exhausted team.

            Dragging out his steps as he came in view of the house, Tuco was certain he caught sight of Ximena’s face – he convinced himself there was no more chance of mistaking it among the sallow visages of the Casa than among the coarse mugs of the labourers – and she appeared to notice him, for her eyes expanded like ink drops on tissue and her image vanished as suddenly as he had noticed it. He hung around the bookkeeper’s office for as long as he could, feigning uncertainty as to the message he was tasked with delivering, and making small talk with the clerk on duty who, while on good terms with Tuco, felt compelled to offer a drink and a call to the doctor. Tuco nursed the tumblerful of whiskey, paying attention enough to shake his sweat-beaded head whenever the clerk proffered a chair or medical attention, keeping his eyes glued to the stucco-framed windows of the house. After twenty minutes with no results, Tuco reluctantly headed back to the fields. He did not see Ximena again that day and finally gave in and stopped Dreyse as he was going home for the evening, asking if Ximena had been in the packing section that day. No, Dreyse replied with a too-placid expression; she and her mother had taken ill…nothing serious; it was the chill weather of late and overwork…and had stayed home from work.

            Tuco nodded. He scarfed a meagre supper at a tavern in the village and, uncharacteristically, took several drinks before returning to his room for sleep. The unspoken angst he felt lasted for a few days. He caught scattered glimpses of Ximena as she ducked in and out below the awnings of the packing warehouse or ate lunch with the other girls under the mimosa tree in the yard, but he never managed to find her alone. He told himself that he would surely have the courage to speak to her then. He had never lost his voice or his head in front of a woman before, although deep down he knew it might happen now.

            There was snickering among the field hands; the replacement of the female name in the lyrics of a bawdy tune with ‘Ximena.’ The bookkeeper’s clerk must have made insinuations. Or Dreyse. The other hands saw it as quite juicy that one of their own who was held (whether he himself knew it or not) as being more disciplined, stronger and harder working than the rest of them (as better, in other words, than they at the only thing they were capable of being in this life), was showing such disgraceful weakness. Most of them had several women, all of whom they might call ‘wife,’ though they would not so much as take one of them out for a fancy dinner, let alone house and provide for them (beyond a few gaudy prizes when harvest pay came in), even if they could. They boasted all the louder for the fact that the one means left them to demonstrate their manhood chronically debilitated them.

            It was the night of St. Lawrence’s day, Lawrence being the patron saint of the estate owner for some reason lost in time, on which the family would put on a feast for the village. The notable burghers and the families of neighbouring ranches and estates would dine on silver and fine china in the Casa Narvaez, accompanied by a band brought in from the city, if possible, playing facsimiles of popular European operas (though there had occasionally been Tango at the insistence of the padrone’s fashion-minded son, who the father indulged reluctantly). The workmen and their families dined outdoors, on the grounds, served by liveried staff from the estate, to the alternately sprightly and melancholy music of gaucho and Guarani. The food was plentiful and good; Senor Narvaez was a hard businessman and a harder ruler, but he was beloved as a rich and genial uncle on feast days, for the wine of his cellars – almost too decent for the throats imbibing it – flowed as blood from a gutted steer, running dry only when all livers present were well and truly saturated. Tuco staggered into an ornamental grove to relieve himself. Turning around he saw, silhouetted by the twin lights of the moon and the glowing party in the house, a figure he could have confused for no other. What few words passed between the might have been solely in his head. He did not think to ask how or from whom Ximena had learned of his intentions, nor what she thought about them. Whether she was more drunk than him, or simply wilful to the point of madness, was a question he declined to probe.

