Painting on a Summer Evening, Grange Avenue, Toronto

by M.G. Warenycia

A caterpillar is marching circuits

Around the window fame.

The chestnuts and linden lush

And perfumed with Jasmine tea

Smother the humdrum Sturm und Drang

As the hot and irritable City seeps outward

Like water squeezed from a sponge.

“The world has been getting smaller,”

She says the truth.

First school, then university seemed to fade;

“They still exist,” she secretly suspects,

Recalling walking past daydream backgrounds of

Faces and voices—but that was long ago.

A year? Two?

Club nights and parties became occasional effort

And then a crime.

All the places become Google images

Alone; all the people become pics and posts.

“The world is getting smaller”—

She paints to chase away the thought

And to lure ghosts

Of Yesterday, Tomorrow and Elsewhere

To make her feel familiar.

And there’s YouTube and Netflix,

Poirot and Studio Ghibli in HD DVD.

It helps and then it doesn’t

When, in the evening through the still-dark morn,

With the cold-sweat panic

To be Somewhere and Someone one isn’t.

Brew some coffee, put on a podcast, paint:

Emergency measures

Wielded with flagrant frequency

That would make dictators blush.

On the canvas, a moth

Has seen a light,

Flaps to fly

And hits the wall of a jar.

The jar is getting smaller…

The breeze at the window is so fresh

It feels wasted

On sleeping nostrils,

The light beyond so beautiful and bright

It aches; she wants to scream

But no one can hear her through the jar.

Exiled Among the Crowd

Adrift, whipped on by fear, fashioning a mask

Image of the doppelganger of defiant daydreams,

Frantic trembling, lest it should tear at the seams.

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Hollow shells, growing ever more hollow;

It is easy to lose track of one’s soul;

In the suffocating darkness, the lonely vastness,

Where that which is scattered may not be made whole.

*

Some suffer in silence, some seek a prideful fall;

Ah, priceless is a knowing heart, a warm lamp amidst the somber pall.

*

A soft prison insidious cruel;

When wounds are forgotten, the heart abandons the battle.

The flesh unconscious indulged, the spirit, numb, slowly starves on watery gruel.   

*

The day done and the night still, the mind half-lucid wanders,

Losing the struggle to sleep, beginning to fret;

For misdeeds and deeds undone equal carry a life-sentence of regret.

*

Was it wise to part

If, when asked “why?” we armour ourselves with anger?

Alas, to spare us tears we impose an exile on our hearts,

And make of ourselves a stranger.