            Unlike his colleagues, Ximena knew how to keep her mouth shut. There was none of the expected whispers and tittering when he ran across Ximena’s coworkers…a fact almost beyond belief. It was no ‘fling’ or ‘escapade,’ not this time. Other than that first night, she talked a lot when they were together, so many stories, that must have been dull and familiar to her but which sounded like fairy tales to him – mind, like the originals which Perrault and the Grimms softened, they were not necessarily quaint or happy in their endings. Ximena rarely spoke about her own thoughts and feelings regarding any specific person or matter, but it was clear even to Tuco’s blatantly unworldly mind that Ximena herself was a character in many of these dramas, albeit an unmentioned one. He was quite sure, too, that she knew and wanted that he should realize this. It made him fear for her and want to protect her. Sometimes, when he was swinging his billhook at work, he would imagine himself warding off the now-purely-physical tormentors of Ximena, and would suddenly lose his balance as he hacked with absurd force at a superfluous twig or shoot

            Almost as suddenly as things had begun, Tuco came to understand that he now must move to the next stage. After several trysts of pure, amorous passion, Ximena began to show reticence; to pull away and make excuses. Ximena began to speak, with watered eyes, of propriety and her latest confessions at church. Tuco understood what this meant. He had been saving as much as possible at every paycheque, for he had known that, in the natural course of things, it must come to this mixed boon and burden. After all, Ximena was no cheap tavern whore; no simple Indio girl who might be savoured for the price of a new print dress or bangle every couple weeks. No; Ximena de Aguirre was a Lady who had to be courted as such.

            It was a week before he could even pretend to himself the courage to visit the elder Senora de Aguirre at her lodgings in town. The studied reclusiveness of the woman and the foreign graces of her daughter outweighed what comfort he might have drawn from the peeling shutters and creaking floorboards long since stripped of varnish by the footfalls of thousands of continually shifting tenants. The taciturn, crab-faced lady at the front desk led him up the shadowed, lightless stairs to the third floor apartment occupied by his love and her mother.

            Senora de Aguirre stayed half-hidden in the chiaroscuro effected by the single oil lamp on the oval, doily-draped table and the closed, age-yellowed silk curtains. The hot, golden light threw jagged shadows across her face’s prominent bones, shading the deep-set eyes in total darkness. Tuco attempted perfunctory introductions in Spanish as proper as he could manage and placed his gifts upon the table. Modest gifts, but significant given his slender paycheque and, given the Aguirre’s circumstances, they ought to have been received gratefully – Tuco kept this thought to himself. The shadowed figure said a few canned pleasantries in return, thanking him in the most formal and insincere manner possible for his presents. No offer of coffee or tea was forthcoming…in light of the address and the Spartan, out-of-style furnishings of the room, Tuco couldn’t tell if it was the embarrassed modesty of poverty, or a sign of disapproval, and he took his leave gracefully (so he felt, anyways).

            That was a Saturday, and in the following week, Tuco saw Ximena a couple times, though she was busy with work (as was he), and if he jeopardized his job for an assignation, he would have killed his biggest attraction. Ximena did not press him. On the other hand, she was frustrating in her evasiveness when he tried to question her about her mother. A daughter who, though her natural charms would give her profligate freedom in independence (for so long as a dreamy young girl’s mind can foresee, at least), nonetheless chose to remain by her mother’s side, going so far as to migrate to a sultry backwater she barely had memory of – foregoing, in the process, even the faintest fantasy of being a dancer, singer, or motion picture starlet – such a daughter would not marry without her mother’s approval, no matter how much she loved him. Indeed, the very fact she did love a man would firm her resolve, for the greater her sacrifice of her own selfish desires, the more she could relish her filial piety, assuaging whatever guilt or insecurities lurked in her lonely child’s mind.

            Tuco tried to glean tidbits from his colleagues in the fields, but they knew no more than he. He grudgingly shovelled out precious cash at the German restaurant in the hope that Dreyse or some of the diners would have some news…the regulars at Frau Schneider’s table being more in the class of people who Senora de Aguirre would want to associate herself with (though her sights were probably higher and her means lower) than common workmen, maids and market vendors. Dreyse appeared sympathetic and defrayed the cost of Tuco’s drinks, but he reluctantly conferred that he had nothing to offer, either, for the elder de Aguirre had ceased to work in the packing house, while his wife’s supervisory duties had kept her from paying calls on her friend. As for the younger de Aguirre, she was working, yes, but frequently left early, what with her mother being ill and the hiring of a nurse being out of the question.

            This puzzled Tuco. He was sure Ximena would have told him if her mother’s condition was so bad. He would have gladly offered – and secretly hoped he would be given the chance – to chip in to pay for a nurse or housekeeper, at least in the daytime, so that Ximena could work her full shift with her mind at ease. All labour was cheap in the province, but the labour of a girl or woman paid to do the things that all women knew was much cheaper than the labour of a strong young man, experienced in various kinds of specialized farm and mechanical work. And with his and Ximena’s incomes together – and everyone who knew the packing warehouse commented on what a diligent worker she was – they would survive just fine…a simple life, yes, but free from want in any of the real necessities of life. In this country, with land vast and boundless beyond the capacity of the hands tending it, a sober man with strong arms who neither gambled nor whored would never find himself without bread for his stomach and a roof over his head, despite it being the middle of a Depression.

            Thus Tuco reasoned with himself as he strolled down the street leading from the German restaurant through the market square and on down to the estate workers’ residences. The theories and plans he had constructed evaporated like rainwater on paving stones when the sun breaks through the clouds. He saw Ximena. She was going about her shopping, judging by the bags and baskets of different sorts of goods loading down her arms and shoulders. Her face, her hair, her smooth copper skin were as always, but there was guilt and shame in those obsidian eyes…feelings like he’d never seen before nor assumed her capable of. Her broad, rouged lips hung open wordless, but words would have been superfluous. It was natural, Tuco accepted, that Ximena should do the shopping for her small household, seeing as her mother was infirm and probably embarrassed by the mocking sidelong glances and over-loud whispers of the market women delighting in her newfound equality with them. It was not natural, though, that Ximena’s bag and baskets should be filled so inordinately full with fresh apples and pears, imported whitefish in tins, assorted Dutch and French cheeses, jellies and jams, crisp baguettes and other delicacies. It was natural that the nimble-fingered, keen-eyed girl should sew and mend clothing, maybe doing seamstress work in her off hours. It was manifestly out of place that she should bear under her arms not bolts of thin cotton prints, but rolls of salt-white linens, polychrome sateen and airy taffeta – such as the buttercream ensemble cascading in lacy ruffles to her ankles. Her padding, tender soles he glimpsed not, even as she curled and rolled her feet beneath her as if to hide them under her skirt – his gaze was denied by point-toed patent leather heels, decorated by useless silver buckles and so shiny he could see his defeat reflected within them. He did not ask her any questions or even look deeply into those bewitching eyes. He knew he would find only more lies.

            Dreyse, Dreyse’s wife, the overseer’s clerk…all must have known. However, much as Tuco wanted to reproach them, they couldn’t have known for very long. The young squire, Senor Narvaes, fils, as the only son of a wealthy family, had always been of a wilful, capricious nature; something Narvaez, père, had hoped a proper education in Europe might cure. Perhaps he might find a wife among some titled family in Spain, someone who would bring a restorative to the old gentry lines so long intermixing with each other – the Casa Narvaez had no need for that which money alone could buy. A few years earlier, and with a few more offspring in the line of succession, the son’s eccentricities would have received stern rebuke from the tradition-minded old man; if it wouldn’t harm his health, it was still bad form that a gentleman should prefer arepas and frijoles to beef and bread. Time and distance allow for reflection, however, and as Papa Narvaez read in the belated newspapers about the situation in the old country and searched his son’s infrequent letters for clues that he might be infected (like the rest of the university students and young dilettantes in Madrid) with the germs of godless, anarchic communism, his heart’s capacity for tolerance expanded several-fold. Love at first sight may not be the wisest policy, but no one has yet succeeded in refuting it with logic. Besides, as his wife nudged him, the sooner he got married, the less chance there was he would take off in a fit of idle heroism, like the Posada’s third boy, who had turned his mother’s hair white and sent her to the Confessional every week after he sailed to join the Republicans, shuttering churches and teaching some undoubtedly sinful thing called ‘interpretive dance’ to Andalusian peasants. And it was not the case that any of their forebears, the brave cavaliers who conquered the Andes and submitted the Pampas to the plough had taken Indian women as wives. Was not there a drop of Guarani or Mapuche blood in the noblest and most venerable families in the country – in them more than in the new arrivals? What did it matter if she were three fourths Indian, or even four fourths? Somehow her poor mother (there would be some headaches, admittedly) had managed to infuse her with all the charms and elegance of a true lady, who, once she stayed out of the sun and put on some proper clothes, would not look out of place in their grade of Society.

            Tuco had quietly left the estate as soon as he could. Fate had not been without sympathy for Tuco, and soon provided him with an opportunity to avenge his failing as a man, to forget Ximena’s treachery, or, if he could not forget, to win her back when the slick-haired fop flung her aside, as Tuco knew he would, leaving her to run to the arms of a true man, one who had proven himself as men from the dawn of history and before have done. He had not been in Paraguay six weeks before it happened that war broke out with Bolivia. He felt at home in the country he’d never visited, more at home than on the estate for, while the plantation and village Narvaez were familiar, he was cursed to ever remain a half-stranger, whereas on the farm he’d tramped out to near Encarnación, almost everyone was his own people; the people of his mother and father, who bore their features, ate their food and sung their songs in unconscious defiance of the conquerors’ will.

            Tuco cared not how it began. That some professors from America and England claimed to have found oil in the Chaco was not irrelevant to him – there would be good jobs when the fighting was through and the Bolivians driven out, especially for men like him, who had rare mechanical skills. Jobs that would pay better than working the soil – Ximena would need him to be solid and strong in every way a man could be when the cad came to scorn her. He did not hate the ‘Bolitas’; he had seen, after the first battle, that, officers aside, they were men like him. Sometimes the enemy was well-armed, with Krupp cannons and Madsen guns. In one battle, his regiment had been scattered with the Bolivians sent in great, tortoise-like vehicles running on tracks like steam excavators, whose hide was impervious to rifle and pistol bullets as the mapinguari’s. On other occasions, he and his comrades had charged enemy trenches, shocked at the lightness of their casualties, till the position had been stormed and they discovered that the enemy soldiers had only a fistful of cartridges to their state-of-the-art German-made rifles. Some of the smaller-built among the dead ‘men’ on the other side wore bushy, unkempt beards – a yank and a tug revealed tender, smooth faces that had yet to sprout a whisker of their own.

            The fighting that interspersed the stultifying boredom was rough, to be sure; the tribal vengeances that two generations prior would have been carried out with fragile bows and leathern bolos, now enacted with machine guns, grenades and armed biplanes. Had not most of them wallowed in the same barbarity a decade and some prior, the foreign observe-advisors and journalists would have chalked it up to the influence of savage heredity which had not yet time to adjust its techniques to modern tools which multiplied man’s destruction capacity a thousand-fold. By the spring, the headlines in the world’s presses were already alluding to a ‘meat grinder’ and ‘the nightmare of the trenches’ in the same breath and would soon have occasion to speak of a ‘South American Verdun’ or a ‘South American Passchendaele.’ The abysmal poverty of the two landlocked nations party to the conflict became the greatest hope for mercy, as neither could afford the bullets and shells to keep up the killing for very long, and the bankrupt states of Europe had not the cash to waste on an amusing but distant cockfight.

            General Estigarribia, commander in chief of the Paraguayan forces, knew this and so had his First Division on a forced march up the Arce-Saavedre-Alihuatá road, deep into the belly of the Chaco Humedo, so that if a ceasefire came, there would be a goodly spread of flags and markers on the sandbox map – Chile, Argentina, and the big foreign companies in Buenos Aires and Valparaiso were waiting like vultures to pounce on the victor with contracts and investments. The wily general knew, also, that the Edenic voluptuousness of the country was deceptive: the verdure covering the ground as modestly as a bridal veil hid a thin red soil that would collapse under the demands of a flock of goats, not to speak of an army of men. Not that he would have been averse to ‘foraging’ off the civilian population like a Napoleon or a Sherman; it was not so clever a strategy where the civilians were few and what passed for farms were a few hillside gardens stabbed into the charred soil with a digging stick. The aggressive strategy was a sensible way to capture some map-named points, but it was inevitable that the enemy would notice the glaring flaw in it that kept the general awake at night.

            Never having seen a map of Paraguay, Tuco did not know what it meant when panicked word spread along the line that the fort at Alihuatá had fallen, except that the great serpent of men and trucks turned round and marched double-quick, and that the number of biscuits and bully beef tins handed out each day grew smaller and the water trucks no longer filled their canteens quite full. On their retreat, hamlets where they’d bivouacked were charred and empty, the men in ditches, the women in the forests or on their way to hunger and the brothel in some large town No panpipes or melancholy songs perforated the leaden, humid night air; only the snarling of carrion-fed pie dogs and the screeches of predatory nightbirds.

            After setting camp for the night in the bed of a dry ravine (so their fires would not show to the artillery arrayed across the plain), Tuco was called, drowsy with sleep and the extra rations of a fever-felled comrade, into the Colonel’s tent. He was to be promoted to sergeant, in command of fifteen men, for an assault the next day, where he would be in the first wave. The ribbons pinned to his shirt shone to him only because he imagined they would shine for the eyes of another. The enemy was here? Tuco could not help asking. No, his superior replied; but they would be coming, advancing across the plain – his subalterns learned this listening to the radio. Tuco wondered how men fighting war could be so foolish as to talk their plans on a radio. Mortal fear overrode the thin shell of discipline formed in a couple weeks’ training, though, and Tuco asked how they meant to fight the Bolivians in the open ground again, for his brother soldiers and the radio had told him of how the Bolivians massacred the Paraguayans at Alihuatá and Campo Jordán, largely through employing those metal cars with caterpillar tracks, into which they had put some of their machine guns. No bullet could pierce their hides, and if men tried to approach close enough to throw grenades at them, they would be cut down by the machine guns or the Bolivian infantrymen around them. Was it not safer to retreat to a town, where they could shelter behind walls of stone and adobe, and so give themselves a fair chance? He had seen how one third of the men of his regiment were no longer with them, and the Bolivians had so many more soldiers, no matter what they did; more men, perhaps, he fretted, than they had bullets. The Colonel rose up, laughing and smiling down at Tuco, clapping a hand on his shoulder as one is wont to do in explaining some fact to an earnest but naïve child. Tables had turned, or would be shortly, the Colonel said, fondling his moustache. They would have help now: Argentina, uncomfortable at seeing the fighting spilling out to its own borders (and eager for its share of the wealth of The Hunting Land) had decided to send money and weapons to their side, to help them fend off the Bolivians so numerous. They were sending men, too; volunteers – the 7th Cavalry Regiment San Martin – with many rich men among them, some of whom were bringing great big rifles that folks used in far off places to hunt huge beasts called elephants; rifles which could put a bullet clean through the Bolivians’ metal monsters. The next day, when the Bolivians came rolling across the plain, they would await them at the ravine’s edge, in ditches and behind trees and boulders, kill their armoured cars, stop the advance, and then sweep over them like a brush fire. The Colonel clapped his hands and gulped a glass of brandy in premature celebration.

            It sounded fanciful, but the fanciful does not trouble the minds of men who have long lived outside the grey City, where people have grown trusting of the rules and textbooks by which humanity assumes the authority to dictate the conduct of the universe. He fell into sleep as easily on the eve of the great battle as a babe in the crib. Upon waking, there was, nonetheless, a strange residue of an unremembered dream. He recalled no unsettling sights, and there could not have been any nocturnal visions of disaster as would have waked him in a cold sweat. Still, he did not like that the feeling persisted through coffee and breakfast, no matter that the dawn arrived, revealing the landscape as obtusely bright and physical as he’d known it those past few months. And yet the curious sense of an impending something weighed on his nerves and made his fingers shake in lacing his boots and fumble twice as he loaded his rifle.

            The battle opened; it was as if the sky were covered by a sheet of invisible zinc drumming with a monsoon rain. But for the noise in the sky and the rumbling that came up through his feet and knees into his throat, the world was images and smells; ears were a superfluous annoyance. Events unfolded precisely as the Colonel had laid out. Onward came the men and boys of the enemy, the terror they must have felt being calmed by the olive-painted beasts crawling forward among them.

            The ivory trunks of the yatay palms, ramrod straight and arranged checkerboard fashion, flickered light and dark as the advancing army crossed in front of them. A minute more, and the Vickers tankettes emerged into open ground and Tuco lost count of the khaki-clad infantry swarming beside and behind them. Looking down his own side’s trenches from where he hunkered in a shallow gut, Tuco observed the allies the Colonel had spoken of with such enthusiasm – the Argentine volunteers of the 7th Regiment San Martin, disappointingly unmounted, waiting behind hastily constructed mud and log parapets on the right flank. It was easy to recognize them, even at a distance, by their crisp uniforms tailored like gentlemen’s suits, flared trousers and pale complexions. The second Tuco looked back at the advancing Bolivians, the volunteers’ anti-tank rifles boomed like a summer thunderstorm echoing across the plain, and the rifles and machine guns rattled and burped into action. Most of the tankettes stopped in their tracks, as if on order. Ten or fifteen seconds later, smoke and fire licked out from their hatches and seams, the crew occasionally following, before the vehicles flared up like piles of dry tinder.

            Despite the focusing influence of battle, Tuco found his attention inadvertently wandering over to his allies on the right, rather than the foe ahead of him. It was the sensation when one is in a crowd, or a place rich in nostalgia, when one instinctively expects to run into an old friend.

            From an unseen dugout down the line came a cascading relay of whistle blasts. Tuco checked his rifle, slapped his waist to feel the grenades hooked to his belt, and shouted cheers to his squad. Up over the embankment they charged, hunching low and ploughing headlong through the chest-high grass and thorn-scrub. He was blind until he burst into the clearing beneath the towering palms. A quarter of his squad did not come out of the grass, but the enemy had suffered worse. Lines of blue shadow and golden rays painted heaps of still and quivering bodies, mown like so much hay by the accurate rifle fire of the volunteers. A few tankettes were smouldering; the survivors running headlong to positions along a farther line of forest, situated at the base of a small mesa a couple hundred yards away, from which an emplaced skirmish line was taking potshots to cover their comrades’ retreat.

             Passing noon, the sun compelled Tuco and his men to drain their canteens. The narrow-crowned yatays provided almost no shade, though their fat, hard trunks and the bushes around them would do against the Bolivians’ bullets. Tuco looked with disgust to see the Argentines from their right flank just now slowly marching up, taking positions well back of the edge of the yatay grove. A runner was arriving from the rear, though Tuco guessed his message before he arrived and breathlessly poured out the report that the Bolivians were dug in in the next wood (so said the aircraft observers…though what could they know of the strength of an infantry position from in the sky?), which rose up in that direction. It was open ground in front; the Colonel did not want a frontal assault. There was a stream, though, in a shallow gully which curved around the left of the Bolivian position (Tuco could tell this from the vegetation; no need for an aeroplane). Tuco’s squad would go with Lieutenant Haber’s company through the ravine, outflank the Bolivians, and turn them to flight before they could bring up artillery or mortars. The Argentine marksmen on the right would give covering fire in order to pin the Bolivians and draw their fire while the maneuver was under way, of course.

            The straw-blonde blades of the elephantine grass drew invisible lines across Tuco’s shins and calves…The stream ran beside and around behind the Bolivian positions. Tuco, half-dead from heat, thirst, and sheer muscular exhaustion by the time they reached, could not believe that the enemy had not noticed eighty men staggering like heavily laden zombies to within a grenade’s throw. But, there they were, each bolita lying or crouching in the cool purple shade of the wood, calmly plugging away at the Argentineans across the field in front of them; not doing much damage, perhaps, but utterly safe themselves. Until Tuco’s men avalanched upon them at point blank range, that is. It was an affair of bayonets, grenades, daggers, shovels, fingers and teeth…not the sort of war which would appear on an Art Deco recruitment poster…

            Bolivian positions, further into the wood, held out, the odd sniper claiming an unlucky fellow who stood too long in the open, but the bulk of them were once more streaming back, split by the mesa. The full heat of the afternoon had burnt out whatever fight was left in either side. Tuco, his part played, the adrenaline spent, flopped into a half-finished foxhole at the base of a spreading acacia tree, accompanied by the corpses of a pair of Bolivian machine gunners. Resting his back on the parapet, he stared out from the forest’s twilit noon at the grassland which broke again at the edge of the forest island, through which the defeated Bolivians were scurrying. The prairie, dotted by the odd clump of thorny acacias and ragged quebrachos, stretched into an infinite horizon. The distant sky had grown dark, a blend of chalky ultramarine and purple, presaging rain, yet the sun struck the mesa with an uncanny brightness. He could hear the not-quite-extinguished battle popping ad cracking, but the whizz of bullets into the dirt a few metres away could not convince his mind of its relevance. His attention was concentrated exclusively on the mesa. It glowed radiantly, a curious deep, matte maroon colour which Tuco was sure could not be the natural hue of the stone.

            He opened his eyes. He was on his side, in the bottom of the shallow foxhole, facing into the dirt. Reflexively touching his head, though he felt no pain, he wondered how long he had been sleeping. He got up on his knees, peering over the parapet. The scene looked unchanged; the carnage exactly as he’d left it. A few of his platoon were visible here and there, quenching their thirsts behind cover or trading shots with the Bolivians lingering in the far corners of the wood. The Argentine volunteers, along with some Paraguayan troops carrying disassembled mortars and machine guns, were still crossing the open ground on the other side, between the wood Tuco’s men had just captured and their original positions. He was not surprised at all by what he saw among the ranks of friendlies, gingerly picking their way over the seized ground – though this very lack of surprise almost scared him at first. There, pointing directions to a mortar team as they advanced was a face familiar, even though Tuco had never seen it except before it had meaning to him. The glossy, knee-high boots, polished by some Indio boy orderly that morning and no doubt to be polished again when the sun fell; the gold braid on the weighty cuffs and on the stiff peaked cap, the glint of the mother-of-pearl grip of the pistol in the belt holster, and, above all, that face – refined, sensitive yet arrogant; the firm but delicate jaw and thoughtful eyes emanating the gentle fatalism of one who has succeeded by the mere fact of being his self. Tuco contemplated this discovery and wondered what to make of it. Then he looked at the hand gesturing to the mortar crew, fingers soft and uncalloused…as he studied this hand as best he could from the distance, the sun flamed upon something on it the way it flamed upon the queer mesa silently watching the scene, and Tuco knew what he must do…knew what he would do. The breech of his rifle opened; a stack of brazen bullets slotted in, sparkling as they vanished into the black belly of the Mauser. The Bolivian troops used the same rifles, firing the exact same ammunition as the Paraguayans. Solid, accurate guns, German-engineered. Precise far beyond the abilities of the chuño-fed conscripts who used them. At not even one hundred metres, on a steadily advancing target, a spot of red on the clean, pressed light-grey fabric told he could not have missed…

            Ordinarily, it bothered Tuco to see officers – rich men and the sons of rich men – being decorated with ribbons and medallions symbolizing the bravery belonging to the silent peons and barrio youths rounded up and traded for glory. He knew little of the dogmas preached by the trade unionists and professors, but he was conscious of his own manhood. He did not protest now, however. He stood, graven faced in the attentive ranks, as the General spoke into a microphone rigged up in front of the post office at the nameless settlement nearest the late battlefield. The General congratulated his boys (there were boys among them, but grizzled veterans, too) on their glorious victory, laying out strings of allusions and metaphors which produced no images in the soldiers’ minds. The General only regretted that it had come at the cost…numerically insignificant, but a sorrowful loss to the nation…of Lieutenant X, Major de Y…as well as one of the brave young souls whose sense of honour and love of freedom inspired them to come and fight as loyal friends of Mother Paraguay, Lieutenant Narvaez, 7th Cavalry Regiment San Martin….

            Tuco wore the sun-and-grime patina of the genuine grognard as naturally as he wore a campesino’s straw hat. Thus, his platoon mates came to the conclusion that he had been picked off by a Bolivian sniper during the night march through hostile territory. It was more credible than the truth, which no one would have bought besides the most cynical staff officer: that the indomitable Sergeant Tuco had deserted the ranks while much war remained to be fought.

            In a country corrupt and disorganized in the best of times (and now preoccupied with war), it was not hard for an unimportant man, no different in aspect from the average seasonal labourer, to move about unmolested by the forces of law and order. Crossing the border presented no obstacles, either, as Misiones was not formally incorporated into the Argentine state, and tropical backwaters run by Big Papa-Uncle types are not known for sophisticated bureaucracies and well-regulated customs controls. Spending freely to travel fast, Tuco was only a couple days behind the unfortunate Lieutenants personal effects (sending the body was impossible). Not wanting to create unnecessary difficulties, he lodged in a town several kilometres from the estate. Events of note in such parts are few enough that, posing as an itinerate labourer seeking hire on an estate, he could not avoid hearing, again and again, the news about the Casa Narvaez’ owner’s son having been killed on the battlefield. The other boarders at dinner, coarse working-class types like Tuco, agreed that the whole great war between Bolivia and Paraguay was a fool’s errand, the why and wherefore of which escaped them (mostly from want of reading), but it made the beans stick in his throat when Tuco saw the wistful glaze in rugged miners’ and cattlemens’ eyes when they reflected on how the old man’s only son, raised soft and spoiled how he was, nonetheless had so gleefully signed up to kill and die, meeting his end with his boots on, gun in hand, no shame to his conquistador forebears, real or imagined.

            The iron-grey sky was spilling an icy deluge, mudding the laterite roads and making each step an effort of will. Tuco was nonetheless grateful for the weather. It was an excuse to shroud himself in a long poncho as he made his way up the main street of the village he called home. None recognized him. It was as the returning soldier wished. He had on him a few days’ biscuits, dried beef, a Bible, a gold ring set with a diamond in the new-fangled fashion, and a Colt pistol from a dead Bolivian machine gunner’s holster.

            He detoured from the main road to cut through a maté field he’d worked planting. The field, whose bushes were high and full, stood on a slight elevation. It gave fine vantage of the immediate grounds of the estate – the great house, stables, garage and other outbuildings, and the ornamental gardens. The lilies sagged their waterlogged heads and the colours of the roses were dulled from the rain and cloud. The weather was matched in mood by the sombre military men in their grey cloaks who bowed to the assembled crowd and presented the arranged effects of the deceased Lieutenant Narvaez to his father. The old man’s face was white as his shirt, his suddenly aged frame drooping like his rain-soaked moustache. The old man’s trembling hands were usurped, though, by arms frail and feminine, belonging to one whose manifest grief was as profound as his own – but oppositely expressed. The woman’s ivory complexion was rendered more dramatic by the curtains of intricate black lace and silk that billowed around her frame, much reduced since Tuco had glimpsed her last, and her posture and motions would have convinced anyone she was a European lady – and an aristocrat at that – at least from a distance. There was no mistaking the face, though, and those brilliant almond-shaped eyes flashing a light which could not have come from the rain-muffled sun. She could not have seen him; he knew that, but he saw her clearly in those eyes, and in the wail, at once angelic and terrifying, which pierced the rain, and wind, and his soul.

           The funeral, such as it could be in the absence of a casket, proceeded with a satisfying combination of grief and decorum. The priest, who had known the departed when he was an altar boy, intoned the ritual phrases in correct and sublime Latin, the somber mood broken only once. Who would be so ignorant as to go hunting grouse or hare in such weather, and on such a day? But the mourners, in accord with the religious atmosphere of the occasion and with their minds on more important matters, were charitable enough to forgive the insensitivity of someone who was probably a sporting tourist come up from the city for the weekend; someone who could never know their hearts.